nicksaiz65 Odyssey

[Papa_smu]

Okay guys, I may or may not have a date today. We’ll see if the bytch flakes or not.

One thing that I most definitely need to work on is my Outcome Independence. Not having this is causing a lot of issues in my game.

I feel like you're investing too much emotional energy into this despite your affirmation that you are not.

 

[nicksaiz65]

I feel like you're investing too much emotional energy into this despite your affirmation that you are not.

You’re absolutely right. The issue is the whole reason I came to this site again was to get romantic success or bust. It feels so bad every time I fail. Which makes it really hard to be outcome independent. I don’t know how to attack that other than self improvement.

 

[nicksaiz65]

Quick Pre-Gym Rant

Hey guys, so I’m about to go to the gym. I just thought I’d get some **** off my chest before I did. It’s about that time of the year where my seasonal depression is kicking in.

I’ve made vast improvements, but I’m not the man that I want to be at all. It’s almost embarrassing how far I’ve fallen short. I’m gonna go hard as a Don Juan in my second year of doing this journal. I will climb the mountain and become the man I deserve. Thanks to this site, I’ve learned that 21 is the prime time to do it. No one really respects me, and I could see why. But I’m 21. There’s so much time to work hard and turn my life around. I’m gonna get what I’m owed. At the same time, I need to be realistic with myself as I attack these issues. Being buff isn’t enough, I also need to become socially savvy and ATHLETIC. Gonna work 24/7 on turning myself into the Don Juan that I’ve deserved to be all my life.

I bought some balding clippers to help me out with my haircuts. Also, I need to make sure that I’m Hot Toweling my hair before I put in any product. And that I’m doing a haircut that I can cut myself(and maintain.) I’m so sick and tired of being insecure about my hair. I posted pics on Facebook of my haircuts and people said that I should be a barber. So I will continue on this Self Cutting Path, get free haircuts, and get Elite Waves.

I’ll tell you guys more about haircuts and Cold Approaches later tonight. Once again, I need to be totally realistic with myself.

Gonna read some Red Pill stuff about getting my emotions under control. Everything’s a social hierarchy. I’ll break it by being the greatest and rising above it.

Tired of being treated as a joke by life. No more. I’m gonna work hard to get what I deserve. Sorry about the venting, I just tend to vent in here when things don’t go well in my life.

But anyways guys, I need to go to the gym to make myself fit and athletic. I’ll post about the Cold Approaches I did and my date after I get back. By the time I graduate college, I will be the man that I was always meant to be. I have a whole road map on how to get there with Don Juan and the Internet.

 

[nicksaiz65]

11/19/18: Don Juan Sleep Policy

Hey guys. So I went to the gym twice today and I’m too tired to type up that giant ass Cold Approach/Life Report that I’ve been meaning to do. I’ll just do it whenever I’m a bit more rested. In the meantime, I’ll update you all on stuff that I realized about sleep.

As a Don Juan, I need to get as much sleep as I can, but not to the detriment of my work. Work always comes first. So I’ve been writing to-do lists to help me achieve my goals. I write down everything that I must do before I go to sleep. I don’t sleep until that list is done, I plan everything.

I’ve also got to make sure that I plan my wake up times. Setting multiple loud ass alarms is the key to making that work. Sleep can be caught up on, but if I mess up on my work it’s wraps.

 

[nicksaiz65]

Pre-Report and the Waves

Hey guys! I’m so excited to type up a field report from a few days ago. I got dates with 2 of my Dream Girls, and I learned Inner Game Stuff that blew my mind. It’s gonna be a really long one though, so give me some time to type it up.

180 Wave Fade
For those of you who have been following me for a while, you know that one of my greatest insecurities is my hair. I made sure to take advantage of these Black Friday sales and get some all natural products. I also got some Wahl Balding Clippers. And those things cut like a freaking dream. I was able to crank out the baldest and cleanest bald fade I’ve done in a while. And on top of that I don’t ever have to worry about the fade wearing off, cause I can cut it for free whenever. If the waves are deep, I can make this my signature style and outsmooth everyone.

