Jesse Pinkman's approach/field reports thread.

[Jesse Pinkman]

Great Job haha. You have obviously upgraded in life, and you came back to your old turf and slayed. I actually did something really really slightly similar, not to your extent lol. I decided to redownload hinge and make my location in Nashville, and I had 30(90% of them I would ask on a date) matches within 2 days lol vs the 5-10(majority non-dateable) matches I was getting a month. I just wanted to see if the new me even stood a chance there and I guess I am more competitive now lol.

I am different than you in the sense that if the stars line up, I really want to get back to Manhattan before I get too old for it. I recently turned 30 and I know that time is not exactly on my side. It was refreshing man, I mean after months of crappy Miami nightlife to a bar in every corner in NYC, you cannot compare at all. I just came to find how old me was being way too self-defeating and not even giving it his best because NYC before the pandemic was unreal. Wish I had learned this daygame stuff a lot sooner along with nightgame cold approaching. So many dudes there are wusses and rely on social circle/work Happy Hours. So easy to set yourself apart in that city when it comes to game.

 

[Jesse Pinkman]

4 women in one week is amazing. That's celebrity/pro athlete level stuff. Ordinary suave guys can do 2 in a week and that's not uncommon. Impressive week!

I know my guy @In2theGame used to get crazy results when he was hitting the game in NYC, think even better than me at some point, but yeah even I surprised myself. I think what helped out is that I stopped limiting myself and just went for broke. Initially in NYC, I had a lot of limiting beliefs of what is and is not possible but this time around, I just said screw it and went for broke.

With the Italian, I did not think how much a 20 min taxi drive would kill thing and it almost did. She was getting frustrated in the taxi but I said screw it and kept with it. Same with my first lay, I did not know how what I did would be possible. We initially only did it for 10 min but then we went all in when she forgot her stuff and kept doing it. Saw my second lay repeatedly and she said she wants to visit Miami again at some point so that was good.

On one hand I think I have improved but on the other, I wonder if this time around I really just became myself and put out what was there when I was in NYC. I still have to get shredded/look handsome and I still have things to work on but I do wonder if the me that got 4 lays in NYC was being repressed back when I lived in the city. Maybe that day to day hustle and bustle kills your real vibe.

I also made quick adjustments on the fly too. Went out with a couple of guys from the wingman group I am a part of and they were weird AF, also cried about some black pill nonsense and how NYC women have an archetype or whatever. I dropped them like a hot potato and ran game, didn't pull that night though but promised to never go out with them again.

 

[Jesse Pinkman]

Bro I ain't ever returning back to Nashville, trust me . If I had to move back up there, it would be Atlanta, no negotiations, no buts. Otherwise, my family can bring their behinds down here lol.

Why not move to NYC if you make enough money? I think you are a light skin black dude correct? You would slay so hard in Manhattan and do even better than most Chads. I have read your posts and think that you would be a great fit for what Manhattan offers and really love life there. If you need recommendations on where to stay then I would be happy to make a guide for you.

 

[Jesse Pinkman]

Good stuff! I guess it just shows the numbers game/randomness/luck element of it all, as well as the importance of location, maybe.
You can get rejected non-stop for months at a time and someone would say 'he must have zero game' and then you can have a week where you are banging every girl you hit on, like you've got a super power and people say 'that guy must have next level game!' lol.

I had a similar week to your one when I went travelling to Budapest. The stars aligned and I was banging a different girl every night I was there lol (mainly fellow travellers. Irish, American, Brit, German, Russian from memory)

So it is true what they say, local women are indeed tougher. Man I would love to get with a Hungarian woman so bad, they are definitely my type in terms of look. That black hair with the lightly tanned olive skin and lighter eyes gets me hard for days. Came buckets to Aletta Ocean back in the day.

 

[Jesse Pinkman]

Things take a turn to awful.

So I did not completely share my story for November but in the very first week, I got sick. I don't usually get sick but it was the flu. I wanted to vote for DeSantis so bad but was sneezing and too run down to do it even up to that date. Lasted almost a week but started to feel close to 100% when I had my flight planned back to NYC. In NYC, I had a sort of a relieve from any sickness but I am not sure what the heck I brought back (got STD tests so it wasn't that) but things got bad.

