I really suck, i got back with my ex for like 3 days woopie di do and ended it with her again.....i really got to sort my heart out, i get confused. My heart feels like someone pierced a hole in it when im with her its like "this is not right", while i'm not with my heart says "i miss the way she looks at me when i lay next to her and how we joke around" totally contradicting. And Its not like i don't have any other options. I met a girl while i was not with her.
I was at work and theres a asian chick who's kinda tall and has big googley eyes lol, she really cute. Don't usually do approaches, i only approach the girls that i see r worth my time. So i get a connection has i talk to her mom and her mom's work collegues. I c shes not in group and c shes in arcade.
(my leg was shaking bit during this lmao, been long time since that happened, was speacking totally confident, but guess my body was not use to another actual direct approach for 4 months lol)
RD: hey there, look i am a very direct guy so i am going to just tell u straight out and not beat around bush, that i find u interesting and would like to talk to u again. i want u to write ur number ....if only i had a paper... one sec.
(gets random paper on lane)
RD: i didn't even let u talk wow lol
HB: whats ur name
RD: jordan and u r
HB: natasha so what did u find interesting
RD: to b honest i hate to say this and it sounds cheesy u got these eyes and there all googley and its really cute lol
HB: googley eyes haha
-friendly talk, shes nice-
HB: i will give u my msn
RD: sure and ur number
HB: msn
RD: no way i would really miss the sound of ur voice its got a lot of energy on it
HB: (does her little high energy speacking really fast, kinda like kid whos had lot of sweets and trying to explosion to u "and there was a bam... and them a boom and someone crazy man flying and i was scared.... but not really scared") but but,.....msn is kool and that and u willll......
RD: look just write it i know u want to i can see it in ur eyes.
HB: ok
(writes number down on my chest, my leg still shaking bit wtf lol)
HB: but we have to b friends i have a bf
RD: (asian chick young with bf, this is sounding like my ex jeez) we can b enemys
HB: enemys
RD: yep ill b superman u b lex luther
HB: lol
She comes back over to me and says "U better call me"
I call her two days later
RD: yo is lex luther there?
HB: o who's this
RD: jordan
HB: what bowling lane guy
RD: aw wow thats real sweet natasha , is this googley eye girl?
HB: yes lol
RD: so i didn;t ask how old r u?
HB: 16
RD: o ouch that not good lol, u wud b the youngest girl i would of gone out with, so have u done ur gcse's yet
HB: shut up lol u know i already done them
RD: i know i am just messing
- talk for quite bit, about if her parents gives her a bed time and her religion and stufff.
HB: lol so like i got to get to know u bit more about u before we do anything (asks question i forgot)
RD: o really, why what u plan on with doing with me
HB: lol u will have to find out i might play i might hurt u
RD: u r one of those whips types aint u
HB: yes im bring my whip
RD: good need something to use on u and got hand cuffs
HB: ooo really
RD: lol u sound like the kinky type, what other things u like
HB: u r going have to find out
(hears buzzing in back ground)
RD: hm someones getting busy aint she
HB: lol shut up
HB: but u r good and i like u (in her lil high energy whiney voice)
RD: r u talking to me or ur equipment
HB: u lol, i told my boyfriend about u, that i met this guy in bowling alley
RD: wow u r not one of those swinger types r u trying to get me to join u and ur bf lol
HB: haha no well i wanted to see u on weekend, but bf coming on saturday ill text u if i can come c u, because its not to kool for me to come and c u when hes there (Actually does text me saying shes free that day)
I could of went out with this girl, but the whole situation with my ex screwed it up so i called saturday off and said u want to b friends, set coffee has friends on sunday, but never got to phone when she rung me to decide meeting place, seeing i was breaking it off again with my ex at that time.
So don't know what happens with this girl, she seemed nice and i wudn't mind going out with her, but im sure shes annoyed about two cancellations, i know i would next it. But i am not sure about this one, i don't want to make a girl cheat on her bf, but i don't like letting people b in relationships they r not happy with.
But, i'm a single man again and i got the ability to close when i need to still.