I never thought I’d say this, but I actually prefer the Bald Fade and Deep Waves to the 360s on me! The cut suits me extremely well and it’s way easier to get. Those Balding Clippers made cutting hair the most fun it’s ever been. I looked so clean afterwards. I used to be insecure and think that if I had a fade I would still be “ugly”, inferior to 360 Wavers, or thugmaxxxers. But that’s not true at all, it’s just preference. As long as the waves on top are deep, I’ll be confident and attracting women, and have an ocean on my head. The fade will draw even more attention to it. Two of the hottest women ever even preferred the fade. I really am gonna be a hybrid of Enemy Cutz and Poppy Blasted, which is fire as hell. A mix of a Waver and Self Cutter.

Most importantly, this cut is less maintenance. It’ll take maybe 30 minutes a day to maintain. So I listen to classical music to work during the day, and watch YouTube and brush at night. That extra time can go towards my professional life. So long story short, I’ll be rocking this cut from now on and I’ll be a fire Deep Sea 180 Waver. Then I can finally get over this stupid hair confidence stigma and put myself out there!!!

 

[nicksaiz65]

Becoming an Alpha Male

Guys, there is so much information that I’ve learned over the past week that it doesn’t even make sense. Here’s everything that I’ve learned. Let’s start with the fun part, huh?

Cold Approach 21, 22, and 23
All of these Cold Approaches were done in bars. Once again, one day I do plan on going hard in Daygame. But my confidence isn’t all the way there yet, and personally I find Daygame more challenging. At the same time, it’s easier to rack up approaches with Daygame. So I’ll get there one day.

The first approach, the girl actually came up to me. Nothing really noteable about this one, except she cut Hair also and we had a good conversation. I got her number and texted her, but the interaction fizzled out. In hindsight, I can see that this is because I didn’t flirt over text and presented myself as a sexual null being.

The second approach was easily one of the hottest girls I’ve ever seen, a 10/10. Turns out she was a fitness model. Crazy how I went from nothing at the start of this journal, and now I’m approaching 10s. Very basic approach, I’ve been keeping my game extremely simple these days. I added her on Instagram and DMed her. She has over 30K Followers. If this actually pans out, that’d be great. She’s not from my city but I would absolutely be willing to make that drive. Also, this approach proves my theory of “if you can dance you can fvck.” Damn, that girl could move, and it was hot as hell honestly.

As for the third approach, I don’t really have much to say about it either lol. I’ve gotten really good at holding conversations thanks to the tips at this website. I added her on Snapchat since I didn’t really have too long to build comfort in this approach(I only had about 5 minutes.) I’ve found that getting a girls Snapchat can be very effective if you’re in a time crunch because they’re easier to get than numbers. And you can always work your way up from there.

180 Waver
I’d just like to re-iterate how nice my new Balding Clippers are. I’ve been giving myself the freshest bald fades lately thanks to them. Since all that matters as a Don Juan is that I have nice hair, I’ll be sticking to this style. I need to grow my top hair out more as was suggested on my looksmaxxxing thread. But I’m going to make the 180s my own unique thing, razor bald to thick waves on top is a really smooth look. I like my cuts very bald, my guidelines straight, my waves deep, and no curve. So I’ll let you guys know when I’ve achieved the style. Having that DEEP ocean on top of my head is critical. I mean, if the hot bytches love it and it’s easier to get, I’ll do it. Someone described it almost as a high top with waves. And I loooove that idea lol. Who the heck is gonna have a nice bald fade and waves as deep as mine?


I’ll be doing a Part 2 to talk about the game and Alpha Male Tactics that I learned. I think that deserves its own part.

 

[marmel75]

Quick Pre-Gym Rant

Hey guys, so I’m about to go to the gym. I just thought I’d get some **** off my chest before I did. It’s about that time of the year where my seasonal depression is kicking in.

