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Master Don Juan
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I'd like to take some time to tell you about a powerful recreational drug which many, many people in this world are currently addicted to. This drug has been around as far back as recorded history has existed and has been widely used by members of all known civilizations.
Effects include a generalized feeling of euphoria, inability to focus, weakness in the knees, upset stomach, dilated pupils, and impaired judgement, among others. The drug normally increases the sex drive. Artists have used this drug to inspire them in many different cultures.
This drug is EXTREMELY addictive. Often people who fall under the influence of this drug experience a horrible crashing feeling when removed from its influence and spend days or weeks (in some extreme cases, months and years) waiting for their next dose. Withdrawl symptoms include feelings of guilt, worry, worthlessness, loss of appetite, difficulty sleeping or focusing on mundane tasks, anxiety, depression, and in some extreme cases, suicidal tendencies manifest themselves. Eventually, as with all addictive drugs, without the presence of the substance, the user begins to feel "sick" and seeks the drug more to feel "normal" than to get the previously described euphoric high.
The drug is one of the few that is widely and legally available in virtually every civilized society in the globe. Use is encouraged by society to keep its members distracted from individualistic tendencies. Its use also stimulates the economy. People of all cultures, in some cases, end up spending huge sums of money on this drug and large amounts of time under its influence. It is the soma of our generation...it keeps consumers consuming and producers producing. At the same time, it tends to stifle individuality and free expression of thought, prevents enlightenment and actualization of one's potential.
I was addicted to this drug myself. About a month ago, I decided that I was going to quit it. The first few days were agonizing. I didnt' want to eat, work sleep, or do anything except lay around and crave that drug. To this day, I still crave it. Though it was destoying my life, it provided a beautiful illusion for me...one that I still sometimes crave. But I know now that I've quit the drug that the illusion is just a sickness that isn't real.
I hope eventually the cravings will subside. In the meantime, I'm trying to get my life back on track. I'm starting to see how horribly it was derailed by engaging in the use of this drug. How much I had lost faith in myself and in the world around me. At the peak of my addiction, the only thing I could muster faith in was the stuff itself. It was the only thing that I had to live for. Everything I did, everything I undertook, was secretly, somewhere in the back of my mind, a move made to get more of the stuff. I felt like I needed it to be a good person, like it somehow made me whole when I was empty. It's hard to believe anything so bad for me, so destructive in my life, could feel so damn good.
I know now that I am a much better, stronger, person with infinitely more potential when I'm not under the influence of this stuff. For the first time in a long time, I'm finally starting to respect myself again and to see the enormous potential I have to make a difference in my own life and other people's. Maybe eventually, I'll be strong enough to enter into a relationship of trust and caring. (and lots of freaky sex, too)
And still, STILL I get cravings, I remember what that high felt like and I have to tell myself how it was just an illusion and that going back under the influence would just destroy everything I'm trying so hard now to create.
I'm not sure what the technical name is for this drug, but its street-name, the name that everyone knows it by, is "love".
Are you addicted to it?
Effects include a generalized feeling of euphoria, inability to focus, weakness in the knees, upset stomach, dilated pupils, and impaired judgement, among others. The drug normally increases the sex drive. Artists have used this drug to inspire them in many different cultures.
This drug is EXTREMELY addictive. Often people who fall under the influence of this drug experience a horrible crashing feeling when removed from its influence and spend days or weeks (in some extreme cases, months and years) waiting for their next dose. Withdrawl symptoms include feelings of guilt, worry, worthlessness, loss of appetite, difficulty sleeping or focusing on mundane tasks, anxiety, depression, and in some extreme cases, suicidal tendencies manifest themselves. Eventually, as with all addictive drugs, without the presence of the substance, the user begins to feel "sick" and seeks the drug more to feel "normal" than to get the previously described euphoric high.
The drug is one of the few that is widely and legally available in virtually every civilized society in the globe. Use is encouraged by society to keep its members distracted from individualistic tendencies. Its use also stimulates the economy. People of all cultures, in some cases, end up spending huge sums of money on this drug and large amounts of time under its influence. It is the soma of our generation...it keeps consumers consuming and producers producing. At the same time, it tends to stifle individuality and free expression of thought, prevents enlightenment and actualization of one's potential.
I was addicted to this drug myself. About a month ago, I decided that I was going to quit it. The first few days were agonizing. I didnt' want to eat, work sleep, or do anything except lay around and crave that drug. To this day, I still crave it. Though it was destoying my life, it provided a beautiful illusion for me...one that I still sometimes crave. But I know now that I've quit the drug that the illusion is just a sickness that isn't real.
I hope eventually the cravings will subside. In the meantime, I'm trying to get my life back on track. I'm starting to see how horribly it was derailed by engaging in the use of this drug. How much I had lost faith in myself and in the world around me. At the peak of my addiction, the only thing I could muster faith in was the stuff itself. It was the only thing that I had to live for. Everything I did, everything I undertook, was secretly, somewhere in the back of my mind, a move made to get more of the stuff. I felt like I needed it to be a good person, like it somehow made me whole when I was empty. It's hard to believe anything so bad for me, so destructive in my life, could feel so damn good.
I know now that I am a much better, stronger, person with infinitely more potential when I'm not under the influence of this stuff. For the first time in a long time, I'm finally starting to respect myself again and to see the enormous potential I have to make a difference in my own life and other people's. Maybe eventually, I'll be strong enough to enter into a relationship of trust and caring. (and lots of freaky sex, too)
And still, STILL I get cravings, I remember what that high felt like and I have to tell myself how it was just an illusion and that going back under the influence would just destroy everything I'm trying so hard now to create.
I'm not sure what the technical name is for this drug, but its street-name, the name that everyone knows it by, is "love".
Are you addicted to it?
