I still look very masculine overall
the big muscles
the dark, masculine facial features (I have a great jawline/chin, thick eyebrows, thick neck)
my clothes are mostly dark grey, black and blue
my facial stubble is great (thick, dark)
I have a very carefully controlled "presentation" where I just look like a naturally great looking man who enjoys dressing nice. I don't look gay and I'm not overly groomed in the face. I don't pluck my eyebrows, I have some hair on my chest. I don't wear skinny jeans, everything is fitted but not too tight... I've been forced to be this obsessive with my appearance because it has gotten me barely any results. If I was average looking, I would probably be a virgin by now. This is how demanding women are nowadays
trust me, I'm much much much more than the price tag on my clothes or the size of my arms. I am genuinely a very good person and I enjoy a deep, intelligent, philosophical conversation as much as anybody. My dad has a masters degree in electrical engineering. Whenever I see him, all we talk about is the world, politics, history, etc...
and what ego? Most of the time, I have to pump myself up for 30 minutes to say hi to a girl I like. I still wonder if I'm good enough to have a decent girlfriend. I still feel like I need to be wayyyyyyyy more perfect to be good enough for a woman. I'm obsessed with self perfection because that's what women demand nowadays
I could do online dating and get zero replies because I'm only a 7.5/10 and not a 10/10 in the face (I can't control my ethnic facial features. I've maximized every aspect of myself as much as humanly possible and it still probably wouldn't be enough)