I’ve made vast improvements, but I’m not the man that I want to be at all. It’s almost embarrassing how far I’ve fallen short. I’m gonna go hard as a Don Juan in my second year of doing this journal. I will climb the mountain and become the man I deserve. Thanks to this site, I’ve learned that 21 is the prime time to do it. No one really respects me, and I could see why. But I’m 21. There’s so much time to work hard and turn my life around. I’m gonna get what I’m owed. At the same time, I need to be realistic with myself as I attack these issues. Being buff isn’t enough, I also need to become socially savvy and ATHLETIC. Gonna work 24/7 on turning myself into the Don Juan that I’ve deserved to be all my life.

I bought some balding clippers to help me out with my haircuts. Also, I need to make sure that I’m Hot Toweling my hair before I put in any product. And that I’m doing a haircut that I can cut myself(and maintain.) I’m so sick and tired of being insecure about my hair. I posted pics on Facebook of my haircuts and people said that I should be a barber. So I will continue on this Self Cutting Path, get free haircuts, and get Elite Waves.

I’ll tell you guys more about haircuts and Cold Approaches later tonight. Once again, I need to be totally realistic with myself.

Gonna read some Red Pill stuff about getting my emotions under control. Everything’s a social hierarchy. I’ll break it by being the greatest and rising above it.

Tired of being treated as a joke by life. No more. I’m gonna work hard to get what I deserve. Sorry about the venting, I just tend to vent in here when things don’t go well in my life.

But anyways guys, I need to go to the gym to make myself fit and athletic. I’ll post about the Cold Approaches I did and my date after I get back. By the time I graduate college, I will be the man that I was always meant to be. I have a whole road map on how to get there with Don Juan and the Internet.

Seasonal depression = Low Vitamin D3 levels. Take 10,000 IUs a day and you'll feel better

 

[nicksaiz65]

Becoming an Alpha Male Part 2

Ok, time for the Game portion of this field report. So before, I used to think that it wasn’t really important to be an Alpha Male, you could just do you. Newsflash: it’s extremely important to be an Alpha Male. Girls are attracted to Alpha Males, point blank period.

So I had the chance to talk to a Red Pilled Alpha Male the other day. He’s 45+ and he’s slaying the kind of pvssy that I aspire to, even 20 year old girls. I’m really too tired to write out paragraphs because the amount of information that I learned is just astounding. So I’m just gonna do a bullet pointed list like I have in the past.

What I’ve Learned:
Alphas keep their emotions under control: Happy, mad, or don’t give a fvck. Those are the only 3 you feel, like James Bond. I’m pretty sure it says that in the DJ Bible too.
There’s no formula to this Seduction stuff, all you can really get are tips
Alpha Fvcks Beta Bucks
The biggest cure to your game issues is fixing your self-confidence
As an Alpha Male, go for what you want in life. If you shoot your shot and miss, oh well!!!
Pay attention to what normies do and how they act
Take risks, don’t give a fvck what others think
It’s NEVER too late to be a great PUA and Game
You need to be direct and let these girls know what you want: don’t be afraid to let them know that you want to get in their pants
Even if you don’t like rap, you kinda don’t have a choice but to listen to it
Porn is literally instructions for fvcking right... girls want to be fvcked hard
You can’t put off a friendly or nice guy vibe and expect her to like you... you gotta send off some sexuality
The texting can start off innocuous and then escalate... that works too
Get them horny when you text them
He’s texting them **** like “I’d finger you” or “Damn I would fvck the hell out of you”
Dates are great
Ease into the sexual talk and use “tester” texts.
“You’re super hot, I would do x to you”
Max out your SMV
All girls have a freak side: the “nicer” they are, the sluttier they are
Not getting sexual before the first date is a great way to leave yourself jerking off at home
Know how to improvise... it’s like sales
You have to use your gut and calibrate each approach differently
Game is like freestyling
Be confident in absolutely everything
You need to come off as an Alpha Male in all interactions

And the most important part that hit home with me. I’m a weird and very unique dude. But I can totally own that ****, and use it to be the Alpha Male!!!