As soon as I come back, I started experiencing all sorts of weird symptoms. First one was nausea that lasted for over a week. I vomited the Thanksgiving dinner I had with family when I went back home, could not hold it down. Experienced sharp stomach pain that also somewhat went to the back but it was intermittent, not long-lasting. The week of the 21st was crap, never felt that rundown in ages!

It was all to do with the stomach and when I told my symptoms to my cousin who is a nurse, she told me that I need to see a doctor ASAP. Come to find, I lost weight like a mofo without even trying, it has been 6 lbs in a span of only a couple of weeks. Talk to my cousin about all of my symptoms and she said I need to get screened by a specialist as it pertains to my stomach, pancreas, and gall bladder. When I talked to her about more of my symptoms, she said I should do it ASAP because she sees the kinds of symptoms I mentioned in early-stage cancer patients. Apparently, some of the cancers are already stage 4 by the time symptoms show and the survival rate for them is low.

Then come to find, my job date gets pushed to December 1 instead of late November. Why does this matter? My health insurance does not kick in until January! Without that, I am stranded hoping I don't have a medical emergency because of how crazy healthcare gets in the US.

Looking back at it, I am starting to realize that I was sicker than I thought I was over the years. Like I had some degree of fatigue but it never bothered me and I feel like stuff went undiagnosed. My bloodwork came back normal except for the cholesterol levels but I also did some binge drinking in my mid to late twenties.

What gets me are these pains I am getting throughout my body that come and go. Sometimes they are in the back, sometimes in the groin, sometimes in the abdomen, and sometimes pins and needles in the arms and legs. I looked back on all of my annual exams with the doctor and realized how little Primary Care docs really do. Even the blood tests were super basic and never looked for any serious condition. Went to Urgent Care and man are they by definition useless, it is the best you can do without insurance or else you just pay like crazy.

My health has never been this awful in ages. I think it is due to family stress, job stress, and thinking about my future but I have been so run down physically. Never have I thought about the possibility of dying because I might have a terminal illness but I realized how many signs I ignored in my 20s by not being proactive enough with my doctors. Then figure in that healthcare went to $hit in NYC during the pandemic.

I am aching to see a specialist as soon as my health insurance kicks in during January but am left hoping no emergency hits me that takes me to ER in the meantime, that's easily $10k debt right there.

Taking a break from game but keeping myself mentally busy until then. I am going to post more on here until January comes before I restart game. Not in a good place mentally right now to get back out there.

 

[Jesse Pinkman]

So more of a dear diary for now rather than a field report but man I am aching to get to a specialist in January. I really need to get myself checked out but I am also aching to get back out there once I am cleared on the health end. I have been irritated on how much things have gone downhill for me since my return from NYC, health-wise that is, and I need to get back out there when I can. If there is a chance that I do not get diagnosed with Cancer in January or early next year, I am just going all in.

This has been so irritating and frustrating for me to sit on the sidelines. I have some big goals to hit with game but my health has gone to $hit. Some of these symptoms like me feeling fatigued were there for years but I ignored them since they never got in the way of me doing what I had to. I used to think blood tests and annual checkups were enough but I guess not.

 

[Jesse Pinkman]

Just as I feared, game rust. I am SOL until I can see a doctor in January which is when my health insurance kicks in but I am having intermittent pains in my abdomen which is also spreading at times to my arms and legs. Went to the pharmacy yesterday to get some toothpaste because I realized I was out. Get in line to get it and this blonde behind me chats me up, she was using her umbrella as a shopping bag/things you lift or whatever. I look and she smiles, we make good small talk but the line moves fast. I did not even ask for a close

Then today as I was watching the World Cup, this cool Russian kept chatting me up but I was too much into the game.

Mentally, I am beat from this month man. So many health scares and then realizing that until the end of this year, only a couple of weeks or so left, I am in limbo. Then thinking about what I possibly get diagnosed with, maybe it is cancer. I really had to snap myself out of it over the weekend and give myself a much needed pep talk. Like I cannot keep living like this. I have declined significantly ever since coming back from the NYC trip and am living worried and anxious.

