Listen to these guys, work out and eat healthy. No more feeling sorry for yourself either. I think you can get most of the way in about half a year. First thing you need to do is work on finding a job. 40 with no job? I don't care what kinda job it is...but you need to find something that makes you feel like you have a purpose in life. EAT HEALTHY, this will improve your looks dramatically...go on the fitness forum and read everything there is about nutrition and exercise.
Seriously man, the only way you'll get anywhere is if you work hard. That's the only way and I think you've got enough motivation to do it.