RANDOM SIDENOTE:
This might sound weird, but I actually aspire to be like a lot of the composers back in the day. The majority of them were good at math, science, instruments, wrote music, and were Don Juans too. That’s exactly what I aspire to be in my life long term, honestly. I just want to be a very eloquent person and be great in life.

RELEVANT SIDENOTE:
Still working on that outcome independence. Also, I’m freaking horrible at texting sexually. I just don’t know how to do it. As I improve my life and myself, that’ll be the next aspect that I attack. I may order a Magnetic Messaging program, we’ll see. But I’m gonna watch a ton of videos and read a ton of articles on it. After that, I’ll write a big post on how to text a girl sexually. I get the general idea, but I need more examples and practice with this.

 

[nicksaiz65]

Seasonal depression = Low Vitamin D3 levels. Take 10,000 IUs a day and you'll feel better

You know, I really wouldn’t be surprised if that were the case. I’ll pick up a supplement when I go shopping today.

 

[nicksaiz65]

Putting Together my Dating Strategy

For starters, I have a couple books that I want to get that I think would help my game. I’m going to buy the books Flirt her Up and Magnetic Messaging. I can really feel my game coming together, I honestly think that it’s almost there. Game isn’t as complicated as you might think. I really might benefit from watching just every video on game(reading lots of books too) that I can and just letting this shyt soak in. I’ve put in some decent time in the field, so I think that I’m starting to get it.
My flirting and text messaging could both use some improvement, really. I also need to see lots of examples on flirting sexually.

So I learned today that compliments can be considered part of flirting as well. You can do looks, that’s fine, and you can compliment other things too. Just don’t overuse them. I was looking into this because I’m looking to boost my text game. So one thing I need to do is be upfront and make my intentions clear. However, I agree with Dr. Nerdlove(and some of the users on here) when he says to keep the flirting somewhat light until the first date. Just keep it light and flirty, exactly like Simple Pickup said to.

Don’t talk about anything super super sexual, but you can ratchet it up over time after you’ve hung out. You’ve still gotta flirt with her though. This can work in conjunction with the Alpha Male Tactics that I learned this weekend. Texting her on average every other day is good too. Let her come to you too. Like Corey Wayne says, women are attracted to men whose feelings are unclear, it’s kind of a balance. This is a somewhat safer strategy, and it’ll make sure that I don’t push too hard too fast. I agree with 95% of Dr. Nerdlove’s Texting Book. That book is gonna be how I run all of my text interactions from now on. Of course, I’ll do a write up on the other two books that I’ll be getting as well, and I’ll throw in some PUATraining too.

Once I get these other two books, I shouldn’t really have any more questions about texting. And then maybe I can stop running these promising relationships into the ground.

I Messed Up on the 180 Fade
I screwed up really bad on this cut. But it’s ok. I’m gonna keep practicing. HB Rache loved this cut too. Really really should’ve fvcked her. So I’m keeping it. Still working on deepening the top waves. I’m not ready to put in the time for full 360S, and on top of that I spent $50 on the Balding Clippers. Not wasting that money, I’m gonna be unique. The hoes will love this cut anyways, and I can mog dudes with it.

My products came in too. I get the feeling that when my SMV rises, I won’t have to stress so much about having game in the first place cause I can let my Looks do a lot of the work for me.

 

[nicksaiz65]

Haircut Musings
These natural products are fire. My hair is staying moisturized all day. Putting quality product on a really bald cut is nice too.

I talked to some family about it and it turns out the skin fade really suits my face, it looks great on me. I touched up my haircut from today and I was able to fix it. These Balding Clippers Cut like butter, I had always wanted to use them. The skin fade and deep waves will definitely be the nicksaiz65 style: if it ain’t broke, don’t fix it. I’m gonna pass the brush time by YouTube and Podcasts. Over time I’ll learn how to blend it better too.