I have had to develop a new mentality. Even if I get diagnosed with something serious when I see the doctor and it gives me limited time, I rather have those months be the best of my entire life. Screw it, I am so done living with anxiety.

 

[Jake_Gyllenhaal69]

Are you going January 1st?

 

[SW15]

Are you going January 1st?

It might be difficult to do it until January 3rd or 4th. Dealing with medical offices stinks.

 

[Don of the north]

Mentally, I am beat from this month man. So many health scares and then realizing that until the end of this year, only a couple of weeks or so left, I am in limbo. Then thinking about what I possibly get diagnosed with, maybe it is cancer. I really had to snap myself out of it over the weekend and give myself a much needed pep talk. Like I cannot keep living like this. I have declined significantly ever since coming back from the NYC trip and am living worried and anxious.

I have had to develop a new mentality. Even if I get diagnosed with something serious when I see the doctor and it gives me limited time, I rather have those months be the best of my entire life. Screw it, I am so done living with anxiety.

None of this is professional medical advice, but I'm just giving you my opinion.

Stop worrying. It's unlikely it's cancer. Basic blood tests would almost certainly show something seriously wrong with any gi cancer that is that advanced and causing symptoms like that. Your blood work would most likely be an absolute mess if you have advanced cancer with cachexia(weight loss from cancer). Liver panel, pancreatic enzymes ect. would most likely be a disaster if you had advanced pancreatic cancer as an example and you'd often present with jaundice since the bile duct gets blocked from the tumor. Your skin isn't yellow, right?

You're also at very low risk at your age of colorectal cancer or really any GI cancer for that matter.

All that being said, you are having concerning symptoms so see a doctor and have them figure it out. They can do an ultrasound, endoscopy, colonoscopy ect.

 

[Jesse Pinkman]

None of this is professional medical advice, but I'm just giving you my opinion.

Stop worrying. It's unlikely it's cancer. Basic blood tests would almost certainly show something seriously wrong with any gi cancer that is that advanced and causing symptoms like that. Your blood work would most likely be an absolute mess if you have advanced cancer with cachexia(weight loss from cancer). Liver panel, pancreatic enzymes ect. would most likely be a disaster if you had advanced pancreatic cancer as an example and you'd often present with jaundice since the bile duct gets blocked from the tumor. Your skin isn't yellow, right?

You're also at very low risk at your age of colorectal cancer or really any GI cancer for that matter.

All that being said, you are having concerning symptoms so see a doctor and have them figure it out. They can do an ultrasound, endoscopy, colonoscopy ect.

You would think that but not at all. I looked back on my old blood tests and all seemed good except a higher than average cholesterol level. Most do not have a liver panel at all and I even went to check, they do the bare basics. For some of these cancers you have to look for like CA19 levels or whatever and specifically for tests for that very thing.

However, I have Googled and Reddited my symptoms a lot and it seems like every other 30-something on reddit gets diagnosed with some kind of Cancer meant for people in their 60s. Crazy world we live in.

I have had a lot of strange symptoms such as:

1. Tingling feelings in extremities.

2. Fingers turning somewhat bluer than I am used to.

3. Not being able to sleep some nights because I feel a pain or something on the back of my left eye.

4. Frequent urination, at times getting up often to pee.

5. Pain on the flanks of the stomach that is acute but comes and goes a couple of times a day.

6. A lump/enlarged spleen which I felt (could have been that but it was below the left rib cage).

7. Occasional pain in the shins or my right feet as if it is a nerve or something or bone related, like I have arthritis or something.

8. Pain that is acute but somewhat sharp in center of stomach that comes and goes.

9. Nausea that happens on some nights, had it for a week during Thanksgiving at one point.

10. Feeling like I fade sometimes and can faint but that just happened in the past 2 days if anything.

11. Blurry vision now when I look at a computer screen late at night.

Like either I have extreme anxiety from the stress of life or whatever. My h3ll is that health insurance does not kick in until January and I have to brave it out. It is that wait and helplessness that is killing me. Urgent care has been utterly useless and anything else would cost a fortune. Somehow, my Christmas miracle is going to be that I do not have an emergency before January 1st or else I go into debt.

