I'm beginning to realize that my parents may be the reason why I started off high school with low confidence. I feel good about myself now but I had to learn from the internet (and teach myself...) how to "not be afraid." I would describe myself, last year, as a pu**y. My parents didn't even really care that I was an unsocial person.
Don't get me wrong...I LOVE my parents (and brother) more than anyone else in the world (besides me), and I am willing to spend time with them. It's just that even when we're not DOING anything, they don't like it when I go places with my friends. I DON'T EVEN GO OUT THAT OFTEN because I know it pisses them off. But still, my dad will say things like "Oh? So are you going to go to every party you're invited to?" whenever I ask him if I can go somewhere. Then he gets mad if I come back home at like 9 o' clock. They aren't even always "parties." He just assumes whenever I want to go to the mall or see a movie with my friends, it some kind of big event or something...and he doesn't want me to go to all of them. I can understand if I was being punished for something in particular or if I was hanging out with a "bad crowd" but nothing like that is happening. I also undertand that I can't go with my friends all the time, but I don't think he realizes how much stuff I don't go to. It's like...he doesn't trust me or something. He says he does but I don't believe it with the way he treats me. Even when I get my license, he wants to know where I am all the time. I try hard at school, I've never got in serious trouble, I've never been suspended, and I'm an all around good kid but...I'm frustrated I guess. Now that I'm getting comfortable with my new social/DJ skills, I think the only thing that's holding me back is my parents. I love them...but what am I supposed to do?
Don't get me wrong...I LOVE my parents (and brother) more than anyone else in the world (besides me), and I am willing to spend time with them. It's just that even when we're not DOING anything, they don't like it when I go places with my friends. I DON'T EVEN GO OUT THAT OFTEN because I know it pisses them off. But still, my dad will say things like "Oh? So are you going to go to every party you're invited to?" whenever I ask him if I can go somewhere. Then he gets mad if I come back home at like 9 o' clock. They aren't even always "parties." He just assumes whenever I want to go to the mall or see a movie with my friends, it some kind of big event or something...and he doesn't want me to go to all of them. I can understand if I was being punished for something in particular or if I was hanging out with a "bad crowd" but nothing like that is happening. I also undertand that I can't go with my friends all the time, but I don't think he realizes how much stuff I don't go to. It's like...he doesn't trust me or something. He says he does but I don't believe it with the way he treats me. Even when I get my license, he wants to know where I am all the time. I try hard at school, I've never got in serious trouble, I've never been suspended, and I'm an all around good kid but...I'm frustrated I guess. Now that I'm getting comfortable with my new social/DJ skills, I think the only thing that's holding me back is my parents. I love them...but what am I supposed to do?