NeverChase
Don Juan
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Hi,
I have this strange phenomenon, I call it Red pill anxiety. I'll explain it, I want to know if anyone else has it.
So what happens, is that I have really "blue pill" "naive" thoughts about something. Then I found out it wasn't any true, and there actually was something bad in reality. Naturally I don't feel like I learned from this at all, so I force myself to realize the red pill truth.
When I force it, I get bad anxiety out of all proportion. I feel like I've been cheated, when something minor happened. But I really don't want to ignore whatever happened, because I want to learn from the experience.
For example - my crazy GF comes to me uninvited while I'm busy, don't talk, looks like she's about to cry. I feel terrible to make her leave, feel like she's madly in love and I did something bad to her. After wasting me half an hour, not talking and making me feel what I felt on purpose, turns out she just wanted a lift home.
Naturally my mind doesn't realize how beta\stupid\blue pill I was and I still feel what my stupidity made me feel. So I force myself to see the "harsh truth" - she came to get a ride to work and played me for no reason, I was so naive when in reality she's going to work at the same time we planned to go out, and she wasn't even supposed to work at this time .
So what happens when I force myself to see reality, I feel at least like I've been cheated on, over crap like this.
Anyone going through this fvcked up problem ?
I have this strange phenomenon, I call it Red pill anxiety. I'll explain it, I want to know if anyone else has it.
So what happens, is that I have really "blue pill" "naive" thoughts about something. Then I found out it wasn't any true, and there actually was something bad in reality. Naturally I don't feel like I learned from this at all, so I force myself to realize the red pill truth.
When I force it, I get bad anxiety out of all proportion. I feel like I've been cheated, when something minor happened. But I really don't want to ignore whatever happened, because I want to learn from the experience.
For example - my crazy GF comes to me uninvited while I'm busy, don't talk, looks like she's about to cry. I feel terrible to make her leave, feel like she's madly in love and I did something bad to her. After wasting me half an hour, not talking and making me feel what I felt on purpose, turns out she just wanted a lift home.
Naturally my mind doesn't realize how beta\stupid\blue pill I was and I still feel what my stupidity made me feel. So I force myself to see the "harsh truth" - she came to get a ride to work and played me for no reason, I was so naive when in reality she's going to work at the same time we planned to go out, and she wasn't even supposed to work at this time .
So what happens when I force myself to see reality, I feel at least like I've been cheated on, over crap like this.
Anyone going through this fvcked up problem ?