It is that helplessness, knowing that something in me is not right but not being able to see a real doctor until more than a week out that is just killing me. I am trying to pass my time through whatever way I can because somehow, I need this year to end ASAP so I don't end up in huge debt over a medical emergency.

 

[Jesse Pinkman]

Are you going January 1st?

Booked a GI visit for Jan 4. The one GI I wanted who went to Johns Hopkins, his office stopped me and basically said "yeah you have to be diagnosed with something before you can see him". I said screw it and searched a lot for a good one. So many crappy doctors here in Miami too who went to med school in the Caribbean and I was like no way I am seeing that guy lol. Did find one who went to a great med school, had great reviews, and seemed to be considered one of the best for Miami so booked it with him.

I will call his office to finalize everything about my insurance. Not expecting good news when I see him though but I am going to push for that CT Scan and Xray/MRI like crazy.

It might be difficult to do it until January 3rd or 4th. Dealing with medical offices stinks.

If my symptoms do not improve by the first of January, I am going to ER on that day if that is what it takes.

 

[Jesse Pinkman]

The decline of Jesse Pinkman.

From late November onwards, I can say that I have not been proud of the guy I have been. I have posted a lot of crappy threads on here, spent a lot of time browsing the internet, and all of it due to my health being awful. Now I am starting to care more of sports on the weekend than caring for game due to the decline in my health. I have gone months without health insurance because I did not think I would really need it until I did. Then come to find it takes at least 3 weeks for health insurance to process and I feel like I get hit with a different symptom each day.

2022 has been an implosion of a year for me because it went so well but I collapsed towards the end of it. What it has shown me is that I have foundational problems that need to be fixed, starting with my health. For years, I have gone to doctors and they have not done anything other than a simple blood test and telling me I look great. Now, I am going to be more proactive in going to specialists and trying to figure out just what the heck is going on. I need to build a stronger foundation so I can sustain the game.

Looking back at it, I am not really sure what it is. I clearly had health issues that are still going on but thankfully I see the doctor in early Jan to figure out what the heck is going on. However, before them, I had a massive anxiety attack due to family problems, work issues, and a host of other things. My weekends spent on game were now spent staying inside after that NYC trip which was a massive success.

I am however, looking forward to a brighter future once I get my health fixed. Since my new job pays more, I am moving to a bigger place. I am also going to build a more balanced life as well.

I enjoy daygaming on weekends and look forward to getting back to it. I am very likely going to cut nightgame out for good as of right now because it is just not my element.

I need to make a lot of changes before I get back out there in the field even though 2022 was by many metrics a success.

 

[Jesse Pinkman]

First day out in quite some time.

So after dinner, I take a long walk around the neighborhood and see this girl with a beautiful white dog. It seemed like some kind of a Husky so I open her with that. She had a heavy Eastern European accent and I chatted with her a bit, told her she must be from Ukraine. She tells me she is from Belarus. Man, sometimes I love how international Miami gets. We have this awkward moment for a few seconds where we look at each other and I keep talking to her.

I tell her my name and all and she tells me hers, super receptive the whole time despite how pretty she was. She had that black hair and pale skin look, just the type you get a lot @Jake_Gyllenhaal69 and I keep chatting. It's been my first real approach in over a month and she told me she moved to Miami from London because she didn't like London very much. I get to talking to her about Fish and Chips and joke saying that she must have had an upset stomach. The dog is chill the whole time.

So I try to number close her after the conversation and she tells me she is married.

Failed approach but man it felt good being out. Been watching porn and staying in a lot in December due to my health but starting NoFap again. I am so excited to get out there because every walk around the neighborhood the girls keep getting hotter and hotter yo.