I was worried about it not being a professional haircut, but it turns out this cut is both professional and stylish. It also won’t ever go out of style.

Now I just have to kill these stupid inner voices in my head telling me that I’m not good enough even with nice hair.

I’ll have some more natural products coming in tomorrow.

 

[nicksaiz65]

Date and Fading

Ok guys, tomorrow I ostensibly have a date with a girl that I’ve liked for a while. She was even the one who suggested it. So we’ll see how this pans out, assuming I don’t get flaked on. I will update you guys tomorrow.

Still loving my new products and Balding Clippers. They feel awesome against a freshly shaved scalp. Working hard to get the waves deeper and deeper, practicing my fade too along with fixing my hairline. I gotta get really good at this so I can mog all the thugmaxxxers and have a high top with waves lol. I’m really having fun: I don’t have to stand and brush Waves all day, I’m rocking a high and tight, and even Nick Wavy was talking about how fresh high and tights were. I need to be both fit and wavy or I won’t attract women.

I’m also starting StrongLifts 5x5 tomorrow to get all my strength back.

I’m following Dr. Nerdlove’s Texting rules to basically a T. The only guideline that I’d really give myself is “text relevantly.” As in don’t be super crazy or random with my texting like a Beta Male would.

 

[nicksaiz65]

Probably a Flake, Blowout Taper, Life

So we had to cancel the date today. She said she has a huge project due tomorrow for her Speech Class. Idk if she’s lying to me or not... the only way to really tell is to use the Two Strikes Rule to identify low interest. I may have to ask her out again soon because finals are really coming up. So I know the tactics, but damn, getting a date shouldn’t be this hard for me. On top of that, I got flakes on by a different girl earlier this week too. It’s like pulling teeth trying to get a date. After my Cold Approach counter hits 25, I may do what AMS said and take a huge step back for 6 months and just work on myself. I get the basic principles of dating, but now I need to work on myself cause I’m getting mogged by basically everybody. Sheesh.

I followed the advice from my looksmaxxxing thread and got a blowout taper as to not fade the sides out. And it’s clean. I think I’ll stick with that, I’ll use my Balding Clippers to do this style also.

But anyways, I’m not gonna stress it. As I think about it, I feel like laughing. I may not even ask this girl out again and I’ll just let her come to me. Maybe this just isn’t meant for me yet. I’m gonna put my time into fixing myself and reviving my fvcked Up life instead. Since everything’s going to shyt anyways, I may as well just work on myself until I can gain what I deserve in life.

Also, fvck social media. I’ll be checking that BS twice a day from now on.

I’m still getting used to the behavior of normies. All of them either carry around guns or do hard drugs like cocaine. Or smoke weed all day and listen to nothing but trap music. And to me, that’s fvcking scary.

I’ve got to remember to keep praying because life is frigging crazy.

I’m just gonna have to become bodybuilder buff to be able to deal with normies. And extremely wavy. That’ll be how I cover up my insecurities, and I can just abuse the Halo Effect to make up for being essentially a socially stunted teenager lol. I don’t think Seduction material is gonna help me that much anymore. I know what I need to know at this point.

I’m lowkey starting to feel like an Incel again. Feels bad man. But you know what? If I’m supposed to be a perfect genius, then I can find a way to dig myself out of this mess and be a Great Alpha Male.

I’m still working on controlling my emotions. I get so emotional sometimes. I’ll never open up and show my weakness to anybody ever again. How I feel is absolutely irrelevant, it’s a crutch that is holding me back.

I don’t even know if I want to Cold Approach at college anymore. I’d rather meet girls through parties, activities, and things like that.

If you guys have any advice for me, that’d be great. I feel like I’m spinning my wheels in a lot of aspects.

