The reason why I joined this site is because of her....Jessica. I have known Jessica for two years prior to us dating. We use to work together and I always had a thing for her, but was afraid to make a move on her. I saw her date losers one after another and couldnt understand why a fine girl would date these guys when I thought that I was better suited for her. I finally made a move on her, but she already had feelings for someone else who also worked with us. He was a short little thug that somehow got to her. She was a 5'7'' Latina with a great ass. they dated for awhile,but then he messed up. He cheated on her and that was the end of their relationship. Months after that she started to show interest in me. Well she showed interest in me before, but they were mix signals. I didnt talk to her much while she was dating the other guy and didnt know that they broke up until her friend told me. To make a long story short I let my guard down and started to date her for 7 months, but it was an emotional roller coaster. I let her dictate my mood. If i call and she doesnt answer I would get down on myself. She basically chose when she wanted to go out with me and I just went along with it. Finally last year around this time she had enough of me and didnt want to see me anymore. I was crushed because we were friends before we started dating. She blamed me for not caring about her, not calling enough, not putting enought effort. but in reality everyone could see that I was the one putting in the effort. Everyone knew that I cared for her. She was cheated on by two of her ex's. Her first bf cheated on her and got another girl pregnant. Two of her friends told me to make Jessica happy and not to hurt her. I tried my best to make her happy, but she never was happy with me. There was so many times I wanted to just let her go but the AFC in me convince me to just ride through the storm and just continuing to go with the flow.
After our breakup I havent called her since. But she called me, but i never answered that call. Today i still still about that call. what if i had answered it? The last time i saw her was in January at her friends bday party. She flirted with me, but I resisted. She wanted to talk to me, but her words couldnt come out her mouth. At least that was what i was sensing. Later on I found out from a friend that after our breakup...maybe months after she went to the clinic for depression. That news hit me and I wanted to run straight to her and comfort her, love her, and care for her. All this time I wanted to call her and to see her, but I never did. I dont think I ever will. she can live her life and I will live mines.
By reading this site it taught me to just walk away from a troubling situation. It talk me to deal with this like a man and just move on. during my AFC days I probably would have ran back to her and beg her to be with me again even after all she has put me through. I hated the person I was back then. I was weak minded thats why she left. Im different now. Im more guarded, more stronger. I recently transfer from a JC to a University and have my own apartment. Im enjoying the college life and currently majoring in Psychology.
MVplaya, to anwer your last question: from time to time I do think about using what I learn from this site to get her again because I know that I will never forget about her. But i also know that I would just be wasting my time with a girl that broke my heart and betrayed me once. Plus Im in college now and there are plenty of fine girls around.