I will put a number close i did i think two days ago, there was a cute girl i notice and see every day on train, we havn't ever spoke to eachother, but kinda smile here and there. Shes by herself i felt kinda shaken up for this approach but has soon has i went in there i was alright, It was four seats two facing the other two. Shes reading a book so i sit down opposite and start doing my sudukuo for a few minutes.
RD: so is that ur training book?
HB: o no it is a psychology book i just read it for fun
RD: o really i was actually looking at one a few days ago but didn't have the things i actually wanted about it, i like the more of controlling peoples minds and using nlps and such. But book was on like stuff on social backgrounds.
HB: yeh mine is kinda like that, so why u want to do nlps and control peoples mind and stuff?
RD: well have u ever seen derren brown
HB: no who is her lol
RD: how can u do psychology and not know who derren brown is lol
HB: lol
RD: well he can give u pieces of paper and ask for directions at same time and make u think it is money and he gets like free hot dogs lol
HB: o and is that only why u wanna do it
RD: hell yeh free hotdogs lol
(i give few more examples she asks me bit on myself and careers and such and her area where she lives which i know)
HB: yeh i usually go parks round my area.
RD: really feed ducks and stuff? lol
HB: no pic nics lol
RD: o alright and u don't go to bars or anything
HB: hm sometimes
RD: well sometimes i go round that area, how about me and u get a drink sometime if i am round there, probs not this week or next because i am busy though.
HB: yeh sounds good
(number close)
Shes nice but again i am not seeing to much umph, i guess gotta go out with her to find out. I really don't understand how once i get the girl my interest just goes elsewhere and i just find something wrong with her, but then again sometimes u got to b picky seeing theres billions of girls out there and only one of u.
Ok i will update with one other good news, got call back from a old plate who i got her number in like 1 minute, sent few
texts, but she went on holiday. She texted me recently when she came back if we wanna get a drink sometime, which i set a time for. So i will see how that goes.
Ok now for the news which i need to work on. I have bailed on a lot of approaches lately and i feel really dissapointed in myself. There was a latino girl who walked infront of me today and dam her ass was wow and I DIDNT DO ANYTHING DAM THAT COULD OF BEEN MY WIFE JEEZ I HATE DOING SOMETHING SO AFC I WAS LITERRALLY CLENCHING MY HANDS. Worst thing of all i had to watch that ass slowly move away from me further and further i think something died in me inside dam lol. But i am making sure that will not happen again.
Ok to help this going run through few back up openers or more ways to go about certain approaches just in case something dosn't pop in my head right away, which i will try my best not to use. I am going to read another article of dj bible tonight, which i will do everynight hopefully and gain bit of my old mind set back. Feeling a lot better than stupid pessimistic me before screw that guy.
Went boxing today, planned out some training regimes and getting there, not at intensity i wish for. I am feeling bit drained everyday, but its ok. I will try to up pace and make some rest days for other skills such has pool, rockclimbing, guitar, dates, salsa, kendo which dosn't require has much strength but still useful (made enquires of times, places on all these things so i am just not listing random stuff). I am also going to try and push my dates into these skills so i can hit two birds with one stone, get more skill and become a better guy whilst taking out chicks that way no matter what i come back with something.
Main thing i learned is, that i do not need anyone. I don't need no chick no person to be my friend i can get on by myself just fine, but all those who r willing to put effort in i will pay attention to and not waste my time with people who mean nothing to me. Fortunatelly i do have a lot of great friends and some chicks company i do enjoy. I have actually made a lot of friends in past few months who i am seeing very regularly and doing stuff with and meeting even more new people.