39year_old_virgin
Don Juan
- Joined
- May 21, 2009
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- Age
- 55
I am about to turn 40 in a few months time, and I can't believe how fast life has passed me by. It just hit me that I am going to end up like the character in 40 year old virgin if I don't do something about my condition. None of my friends or family know that I am still a virgin, and it is embarassing even here admitting it. I really wish I had known about the seduction community when I was back in High School or College. Anyway, here is my life story so far and how I ended up this way.
When in elementary and junior high school I was picked on relentlessly. I was the short fat kid, and even now I am only 5'5" on a good day. The first woman I had a crush on was in 7th grade, and I didn't know what to do, I kept it to myself and secretly wanted her, but never dared let her know. I had a few more crushes in high school, and the only woman I let know I had a crush on basically thought I was a creep(her friends told me I creeped her out), and looking back the way I approached her was VERY AFC or WBAFC, but I didn't know any better.
In college things only improved slightly for me. I tried the "friends" route of getting a girl with predictable results, in that all the girls I was interested in, if I let them know I wanted them as more than a friend, they LJBF'd me or told me they had a boyfriend. One even told me she just found Jesus and needed time to herself, the next week she was dating someone:cuss:
In my senior year I was living in a roommate situation off campus, and my roomate was somewhat of a player/DJ/PUA with women. There was this one woman I had a serious crush on, I had talked to her a few times after class and I thought she was the love of my life. I told him about this and he gave me some advice, and I actually managed to get her to my place and cook her dinner, but nothing happened. Unfortunately she also got to know my roommate. A few days later when I had got my hopes up that I could finally get somewhere with this girl, I come home to hear sex sounds in the bedroom(which was not uncommon coming from his bedroom). However, the most humiliating, worst blow of my life came when it was her who left the room with him after they were finished. I was or course:cuss:
, and he insisted that she basically threw herself at him, and he told me she thought of me as just a friend. Needless to say it was an awkward situation after that, and it helped to make me hate women.
After college I didn't even try anymore, there were a few women along the way that I liked, but nothing ever came of it because they just LJBF'd me, or got creeped out like all the others. It made me so depressed that I struggled at work. I did come close with one girl, and we kissed a few times, but she ultimately went back to her old boyfriend before anything more happened, and that is the farthest I have ever gotten with a girl. I also tried the online thing once, and sent out about 200 emails and got one response. We met up but she said there was "no chemistry" when I called for a second date.
At one time I got so desparate that I tried an escort. However I even had really bad luck with that. When the escort got to the hotel she took my money and refused to do anything. When I began to get upset she threatened to call security on me. Needless to say that it was another horrible experience in my life.
Now it is even worse for me than before, I am beginning to lose my hair and I am also unemployed and had to move in with my mother. I became addicted to World of Warcraft as a kind of escape from my miserable existance, but I always held this fairytale notion that I would fall in love with a beautiful woman and marry her and live happily ever after, and it never happened. So now I am a short, fat 39 year old virgin who will be 40 in a few months time.
I wish I knew about the seduction comminity before, and realize that much of what I had done is AFC or WBAFC in the past because I had no clue. Is there any hope for me turning from what I am now into a DJ or Pickup artist? Can I get laid in the next few months without resorting to prostitutes?
When in elementary and junior high school I was picked on relentlessly. I was the short fat kid, and even now I am only 5'5" on a good day. The first woman I had a crush on was in 7th grade, and I didn't know what to do, I kept it to myself and secretly wanted her, but never dared let her know. I had a few more crushes in high school, and the only woman I let know I had a crush on basically thought I was a creep(her friends told me I creeped her out), and looking back the way I approached her was VERY AFC or WBAFC, but I didn't know any better.
In college things only improved slightly for me. I tried the "friends" route of getting a girl with predictable results, in that all the girls I was interested in, if I let them know I wanted them as more than a friend, they LJBF'd me or told me they had a boyfriend. One even told me she just found Jesus and needed time to herself, the next week she was dating someone:cuss:
In my senior year I was living in a roommate situation off campus, and my roomate was somewhat of a player/DJ/PUA with women. There was this one woman I had a serious crush on, I had talked to her a few times after class and I thought she was the love of my life. I told him about this and he gave me some advice, and I actually managed to get her to my place and cook her dinner, but nothing happened. Unfortunately she also got to know my roommate. A few days later when I had got my hopes up that I could finally get somewhere with this girl, I come home to hear sex sounds in the bedroom(which was not uncommon coming from his bedroom). However, the most humiliating, worst blow of my life came when it was her who left the room with him after they were finished. I was or course:cuss:
, and he insisted that she basically threw herself at him, and he told me she thought of me as just a friend. Needless to say it was an awkward situation after that, and it helped to make me hate women. After college I didn't even try anymore, there were a few women along the way that I liked, but nothing ever came of it because they just LJBF'd me, or got creeped out like all the others. It made me so depressed that I struggled at work. I did come close with one girl, and we kissed a few times, but she ultimately went back to her old boyfriend before anything more happened, and that is the farthest I have ever gotten with a girl. I also tried the online thing once, and sent out about 200 emails and got one response. We met up but she said there was "no chemistry" when I called for a second date.
At one time I got so desparate that I tried an escort. However I even had really bad luck with that. When the escort got to the hotel she took my money and refused to do anything. When I began to get upset she threatened to call security on me. Needless to say that it was another horrible experience in my life.
Now it is even worse for me than before, I am beginning to lose my hair and I am also unemployed and had to move in with my mother. I became addicted to World of Warcraft as a kind of escape from my miserable existance, but I always held this fairytale notion that I would fall in love with a beautiful woman and marry her and live happily ever after, and it never happened. So now I am a short, fat 39 year old virgin who will be 40 in a few months time.
I wish I knew about the seduction comminity before, and realize that much of what I had done is AFC or WBAFC in the past because I had no clue. Is there any hope for me turning from what I am now into a DJ or Pickup artist? Can I get laid in the next few months without resorting to prostitutes?
