okay you guys are going to kill me, so here goes.
so many hours, keep saying "no, its wrong" while she is trying to touch me, putting on a strict face and keeping the school thing going.
getting the most out of the exercises, i cant believe i said "no" so many times today. i explained the consequences, her loosing her relationship, how i am not going to be the bad guy in this, etc etc.. trying to educate her. just before going home she started saying "how come it feels like i lost something, while i never had it to begin with", she also told me her sex life is horrible, its not good not for her and not for her bf, (i say whatever, this is still not a good reason to cheat), i tried to say "we will be good friends, dont worry" etc etc, the only way i managed to get her to go home is by saying "please lets home, do it for me" then we walked home, this time she practicaly begged for a hug, i considered and said, okay as long as it as friends, gave her one... boy oh boy it was soooooo good. anyways she wanted one more, so i said "no, let me drive you home" she had to go checkout an apt she was babysitting, i offered to drive her there, its f***ing late and dark and who knows the creeps that walk outside, we went up, i crossed my hands and stood in the corner, then she disappeared in one of the rooms, i have no idea what she did there but after a few mins i followed to see why she had gone missing, anyways push come to shove, she wanted to look into my eyes, at this point i was realy out of it, i wanted more but i tried to resist, blah.. resistance is futile so they say in the borg.
so it happens and she hugged me once again, i shoved her back a few times saying "this is not right". pull her towards the front door trying to go, but seriously now, her smell and body warm was so vivid that i knew that if she would do something else i wont be able to hold it anymore. i stood at the corner and then, now a word of caution! a corner is a bad place to hide!!, and then she came and cornered me to the wall rubbing herself against me, at this point i couldnt think straight so i let her rub her crotch against mine for several minutes, she was so wet that it was showing on the outside..amazing, anyways i took her to the couch and we started rubbing and holding each other. okay so here comes the part that you guys are going to say "told you so", she didnt let me kiss her, touch her boobs, or down there, i could grab just about anything else, but she kind of gave me a rub dance, like a half a lapdance, lets just say we didnt finish what we started, it was about 2 hours, how time goes fast when you enjoy yourself..
i told her that the lying part she'd have to do on her own, i am not interested in lying. do you guys know that sharp pain you get when you dont finish the job you just started, well lets just say i am not recommending it to anyone, pain is a b*tc*.
so yeah, i cheated, the skies didnt fall. but its not something i'd like to do again.
comments, crits, flames, etc .. always appreciated.
