3rd night out in a row.
Today I got up after not much sleep and spent the whole day driving around, running errands, doing sh*t that needs to be done (I drove a couple hundred miles, mostly city. That tires the sh*t out of you). So, when evening fell, I was pretty damn tired and didn't really feel like going out.
But I went anyway.
Same club. Huge place, like 7 rooms. Sadly no karaoke this time, but awesome live music. I wander around a bit, make a chat left and right, but I'm not getting in the zone yet. Tired, having trouble keeping the energy up. Voice in head: "Plough on, don't give up, you p*ssy."
Then I see a girl sitting all by herself. She is really pretty. Like not in-your-face smoking hot, but just this really beautiful little thingy. She had that little extra something that just catches your eye right away. I sit next to her and start a conversation. It turns out she's in the military flying helicopers and that she's playing ice hockey in her spare time. Total badass chick, but she is super, super shy. I'm pretty physical, but she doesn't really react to it; neither positive nor negative. Usually they either tell me to f*ck off right away, or they're into it. But not her, it was like she didn't really know how to deal with it or something. I couldn't get an emotion out of her.
She finds her friends, who are also in the air force. One other chick who flies airplanes, and one dude who's flying fighter jets. I hung out with them, talked and it was all good.
At one point I talk to my girl again and pull her on the dancefloor. Now, I'm not a good dancer, but what I usually do is just move around with the rhythm a little and the chick dances herself too. The last few times I did that it ended up in some nice grinding action. Hey, it worked last week, right? But she really wanted me to lead, like in classical dancing. I did really try, but like I said, I'm not a dancer; don't have the rhythm and moves and sh*t.
I went in for the kiss when I thought I saw a green light but she turned away. I pulled her into another room and kept going from where I left off. She told me she thought I was being a little "too frisky". I just said I love that sh*t and love giving people hugs, but she said it made her uncomfortable.
I got her number and said we should meet up. She was like "okay, sure", but again, almost too shy to say yes or no. I just didn't really knew what to do with this chick.
And again, why was she so shy? She had the looks of a movie star. I know I'm a handsome guy, but I'm sure she gets approached by all kinds of guys all the time.
I approached a bunch of other chicks but my battery was just empty, nothing really worked out.
But you know, still. New experiences, new situations and I did push myself to whatever I could get out of the night. Differences:
2 days ago and yesterday=high energy
today=low energy
And the results show that I think.
Also again, no drinking. Same with last night. I'm sober for a week now, which is good. I have been drinking way too hard the last few years.
Well, that's it for today. I'm really motivated and positive about everything at the moment and I'm sure more awesomeness will ensue.
By the way, I just realized that a year ago, I'd probably be psyched to have gotten a number, especially from a really beautiful girl. Now I just don't really care about that and think it kinda sucks I didn't get a makeout or got her home. Hmm... definitely progress here.
Stay tuned.
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Today I got up after not much sleep and spent the whole day driving around, running errands, doing sh*t that needs to be done (I drove a couple hundred miles, mostly city. That tires the sh*t out of you). So, when evening fell, I was pretty damn tired and didn't really feel like going out.
But I went anyway.
Same club. Huge place, like 7 rooms. Sadly no karaoke this time, but awesome live music. I wander around a bit, make a chat left and right, but I'm not getting in the zone yet. Tired, having trouble keeping the energy up. Voice in head: "Plough on, don't give up, you p*ssy."
Then I see a girl sitting all by herself. She is really pretty. Like not in-your-face smoking hot, but just this really beautiful little thingy. She had that little extra something that just catches your eye right away. I sit next to her and start a conversation. It turns out she's in the military flying helicopers and that she's playing ice hockey in her spare time. Total badass chick, but she is super, super shy. I'm pretty physical, but she doesn't really react to it; neither positive nor negative. Usually they either tell me to f*ck off right away, or they're into it. But not her, it was like she didn't really know how to deal with it or something. I couldn't get an emotion out of her.
She finds her friends, who are also in the air force. One other chick who flies airplanes, and one dude who's flying fighter jets. I hung out with them, talked and it was all good.
At one point I talk to my girl again and pull her on the dancefloor. Now, I'm not a good dancer, but what I usually do is just move around with the rhythm a little and the chick dances herself too. The last few times I did that it ended up in some nice grinding action. Hey, it worked last week, right? But she really wanted me to lead, like in classical dancing. I did really try, but like I said, I'm not a dancer; don't have the rhythm and moves and sh*t.
I went in for the kiss when I thought I saw a green light but she turned away. I pulled her into another room and kept going from where I left off. She told me she thought I was being a little "too frisky". I just said I love that sh*t and love giving people hugs, but she said it made her uncomfortable.
I got her number and said we should meet up. She was like "okay, sure", but again, almost too shy to say yes or no. I just didn't really knew what to do with this chick.
And again, why was she so shy? She had the looks of a movie star. I know I'm a handsome guy, but I'm sure she gets approached by all kinds of guys all the time.
I approached a bunch of other chicks but my battery was just empty, nothing really worked out.
But you know, still. New experiences, new situations and I did push myself to whatever I could get out of the night. Differences:
2 days ago and yesterday=high energy
today=low energy
And the results show that I think.
Also again, no drinking. Same with last night. I'm sober for a week now, which is good. I have been drinking way too hard the last few years.
Well, that's it for today. I'm really motivated and positive about everything at the moment and I'm sure more awesomeness will ensue.
By the way, I just realized that a year ago, I'd probably be psyched to have gotten a number, especially from a really beautiful girl. Now I just don't really care about that and think it kinda sucks I didn't get a makeout or got her home. Hmm... definitely progress here.
Stay tuned.
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