backbreaker
Master Don Juan
I was at the movies watching a movie by myself and my phone rings. It was a female friend of mine and I told her I would call her back once I get out of the movie.
Once I left and we started talking... nothing serious at all, I asked her how was her day and she said she was going to eat BBQ with her parents but they didn't cook so she called some friends and had a pizza. Doesn't seem like a big deal, not a big deal at all right? As a matter of fact it really wasn't, but it was something about that comment that got to me for the next 10 mintues or so. Eventually I told her I would call her tomorrow and when I got off of the phone I started thinking.
Me and this girl met though her EX friend, and I use that term loosely, and my Ex Girl Friend (same person). AFter I broke up with my Ex, me and her became pretty good friends. She knew I liked her, I eventually told her, but she told me that she couldn't do anything with me because of her friend, which I could honestly understand.
Eventually I was picking her up from school and even taking her to school every once in a while... Even then, and this was when I was 18, I worked for myself and had flexable hours.
She would call me late at night and we would talk on the phone until she litearly would fall alseep. We could talk about everything, and still can, execpt of course, me and her. She told me a couple of times that she didn't want a BF, but one day she calls me and throws in a convo that she has a new BF.
Me and her got into an arguement a month later, beause she begged me to take her to the club, and when I called her she never answered. I got worried, seriously, and went by her house to check up to at least make sure she was there, and low and behold she is there with her BF. It's not that she was there with her BF, but the fact that she didn't even consider calling me to say that she wasn't going, which ruined my night waiting around for her. I told her if me and her weren't going anywhere, not to call me but then sent her a letter in response apologizing. She showed it to her BF and I tried to follow up the letter with a phone call, which he picked up. It recently, very recently came out that the reason that she didn't call me back is because her BF didn't want her talking to me. Someone who you consider to be your "best friend" for over a year gone because your BF for 1 month is over protective.
In March, ironically 2 years to the day I told her to stop talking to me, she sent me a letter sa ying she missed me and wanted to talk to me again.
Now, truth be told, I do care about this girl, and I can honestly say, without bull****ting that I seriously wouldn't mind being FRIENDS with her; 2 years I couldn't but now I get enough action from other sources that I am not desperate. The thing is, she doesn't treat me like a FRIEND, but more like emotional support her BF doesn't provide.
When it comes to talking, I seriously doubt she is as comfortable around anyone else then around me, we can litearly talk about anything. There are certain extremely personal family issues that she has that I k now that no one else knows. But you would think that friends would you know.. do friend things... like go grab a bite to eat every once in a while or I don't know, make an attempt to see someone every once in a while.
One of the reasons I COULD be a friend with her is because she would make great social proof and would provide a good companion when I just need to have a female parter to attend certain events, but you can't do that if you can't SEE anyone.
2 years ago I saw her literaly every day, but that was because I picked her up from school, I very rarely saw her after school. Since March I have saw her 4 times in all... One day she came over my apartment and we just chilled, the next day she asked me to come to an art center with her to help with some homework, around 2 weeks later we met at starbucks, and around 1 month ago we met on a wednesday night at waffle house. The thing about thoose, is that they were not random I want to see you events, each one of thoose times, I know 3 at least, her and her BF were having true problems.
Anyway, she even had the oddesity to tell me about this guy who was hitting on her at her mom's job who is 25, 5 years older and how she is entertaining the thought of dating him.
For some reason it all hit me like a ton of bricks tonight, don't really know why, it just did. I am actually PISSED off how someone could have the nerve to use someones kindness for granted.
With that said, let me get some things clear; I hardly, if ever call her. The only time I really call her is when her phone dies, as it did today, or if I need a favor, which is never. Also, I know she thinks I am attractive; not only has she told me, her friends have told me that she thinks I am very cute. And as much as I have talked bad about her in this post, she really, really isn't a bad person, just a little immautre and used to getting by on her looks.
But like I said, more than anything I am just pissed off, so much so where I am seriously, seroioulsy debating if I want to talk to her anymore, even as a friend. You can go eat pizza with the same friends you see every other day but you can't call me up and see if I want to go and grab a bite to eat? You can go out all day but take up my time at night or when you are having problems? It really just pisses me off the more I think about it.
