If you are willing, would you share more about what that ^^^ is for you?
Of course!
I think my last LTR, and reading threads here kind of made me hardened toward relationships. I really just became numb to women. They're great for svx, hanging out with, and some communication, but nothing deeper.
I'd go on a crap load of dates, go home with a ton of them and that was about it. Girls would call me distant, non caring, and mean. And I really didn't care. They weren't really bringing anything to the table so I was losing nothing. What's even more funny is that these same women calling me these things were blowing up my phone trying to get me to be more!
So now, I meet this chick that's different. More on a connection level for me. It's hard to pinpoint, and I know we all have different things that turn us on, but for me, she just works.
I'm weirded out because This has not been anything I've experienced or wanted. I prefer situations that are easy to walk away from, not situations that can led to complications.
I'm very good at controlling my emotions (Buddhist), yet very in tune to my surroundings. We'll see how it all plays out. I'll remain patient and calm.
On a side note: she met me out last night. We were sitting at the bar talking, and She gave me some random compliment while being all touchy. I sarcastically said "I think you're starting to like me. Ha ha!" She pulls out her cell phone and says "I want you to read this"
It was a text she sent to her friend.
"I seriously think I'm falling in love with this guy, he's the best guy I've ever met"
I handed her phone back and said "nice text. Pretty flattering. Thank you." She's not pushing real hard yet, but it's coming.