FleetingNarcissus
Don Juan
I've noticed in meeting women, whether casually or with greater intent, my personality wavers quite a bit. It seems like at certain points that I have some charm, the charm that belongs to one who can have most any woman he wants... but at other times I am not so well-spoken and probably really awkward and I feel like the last thing women are looking for. This all occurs in the same day sometimes. It's as if I have two personas---one is fairly attractive I think, witty and well-spoken while the other is an immediate turn-off to women although obviously has the same looks and other qualities.
Today I was sitting at school and saw a pretty good-looking girl approaching from far off...when she finally came by she looked at me but she had this awkward expression on her face and I wondered if she thought I looked disgusting or just wasn't sure of herself. Then I started some small talk with her, although I stayed about 10 feet away and didn't get up to sit next to her (maybe that was my mistake) but none of the coke machines were working so I decided to go get a drink somewhere else. But I noticed when I was talking, it was like I got stuck asking questions and I only had a few things to add on top of them. She just answered and seemed like maybe she was amused at first but I couldn't think of anything to say and I was smiling at her. I could tell that awkwardness was there, like I was unattractive to her. Then when I came out of the building a few moments later and still couldn't find a drink, she was walking by and looked at me, then looked away and looked back and just had that terrible awkward look. I just said,"oh well, I guess no drink today"...and walked off. I don't know, maybe she wasn't attracted to me to begin with but it seemed like I made things awkward.
Then I met up with a friend and walked up to the art class and this girl (think I mentioned her in the last post, the one who struck a sexy pose for me) was sitting up there. I made eye contact with her but she was just staring at me...then all I could manage to say was,"Hi, how are you doing today?" She said "good" and left it at that. On the way out, she was talking to the petite chick (who I also mentioned in the last post I think) and cleared her throat as I went by. The girl who was staring at me came into my work the other day and I asked her how the holidays had been, she said "good, did santa bring you everything you wanted?" some small talk and she left but today when I saw her I was going to flirt with her...but she didn't smile. I wanted her to smile because I was gonna ask her,"so when you were sitting on santa's lap, is that the way you smiled at him?"
Anyway, I feel like when I'm off I'm really off but when I'm on I'm really on. I feel like I could seduce the one girl the way she was looking at me...but when I'm really off, my brain ceases to function and I get stuck looking overly friendly ("nice") and only saying things that lead nowhere ("Hi, how are you today?"). How can I stay on top of these lulls and stay vibrant and appealing? I need some pu$$y very soon and I'd like to have hers but there are many to choose from and I want to seem like THE MAN when I talk to them. Another thing that seems to plague me is that older women seem a lot friendlier to me than the ones that are around my age or younger. It's almost like I'm more attractive in their eyes or something. But I want to woo the one girl and possibly the petite still if I can't get her. How should I go about this and how can I overcome these times of awkwardness? Thank you if you read this far and tell me what you think.
Today I was sitting at school and saw a pretty good-looking girl approaching from far off...when she finally came by she looked at me but she had this awkward expression on her face and I wondered if she thought I looked disgusting or just wasn't sure of herself. Then I started some small talk with her, although I stayed about 10 feet away and didn't get up to sit next to her (maybe that was my mistake) but none of the coke machines were working so I decided to go get a drink somewhere else. But I noticed when I was talking, it was like I got stuck asking questions and I only had a few things to add on top of them. She just answered and seemed like maybe she was amused at first but I couldn't think of anything to say and I was smiling at her. I could tell that awkwardness was there, like I was unattractive to her. Then when I came out of the building a few moments later and still couldn't find a drink, she was walking by and looked at me, then looked away and looked back and just had that terrible awkward look. I just said,"oh well, I guess no drink today"...and walked off. I don't know, maybe she wasn't attracted to me to begin with but it seemed like I made things awkward.
Then I met up with a friend and walked up to the art class and this girl (think I mentioned her in the last post, the one who struck a sexy pose for me) was sitting up there. I made eye contact with her but she was just staring at me...then all I could manage to say was,"Hi, how are you doing today?" She said "good" and left it at that. On the way out, she was talking to the petite chick (who I also mentioned in the last post I think) and cleared her throat as I went by. The girl who was staring at me came into my work the other day and I asked her how the holidays had been, she said "good, did santa bring you everything you wanted?" some small talk and she left but today when I saw her I was going to flirt with her...but she didn't smile. I wanted her to smile because I was gonna ask her,"so when you were sitting on santa's lap, is that the way you smiled at him?"
Anyway, I feel like when I'm off I'm really off but when I'm on I'm really on. I feel like I could seduce the one girl the way she was looking at me...but when I'm really off, my brain ceases to function and I get stuck looking overly friendly ("nice") and only saying things that lead nowhere ("Hi, how are you today?"). How can I stay on top of these lulls and stay vibrant and appealing? I need some pu$$y very soon and I'd like to have hers but there are many to choose from and I want to seem like THE MAN when I talk to them. Another thing that seems to plague me is that older women seem a lot friendlier to me than the ones that are around my age or younger. It's almost like I'm more attractive in their eyes or something. But I want to woo the one girl and possibly the petite still if I can't get her. How should I go about this and how can I overcome these times of awkwardness? Thank you if you read this far and tell me what you think.