 

[Papa_smu]

So we had to cancel the date today. She said she has a huge project due tomorrow for her Speech Class. Idk if she’s lying to me or not... the only way to really tell is to use the Two Strikes Rule to identify low interest. I may have to ask her out again soon because finals are really coming up. So I know the tactics, but damn, getting a date shouldn’t be this hard for me. On top of that, I got flaked on by a different girl earlier this week too. It’s like pulling teeth trying to get a date. After my Cold Approach counter hits 25, I may do what AMS said and take a huge step back for 6 months and just work on myself. I get the basic principles of dating, but now I need to work on myself cause I’m getting mogged by basically everybody. Sheesh.

I would give her the benefit of the doubt and ask her out another time. Maintaining the mindset that you are the prize and that women are chasing after you. Then you can maintain that mindset that it's her loss, and you could always ask another girl out (which you can)

Or, you can rethink like this, "Okay, she got cold feet there, so I 'll take this opportunity to further my network. So I can have software developer job right after graduation"

I don’t even know if I want to Cold Approach at college anymore. I’d rather meet girls through parties, activities, and things like that.

Cold approaching is much like telemarketing. You're going to get a thousand no's before you get one yes. Is it effective? Not really, but when it comes to adapting to rejection, it's a pretty effective tool.

But yes, that's the best approach by going to events and doing "something" other than approaching women.

I’m still working on controlling my emotions. I get so emotional sometimes. I’ll never open up and show my weakness to anybody ever again. How I feel is absolutely irrelevant, it’s a crutch that is holding me back.

The only way you're going to deal with your emotions is through experience. The fact is, you're going to have outbursts and moments. Everyone does eventually. The question is, do you avoid that moment you experienced or do you get back on that crazy horse and start riding again? In my experience, I've grown when I have done the latter.

I’m lowkey starting to feel like an Incel again.

You. Are. Not. An. Incel.

You've lost your virginity and had sex with multiple women after that.

 

[longtail]

Probably a Flake, Blowout Taper, Life

I’m still getting used to the behavior of normies. All of them either carry around guns or do hard drugs like cocaine. Or smoke weed all day and listen to nothing but trap music. And to me, that’s fvcking scary.

I’ve got to remember to keep praying because life is frigging crazy.

Those people aren't "normies." They are psychopaths. You live in a sh1thole. Your number 1 priority now is to remove yourself from this sh1thole.

How did you not check out the situation beforehand before you placed yourself into a toilet bowl of human waste?

 

[lamath]

Those people aren't "normies." They are psychopaths. You live in a sh1thole. Your number 1 priority now is to remove yourself from this sh1thole.

How did you not check out the situation beforehand before you placed yourself into a toilet bowl of human waste?

Nailed it!

 

[nicksaiz65]

I would give her the benefit of the doubt and ask her out another time. Maintaining the mindset that you are the prize and that women are chasing after you. Then you can maintain that mindset that it's her loss, and you could always ask another girl out (which you can)

Or, you can rethink like this, "Okay, she got cold feet there, so I 'll take this opportunity to further my network. So I can have software developer job right after graduation"




Cold approaching is much like telemarketing. You're going to get a thousand no's before you get one yes. Is it effective? Not really, but when it comes to adapting to rejection, it's a pretty effective tool.

But yes, that's the best approach by going to events and doing "something" other than approaching women.




The only way you're going to deal with your emotions is through experience. The fact is, you're going to have outbursts and moments. Everyone does eventually. The question is, do you avoid that moment you experienced or do you get back on that crazy horse and start riding again? In my experience, I've grown when I have done the latter.



You. Are. Not. An. Incel.

You've lost your virginity and had sex with multiple women after that.

Thanks bro. I pretty much live by the Two Strikes Rule at this point.

As for my career, I was talking to a developer over Facebook the other day. He recommended that I continue to work on these projects in my spare time along with learning skills that I’m interested in so that I can have a nice portfolio by the time that I graduate.

I also spoke to another programmer in person, and he said that a good resume can get me in the door, but the thing that’s really gonna put the nail in the coffin and get me a job is having a stellar interview.

