I did not grow up with easy access to it either. We both grew up with magazines and store clerks making sure we did not go by that section.Maybe it’s because I didn’t grow up with easy access to it? It doesn’t provide me any satisfaction.
While I can blame being an incel after 2005/2006 (ie once I hit 29/30 years old) and attribute that for wanting to watch porn after that time. Prior to that time the reasoning is more murky, especially while being in University and finding a crazy stash of magazines in the back of dad's car that just caused me to backslide into this in 1997 (ie I had stopped watching porn in 1993, when there was a dial-up internet consumption of that mainly in 1992). One can argue, I never recovered from the 1997 porn backslide, it may have become more sophisticated and/or tamer, more catering to lonliness rather than getting-off, compared to youth (ie where lonliness was less of an issue, but horniness and getting off was), but never completely went away.
Was your father into that stuff?