I decided to record my experiences of tripping for myself, just so I would know for next time how long it takes to get "hit," etc. I've also just written some other thoughts/comments, so I thought I'd just write them here and share.
DXM
Trip Log for Wednesday, Nov. 9th
9:50AM – Consumed ~130mg (I weigh around 61kg, so around 2.1mg/kg, enough for mid first plateau)
10:30AM– Feeling a bit queasy, and had a slight stomach cramp because I took it on an empty stomach
11AM – Hit me very strong, like a tank…difficult to move, wobbly
11:30AM – Still very high, but able to move though quite unstable…time is very distorted and 5 minutes seemed like 20 minutes…everything is a bit slowed
12:00PM, 1PM – Best high time, a very moderate buzz, feeling bouncy like I can fly, very calm and relaxed, feels so damn good. Also makes you want to fvck every girl in sight...I did a few approaches, just like everyday, but honestly, even though I felt "smoother" my game sucks under the influence. I opened one girl with, "hey, are you clipping your toenails?" LOL. 3 rejections, 1 fake number...and I barely ever get fake numbers normally. I don't even attempt closes that often.
2PM – After buzz…wearing off some, feel lethargy setting in; the “after buzz” feeling seemed to last until around 7PM, which is when the “tiredness” seemed to fade a bit. Not sure if it gives you a permanent boost of "feeling free," but it sure seems like the next day and hours subsequent to the end of the “after buzz” that I still feel that “zone of absolute freedom”
At around
4:30PM I played football…just threw the ball back and forth with a friend, and I seemed very coordinated and caught almost every ball…very aware and awake. Afterwards, my right index finger twitched uncontrollably…not sure if this is related to the DXM.
11/10/05
Next day, after better sleep, much more energized. Still feel like I am on something a little, I feel the “numbness” in my limbs.
Pure Powder
Found a
website to purchase pure powder from.
A $55, 10G package would be enough to last me my lifetime limit of trips, of around 50-75 at approximately 130mg each. However, I am considering purchasing 500g – 1kg at bulk, packaging them in pill form and selling them…$4 for two 130mg pills. I will probably buy low and see how high the demand is, then decide to buy bulk if there is enough demand. The potential profit margin is enormous. I could make close to $9K off of 500g, and double that, $18K, off 1kg. It is very illegal, and the consequences are very damaging to not only my reputation but my whole family. If I choose to do this, I will plan it out to the most minute detail. I will write an actual business plan, and make sure every customer signs a contract agreeing to the risks, etc. I have to make it as legal as possible. Not only are there risks involved with customers abusing the product, but I need to figure out where and how to store that much powder, keep it safe from others stealing it, and keep it fresh, etc. I will also need to sell under alias, and only do so in certain areas etc. I will definitely look into all the legal aspects and possible consequence etc.
I am moving to Cali very soon, and with the rate of drugs, porn, and other similar activity that runs rampant in Southern California, I could sell this like hot cakes. This could be big, I could start an entire operation and eventually hire dealers to distribute the pills in San Francisco, San Diego, San Jose, and L.A. I wonder if anyone has ever tried to actually strategically plan…as in write up a real business plan and plan this out for real…I think it could work.
DDC, any thoughts/suggestions/warnings/advice?
Addiction
Yeah…Porky and Jimbo2k, good point, I definitely need to be more careful.
On Wednesday, when I popped a dose for the second high in the morning, immediately after, I regretted it. I was like to myself, “damn, why did I just do that?” Because I realized I had some work to get done today, and being high wouldn’t exactly help my productivity, and it didn’t. So, in retrospect, I’ve already come to realized the impaired judgment and desire to get high can be very bad and I will be more careful. From now, I have decided to limit it to 2 days a week, and plan ahead so as to do it only when I know I can afford to let a day go by with no productivity. Thank goodness I have finally learned some time management and discipline lately, otherwise had I done this without being in good mental shape, I would have easily failed all my classes this semester, tripping everyday.
I think it is very easy to get hooked on that high. It is such an amazing feeling, that you need to watch yourself.
I’ve never tried cocaine, and I don’t intend on it. I have a friend (in fact, the guy I wing with) who is practically hooked.