I't been a few years since I've been here, but I need to get my head right because things aren’t working right now.
I've noticed lately I'm starting to hate women. It’s a feeling that goes beyond the "frustrated" in AFC. It's a true hatred that you'd just have to experience to understand.
I’m struggling to value women very little if at all, yet I see men running to take care of them and "treat them well" and it makes me wonder why I don't do the same. I couldn't care less about them. I objectify them and treat them with extreme indifference and coldness. I mock them and withhold attention for the sole purpose of being a jerk. To me, they're worth nothing more than casual sex. I know I know, a DJ loves women, yet regardless, this is the reality of things for me right now.
I'm noticing extreme levels of hatred for women I've never had before. I hate their characters, their attitudes, their disloyalty, their nature, their double standards and quite frankly, them. I hate them for what they are. I enjoy ripping their spirits apart and eviscerating them emotionally and not showing any sort of remorse whatsoever. In many ways, I feel they deserve nothing but the worst from me. Where the hell is this coming from? I know everyone touts the mantra, "They're not all like that" yet I'll be frank, it seems most ARE like that. To me, women are horrendously low-quality, ****ty people.
I don't care about their interests in bed, I don't care about doing nice things for them and I don't care about their goals or dreams. Quite simply, I hate them and don't respect them and I get intense satisfaction when I see them suffer as a result of their ****ty choices. Most men would feel ashamed for having these feelings and would vehemently deny hating women for fear of being labeled a misogynist, yet I won't. I know the score and that's where it's at right now and couldn't care less if someone labeled me as such because they'd be right.
I've had to work intensely hard to get where I'm at in life, yet they just show up and they have the world at their feet, pick and choose from among the best, live an easy life. I don't know how you guys accept this nonsense with grace. Things were supposed to get better when I started breaking the bank, going from fat to fit and running the show. That's not happening and I'm starting to get extremely resentful. I'm at the point of disavowing women entirely and just living a hedonistic, self-absorbed life i.e. MGTOW, that’s how little I value them.
I don't know what's going on, maybe I just need to vent. Internal alarm bells are ringing letting me know something isn't right. This level of hatred and anger toward them is a new one for me and isn't normal.
Thanks.