Immaculate on your suicide comment
i hope my story helps you
COPY + PASTED from thread
http://www.sosuave.net/forum/showthread.php?s=&threadid=86393&perpage=20&pagenumber=3
Drink Driving
i have been there CLOONEY
i got sentanced to 3 months jail for drink driving when i was 21
sitting in a jail cell at the police station with glass in my eye from where the drivers window busted and shot glass into my eye when i side swiped a car during the police pursuit
with a broken nose from where the police started beating me because they were upset and afraid
have the cops putting a glock to the back of your head while you are handcuffed on the ground totally defensless knowing that the cop is so upset / scared that there is a good chance he may "accidently" pull the trigger
knowing that you just totally f*cked up the $30,000 hire car and that insurance doesn't cover drink drivers
sitting in a cell in the poice station wondering if the people in the car that you side swiped are ok because you managed to spin their toyota torago 90 degrees when you swiped it going 100+ kilometres per hour
the time it takes to find out the people in the car you hit are ok and the feeling of knowing what it feels like to think you have killed innocent people and that you are going to spend life in prison
getting down on your knees inside a jail cell and praying to God that the people in the car that you hit are ok and can He please lower the blood alcohol level in your blood by a miracle before they test you on the big machine
sitting there thinking back retracing the steps to you ruining your life in a mistake that happened in an instant
going to court and paying a f*cking good for nothing barristor $1000 cash per appearance off the books to do nothing !
you legal representation not telling you and you not fiding out till a few years later why the magistrate said he was sendng you to jail before he had even heard the facts
finding out his daughter had been killed by a drunk driver and that is why he said it as soon as i stood up the first time "you are going to jail"
and your legal reprisentation never got the court case changed to a non biased judge
the magistrate setting bail at $5,000 at 4pm when the bank shuts at 5pm so no friends or relatives will have a decent chance to bail you out thus guaranteeing you will do the time
appealing to a district court and going before a proper judge and the police prosecutor standing up and saying "do you know someone just got 4 years for a situation similar to yours"
not knowing what to say to the above statement and freaking out because you are appealing 3 months and by giving a misleading statement the police prosecutor is trying to send you up for more time in jail
having you photo in a major paper with the story of what you did
being ashamed and considering suicide beause of how ashamed you feel because of the newspaper articles
the feeling of shame and no reason to live when everyone you meet says they saw you in the papers
not understanding why i am in the papers when all the worse crimes seem to go unpublished
going to jail for the first time as an adult for driving offenses
being in jail with very bad people
not fitting in because apart from the drinking you did you are not a drug dealer or murderer
having the balls to go to an AA meeting in jail when they call it over the loud speaker and everyone rolls their eyes and makes comments about people who go to AA
seeing fights, 1 stabbing and a people come to take away body of person who hung himself in a cell
having to become an animal to survive
not knowing how to stop being the monster when you get out
not knowing how to relate in a shopping centre when you see all these happy people who buy ice cream and shop and stuff
having just walked out of hell and feeling like you don't belong
the feeling that society said you no longer deserve to be among them and to be locked up in a cage like an animal
sleeping on the floor in your room when theres a bed there because for some strange reason you can't sleep on the bed every since you were in jail
losing your drivers licence for 2 years
losing your girlfriend because you no longer think you are worthy to have anything good in life and so you push her away
pushing away all your family and friends because you are afraid to hear for the millionth time "i saw you in the paper"
living like a hermit and outcast for 2 years not able to get a job because you don't know how to handle it all
Having flashabcks of jail sometimes lasting for hours leaving you in a trance like state this is called post traumatic stress disorder
CLOONEY i believe you when you say you can quit.
your drinking sounds like my drinking. it is not a classic case of alcoholism.
even alot of people in the AA meeting won't understand that your drinking problem is alittle different
we also share something in common. we drink and drive.
this doesn't work so well in Australia where drink driving is considered a worse crime then drug dealing and police corruption
you said you had an accident well that is your warning.
you can stop yourself CLOONEY you have that power where most people don't
but know that as powerful as we are we have a weakness. once we start we do a proper job of drinking.
you need to outsmart yourself. you need to plan ahead.
you know if you start drinking you are going to have a good go of it and do a proper job
and you know you are going to drive
quitting drinking is the only way to outsmart yourself
if people hassle you ( and they will ) tell the your uncle on his death bed made you promise to give up drinking LOL
tell the haters and typical average yobo POOR PEOPLE of australia anything
and if they don't get the point give them a thousand yard stare and tell to back the f*ck off
There is no point being a success in life to have it all taken away in an instant by a silly mistake
prove them all wrong
you don't need it
and make sure you do it before it's too late
Lost In Translation
" stop being insecure " i hate that saying. it's a cop out for not having enough balls to confront a woman about what she is doing THAT IS WRONG or potentially damaging to a long term relationship. – Lost In Translation