Once I left and we started talking... nothing serious at all, I asked her how was her day and she said she was going to eat BBQ with her parents but they didn't cook so she called some friends and had a pizza. Doesn't seem like a big deal, not a big deal at all right? As a matter of fact it really wasn't, but it was something about that comment that got to me for the next 10 mintues or so. Eventually I told her I would call her tomorrow and when I got off of the phone I started thinking.
Me and this girl met though her EX friend, and I use that term loosely, and my Ex Girl Friend (same person). AFter I broke up with my Ex, me and her became pretty good friends. She knew I liked her, I eventually told her, but she told me that she couldn't do anything with me because of her friend, which I could honestly understand.
Eventually I was picking her up from school and even taking her to school every once in a while... Even then, and this was when I was 18, I worked for myself and had flexable hours.
She would call me late at night and we would talk on the phone until she litearly would fall alseep. We could talk about everything, and still can, execpt of course, me and her. She told me a couple of times that she didn't want a BF, but one day she calls me and throws in a convo that she has a new BF.
Me and her got into an arguement a month later, beause she begged me to take her to the club, and when I called her she never answered. I got worried, seriously, and went by her house to check up to at least make sure she was there, and low and behold she is there with her BF. It's not that she was there with her BF, but the fact that she didn't even consider calling me to say that she wasn't going, which ruined my night waiting around for her. I told her if me and her weren't going anywhere, not to call me but then sent her a letter in response apologizing. She showed it to her BF and I tried to follow up the letter with a phone call, which he picked up. It recently, very recently came out that the reason that she didn't call me back is because her BF didn't want her talking to me. Someone who you consider to be your "best friend" for over a year gone because your BF for 1 month is over protective.
In March, ironically 2 years to the day I told her to stop talking to me, she sent me a letter sa ying she missed me and wanted to talk to me again.
Now, truth be told, I do care about this girl, and I can honestly say, without bull****ting that I seriously wouldn't mind being FRIENDS with her; 2 years I couldn't but now I get enough action from other sources that I am not desperate. The thing is, she doesn't treat me like a FRIEND, but more like emotional support her BF doesn't provide.
When it comes to talking, I seriously doubt she is as comfortable around anyone else then around me, we can litearly talk about anything. There are certain extremely personal family issues that she has that I k now that no one else knows. But you would think that friends would you know.. do friend things... like go grab a bite to eat every once in a while or I don't know, make an attempt to see someone every once in a while.
One of the reasons I COULD be a friend with her is because she would make great social proof and would provide a good companion when I just need to have a female parter to attend certain events, but you can't do that if you can't SEE anyone.
2 years ago I saw her literaly every day, but that was because I picked her up from school, I very rarely saw her after school. Since March I have saw her 4 times in all... One day she came over my apartment and we just chilled, the next day she asked me to come to an art center with her to help with some homework, around 2 weeks later we met at starbucks, and around 1 month ago we met on a wednesday night at waffle house. The thing about thoose, is that they were not random I want to see you events, each one of thoose times, I know 3 at least, her and her BF were having true problems.
Anyway, she even had the oddesity to tell me about this guy who was hitting on her at her mom's job who is 25, 5 years older and how she is entertaining the thought of dating him.
For some reason it all hit me like a ton of bricks tonight, don't really know why, it just did. I am actually PISSED off how someone could have the nerve to use someones kindness for granted.
With that said, let me get some things clear; I hardly, if ever call her. The only time I really call her is when her phone dies, as it did today, or if I need a favor, which is never. Also, I know she thinks I am attractive; not only has she told me, her friends have told me that she thinks I am very cute. And as much as I have talked bad about her in this post, she really, really isn't a bad person, just a little immautre and used to getting by on her looks.
But like I said, more than anything I am just pissed off, so much so where I am seriously, seroioulsy debating if I want to talk to her anymore, even as a friend. You can go eat pizza with the same friends you see every other day but you can't call me up and see if I want to go and grab a bite to eat? You can go out all day but take up my time at night or when you are having problems? It really just pisses me off the more I think about it.
" then you write her a letter saying your sorry you got mad? wtf
