Floridaboy23
Don Juan
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The last few weeks have been so up and down it's not even funny. I'll admit I've had TOO MUCH time on my hands and have been too reliant on the internet in recent months but I've never been flaked out on so much. The hottest chick I was talking to has kept me at bay...the few times I've called her since the first time, she won't pick up or call back. Then she leaves me comments on myspace about how good I look and even has a picture of herself that I think she did to copy one of mine....uses things I've said for captions under her pics but our contact has been reduced to the net now even though I'm sure we would have a lot of fun together. Another chick I had phonesex with a few nights ago kept going on and on about how she wanted to come over **** me the next day (yesterday)....then I call her up and leave a message only to find out later that she deleted me from her friend list for some odd reason. I was later to find out that she "wasn't ready for sex with me like she thought", said the phonesex thing was a game to her and that she suddenly realized I'm not her type. lol Seems like I'm in the most absurd situations where girls are really impressed, or want to trick me into thinking so, before they totally flake out or do something drastic like that.
Yesterday, a pest control lady came to my house and caught me off guard. I came out when she was done to sign off for her. A little squirrel was following her around, latching onto her leg and we made conversation for like 15 minutes....seemed like the squirrel was a good excuse for her to stick around. I think she liked talking even though the squirrel was a good excuse.. So she took the squirrel home with her and before she left I got her number. She's an older woman....the only kind I ever really have success with. I think it's partly because young girls are just too scattered even though they may be impressed at first and partly because they're reluctant about the internet. Either way, really negative, defeating situations arise out of nowhere just when I think I'm about to get something going. I find I usually can get the number but soon afterward find myself having to throw away the number and forget I ever got it. The phonesex girl and girls like her totally re-instill all my past bitterness toward women that I've tried to overcome and be positive in spite of. Leaving me feel Almost attractive, almost charming, Almost the great catch....and almost totally exhausted. How do I emerge gloriously out of all the bullsh!t? As positive and attractive as I think I've been lately, it's like the same old pattern is just on repeat...beating the dead horse to death over and over. Just like when I was depressed and bitter all the time, it's no different although I've gotten so much better at talking to girls than I was then. Why can't I escape all those hang-ups? I've scored with hot older women and still don't feel like the pimp I should be. I thought the younger ones would be a piece of cake by now.
Yesterday, a pest control lady came to my house and caught me off guard. I came out when she was done to sign off for her. A little squirrel was following her around, latching onto her leg and we made conversation for like 15 minutes....seemed like the squirrel was a good excuse for her to stick around. I think she liked talking even though the squirrel was a good excuse.. So she took the squirrel home with her and before she left I got her number. She's an older woman....the only kind I ever really have success with. I think it's partly because young girls are just too scattered even though they may be impressed at first and partly because they're reluctant about the internet. Either way, really negative, defeating situations arise out of nowhere just when I think I'm about to get something going. I find I usually can get the number but soon afterward find myself having to throw away the number and forget I ever got it. The phonesex girl and girls like her totally re-instill all my past bitterness toward women that I've tried to overcome and be positive in spite of. Leaving me feel Almost attractive, almost charming, Almost the great catch....and almost totally exhausted. How do I emerge gloriously out of all the bullsh!t? As positive and attractive as I think I've been lately, it's like the same old pattern is just on repeat...beating the dead horse to death over and over. Just like when I was depressed and bitter all the time, it's no different although I've gotten so much better at talking to girls than I was then. Why can't I escape all those hang-ups? I've scored with hot older women and still don't feel like the pimp I should be. I thought the younger ones would be a piece of cake by now.