she showed interest, she is cold and hot, anti-slvt defense is stopping us

[hop On hop Off]

about her in retrospect

When we invited her to shopping, I was told she was debating. She was struggling if she is coming. She changed her mind several times. She said yes. And then a friend could not come, so, it was us four. She decided no. My friend is sure she wanted to come, but not sure what she is debating.

I assume she has no interest in me. She can cut me off and reject me decisively. She generally steers clear of people she does not like. She is the type associates with people better than her. People she looks up to. She wants to improve herself. I am happy to know that. Happy to know she did not cut me off.

This forum has been great help. In the beginning, I wanted to shower her with flowers in a surprise. A poster early on told me not. It saved me. DJ Bible taught me to KINO. I am so glad I am not in the friend zone, even though I did succeed.

I am ready to see other girls. I have not totally dropped her from my mind.

 

[hop On hop Off]

A day I remembered her, the day I suppose to take her to church

I can't get her out of my mind. I don't get it, I am better than her in every way----education, money, and status. There is someone chasing me.

Why am I falling so hard for this girl? No, please don't tell me to screw with another girl to forget about her.

I kept on thinking, I won't ever see her again. She has moved away. I won't see her again in my life time. This is needy, but what I said is also true.

Thinking about---I won't ever see this girl in my life time----gets me frustrated.

 

[Shift]

You will get over her, but it will take some time. Just keep up on NC or you're only going to drag it out.

 

[hop On hop Off]

16 days since she left

Shift,
Thanks for the encouragement.

On the 16th day
Today, I really wanted to go back to see some pictures we had. I didn't feel nostalgic or sad. I begin to see the bads in her.

We are brought up differently. I have dreams and goals for my career. She wants a provider and wants to settle down. We are not a match, not now.

I don't understand why I liked her so much. She is not my type. I can do better. This is what I am thinking on the 16th day right now.

 

[pyros]

man you're fuc-king nuts.

Glad she run away from you.

 

[hop On hop Off]

she is out of the state, out of country, I am sad

Today, she left the state. Her contract job here ended. She went back home.

I held my chin up and high. I tell myself NC and next. But, the feeling is like the lost of a loved one, you try to make sense of it. But, there is no sense to make.

I invested in her. I spent time and money. I cared, that is why it hurts so much more.

I believe separation hurts her as much as it hurts me. I KINOed, I dropped the ball in her court. She was shy, she did not how to act. She avoided all of it to buy time. I pressured her. So, it all ended.

Forgive me. It is not my fault. I made my feelings known to you. I don't want to be friendzoned. I'd rather have rejection. I know you were stuck with KINO and k close in my car.

I know dating under the same household was against the odds. Nobody date someone she sees everyday. But hey, I tried.

I really hope we did not live under the same household. I really hope you know me outside of the household.

I know roommates who are married. That takes time. You are here for a contract job. I don't have that pleasure.

We are officially on separate ways. I wish you the best. I hope one day you look back, you are thankful to meet me. You had a good memory. That's all I ask for. See you next life time.

 

[Thorninmyside]

I'm not sure whether you're trolling or in need of medication. This whole thing has been conjured up in your head and if you're not insane, you need to do some serious reality checking and to get laid asap... With any girl who'll have you. No relationships, just some emotionless physical contact where you can be the man you totally weren't in this scenario.

 

[pyros]

I'm not sure whether you're trolling or in need of medication. This whole thing has been conjured up in your head and if you're not insane, you need to do some serious reality checking and to get laid asap... With any girl who'll have you. No relationships, just some emotionless physical contact where you can be the man you totally weren't in this scenario.

he needs a shrink, not sex. Well, if he gets to bang any woman I hope she is a a shrink lol.

 

[sylvester the cat]

I hope one day you look back, you are thankful to meet me. You had a good memory. That's all I ask for. See you next life time.

You are allowing yourself to get way caught up in your emotions too much. This is a major sign of weakness. This is what girls do. It is not attractive to other girls. It is not attractive to anyone. Except maybe psychopaths who like to see you squirm.

Either learn to control your emotions or seek psychiatric help. The pharmaceutical industry makes billions from people like you.

 

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divorced family, reply to comments

Thorninmyside,

Getting laid may give me a quick fix, but does very little for self-improvement. I think this site is encouraging self-improvement.


sylvester the cat,

You are probably right.

I grew up in a divorced family. No mother figure. My relatives were sympathetic to me because they believe I never received motherly love. I appear needy to girls. I sense it from girls.

Each parent provides love that another parent cannot substitute. I am a grown man. I try to be more cautious around girls.

Mother plays an important role in a child's emotional side.

I don't blame my parents. What is done is done. Hate poisons the soul. I try to give love to other. What comes around goes around. Loving others give me a peace of mind. I want to provide a complete family to my kids.


Pyros,

Maybe. If by shrink, you meant psychologist.


Thanks for all the love on SS.

 

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Her birthday is coming up

It will be her birthday. I want to wish her happy birthday on chat messenger. What are your thoughts?

I am not looking for sex. She is a LTR material, not looking after my money or status. She did not decisively go after me knowing those things. I find that attractive. It matters to me, more than her appearance.