And I know I’m not an Incel by any means. It’s just that sometimes I get back into that depressive mindstate from when I was one. I think that eating clean and fitness will help alleviate that.

 

[nicksaiz65]

Those people aren't "normies." They are psychopaths. You live in a sh1thole. Your number 1 priority now is to remove yourself from this sh1thole.

How did you not check out the situation beforehand before you placed yourself into a toilet bowl of human waste?

Yeahhhh it’s a really long story. Remember when I was complaining about how women loved thugmaxxxed dudes? This is what I was talking about. In fact, some of them got into a huge fist fight this weekend.

That’s just not me. So the only way I’m going to be able to compete with the high testosterone they have is to become a bodybuilder. I’m not thugmaxxxed like that, and I don’t think I ever will be. So the only way to compete is to become ridiculously buff and learn how to fight. That and being super hardworking so that no one can call me on my ****

 

[nicksaiz65]

12/1/18: Hard Reset

I’ll make this a very brief post. But basically I’ve been reading some Good Looking Loser recently, and that shyt is mind blowing. Turns out I’ve been going about college wrong and I was extremely Blue Piled. Everything really is a social hierarchy just like he says. On top of that, college is a microcosm of the real world.

So I might never rise to that Top 20% in College. But it’s totally okay, because one day I will have the last laugh. It might be when I’m 28 or 29. But I’m gonna be a successful bodybuilder, a programmer, and fvcking models by some point. Hell, that’s what Roosh had to do. Even AMS and one of my other friends had to do that. Since life left me in the dark, I matured late, but there’s no reason I can’t start building now to be the best, mature eventually, and laugh in everyone’s face. Until then, I’ll just accept that I was socially shafted and make do with what I have. Of course, I’ll use this as motivation to win in the end. There’s no rush to get married or anything, because as Rollo says, Men’s value raises as they age. And I’m going to pay life back in spades for everything that it denied me.

I put myself into this situation because I was naive. Had I been Red Pilled since 14 or 15 I would’ve already known what to do, but I’m putting that behind me. Honestly, I may read The Power of Now to help me with things like this. Definitely gonna keep reading Good Looking Loser because he describes how a lot of these NPCs work.

A good place to start is asking myself the question: “Why did I fail in fvcking [x] girl that I wanted to fvck?” That’ll answer my questions and I’ll know how to fix my problems.

I feel even more Red Pilled than before now. Of course, this website will be the road map for all my endeavors as I go on.

I wanted to make this post because I feel like I had another revelation, a mindset shift. The next few posts in here are probably gonna be about my progress in my career, the gym, and dancing.

EDIT:
If I have 8 years to really really master this, there’s no reason I can’t achieve Pook’s Level of strength and a Zyzz type body.

Part of my status in the real world will come from having a high paying job. I will never give up on myself ever again.

Really thinking of becoming a professional violinist. I have to get good, use my connections, and then put myself out there.
In addition, I may make even more money by being a music producer. If I want to do all this stuff, I need to be working pretty much 24/7.

If I have 8 years, with constant application of Minoxidil, I can grow a full beard for sure. Combine that with Deep 360 Waves and a Pook body and Alpha Male Game, and there will be no woman on this Earth who can resist me!!!

My time will come!!! It might take years to undo bad conditioning from life, but one day I will get my revenge for everything that life denied me. I’ll be successful and I’ll have a Model too. Honestly, this has become my motivation for life lol

 

[nicksaiz65]

Basic Fitness Goals

First of all, I’d like to say fvck thugmaxxxing and fvck thugmaxxxers. I hate that shyt. Honestly, I’m lowkey gonna reject my blackness and act more like a white dude. Yet at the same time, I need to be strong af if I’m gonna beat everyone.

So my first priorities in this Fitness Journey from Ground Zero are:
Be able to run a 5K without stopping
Be able to Squat 225 for 5x5
Once the first two goals are achieved, use that strength and endurance to drop to 7% bodyfat and have a visible six pack.