You see, she's my cousin. F***ed, I know. Don't judge me (Let's be honest, people sometimes have hot cousins...). We have feelings for each other. I can't deny this. I want to hook up with her, and I know she wants the same. The problem is, she's my f***ing cousin. And she has a boyfriend. I'd feel bad because her boyfriend is a good guy, and I don't want her to feel guilty.
A few months ago during the summer, we used to flirt A LOT. She used to give me major IOIs. Our chemistry is great. I have a depressive personality and spend a lot of time miserable, but feel amazing when I'm around her.
During a camping trip, we both got drunk. In the midst of the drunken craziness, she suddenly touched my hand in an affectionate manner under the picnic table. Another time, people were telling jokes and laughing alot, and generally distracted, so she took advantage of the moment to covertly touch my d*** for a moment.
A few days later, she tried getting me alone. She, I, and some friends were going to go to the amusement park later one evening, and she told me to come early. She was wearing a revealing outfit, had all her makeup done, and it was just her and I at her house for an hour or so. It was obvious what she wanted to do. I had my chance, but p**sied out, trying to justify that doing it would be wrong somehow.
During the holidays, we were at family parties a lot, and, especially since I was drunk, I hit on her A LOT. Eventually she caught on to the fact that I was maybe in love with her, and suddenly went cold. She started mentioning her boyfriend every second sentence, challenged everything I said, gave me sh** tests left and right, and generally bombarded me with indicators of disinterest. She had friendzoned me at this point, and kept egging me on to hook up with her best friend to divert attention away from herself.
But at another party later, while I was super drunk and floating in out of consciousness, I took my cousin's friend's hands and told her "I love you" a bunch of times (I mentioned this story in one of my earlier threads).
The next day, my cousin changed completely. As soon as I glanced at her, she looked down immediately. I could tell she felt "defeated," as I had declared my love for someone who WASN't her. I was now wearing the pants in the relationship; she would get nervous and shy around me, a complete turnaround of how we used to interact. After that, I stopped showing interest in her.
A couple or so months later, she's now trying to get my attention again. Leaving me messages on facebook, trying to impress me with her new earring, sitting up close to me and initiating kino whenever we meet. Pook says to "go with the gut", and the longing way she looks at me these days reinforces this notion for me. I think maybe she is bored with her boyfriend or something, and she still digs me.
The problem is, how can I get her alone? Every time we hang out, it's around tons of family; if she and I went alone somewhere, it would be sketchy. She is about to graduate high school and sends me facebook messages to ask for help with her homework sometimes; I'm thinking maybe I could stage a "tutoring session" with her. I don't know for sure though.
What could come other options be? Ideas/thoughts?
A few months ago during the summer, we used to flirt A LOT. She used to give me major IOIs. Our chemistry is great. I have a depressive personality and spend a lot of time miserable, but feel amazing when I'm around her.
During a camping trip, we both got drunk. In the midst of the drunken craziness, she suddenly touched my hand in an affectionate manner under the picnic table. Another time, people were telling jokes and laughing alot, and generally distracted, so she took advantage of the moment to covertly touch my d*** for a moment.
A few days later, she tried getting me alone. She, I, and some friends were going to go to the amusement park later one evening, and she told me to come early. She was wearing a revealing outfit, had all her makeup done, and it was just her and I at her house for an hour or so. It was obvious what she wanted to do. I had my chance, but p**sied out, trying to justify that doing it would be wrong somehow.
During the holidays, we were at family parties a lot, and, especially since I was drunk, I hit on her A LOT. Eventually she caught on to the fact that I was maybe in love with her, and suddenly went cold. She started mentioning her boyfriend every second sentence, challenged everything I said, gave me sh** tests left and right, and generally bombarded me with indicators of disinterest. She had friendzoned me at this point, and kept egging me on to hook up with her best friend to divert attention away from herself.
But at another party later, while I was super drunk and floating in out of consciousness, I took my cousin's friend's hands and told her "I love you" a bunch of times (I mentioned this story in one of my earlier threads).
The next day, my cousin changed completely. As soon as I glanced at her, she looked down immediately. I could tell she felt "defeated," as I had declared my love for someone who WASN't her. I was now wearing the pants in the relationship; she would get nervous and shy around me, a complete turnaround of how we used to interact. After that, I stopped showing interest in her.
A couple or so months later, she's now trying to get my attention again. Leaving me messages on facebook, trying to impress me with her new earring, sitting up close to me and initiating kino whenever we meet. Pook says to "go with the gut", and the longing way she looks at me these days reinforces this notion for me. I think maybe she is bored with her boyfriend or something, and she still digs me.
The problem is, how can I get her alone? Every time we hang out, it's around tons of family; if she and I went alone somewhere, it would be sketchy. She is about to graduate high school and sends me facebook messages to ask for help with her homework sometimes; I'm thinking maybe I could stage a "tutoring session" with her. I don't know for sure though.
What could come other options be? Ideas/thoughts?
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