 

[Jesse Pinkman]

This is practically my journal at this point but I have decided that I have really wasted the past month being sick and not being in good health. I have posted a lot of threads that come off as spammy and as unproductive. It is time I start to slowly take action again and put myself out there. My health is still not at 100% but I do not have anything infectious. My take is that even if I have a terminal illness, which I don't doubt could be the case, I go out having a great time and having fun along the way. Tired of having to stay in because of this stuff.

No energy right now for aggressive night game but I will start with day game again.

 

[Jesse Pinkman]

Life update, my decline, getting my sh*t together, and potentially preparing for rough news.

So I just checked my weight this morning and have practically lost about 10 lbs since November without even trying, clearly red flags going off in my head. Thing is I feel like I am eating more but the weight is going away. Saw a PCP and a specialist last week and the specialist has recommended specific blood tests based on my symptoms, a CT Scan for this week, and potentially a Colonscopy as well.

PCP saw me, did his whole physical based on what I paid for (it was out of network but the dude is considered really good and a friend who is in med school recommended him). Got a follow up with him next week but he did not seem concerned at all when I did my entire physical with him. However, that only tells part of the story.

Health is way too on and off for me and I am going to see how the results from the CT Scan go given that I have never had one in my life.

December to now, I have never been so scared of my health and thinking that I potentially have a deadly disease. Like I am not sure what it is but I guess it is true about getting older, you lose that invincibility feeling you once had in youth. The odds might be on my side though because usually most people in their 30s do not get Cancer but I am not banking on anything until that CT Scan result comes back. Read a lot of scary stories about folks being diagnosed with Stage 4 Cancer even though they did not outright show symptoms.

However, as stressful as the uncertainty has been for me, I have tried to keep my cool. To think that back from my successful trip to NYC (where at times I was feeling a bit sick come to think of it or just off), it would come to a decline this massive. I have become everything I told myself I would not. It is like either fate or whatever anyone believes in has thrown such a situation in my lap that I have been almost forced to take a break from game and resort to doing things like watching football and eating conservative ("healthy") food rather than having fun on weekends.

I had my moments of feeling like a victim but for now I have come to an acceptance that whatever happens, I will have to accept it and live with it. If I do get news that they think I have Cancer and it is advanced, I am going to cross off some bucket list items before they put me on chemo because I know how much that can screw with someone's life and just degrade them outright.

Never in my life have I faced the chances of death like this, I just haven't. I have not come to a point in my life before where the likelihood of me passing away was as high as it is right now. I don't know what comes of this week and the next but I know I have to remain strong and make the most of it. Maybe facing down the barrel of death makes one bolder and take risks that they often wouldn't. We will see.

Uncertainty, not knowing, and waiting.....sometimes that is the worst news.

 

[BillyPilgrim]

Life update, my decline, getting my sh*t together, and potentially preparing for rough news.

So I just checked my weight this morning and have practically lost about 10 lbs since November without even trying, clearly red flags going off in my head. Thing is I feel like I am eating more but the weight is going away. Saw a PCP and a specialist last week and the specialist has recommended specific blood tests based on my symptoms, a CT Scan for this week, and potentially a Colonscopy as well.

PCP saw me, did his whole physical based on what I paid for (it was out of network but the dude is considered really good and a friend who is in med school recommended him). Got a follow up with him next week but he did not seem concerned at all when I did my entire physical with him. However, that only tells part of the story.

Health is way too on and off for me and I am going to see how the results from the CT Scan go given that I have never had one in my life.

December to now, I have never been so scared of my health and thinking that I potentially have a deadly disease. Like I am not sure what it is but I guess it is true about getting older, you lose that invincibility feeling you once had in youth. The odds might be on my side though because usually most people in their 30s do not get Cancer but I am not banking on anything until that CT Scan result comes back. Read a lot of scary stories about folks being diagnosed with Stage 4 Cancer even though they did not outright show symptoms.

However, as stressful as the uncertainty has been for me, I have tried to keep my cool. To think that back from my successful trip to NYC (where at times I was feeling a bit sick come to think of it or just off), it would come to a decline this massive. I have become everything I told myself I would not. It is like either fate or whatever anyone believes in has thrown such a situation in my lap that I have been almost forced to take a break from game and resort to doing things like watching football and eating conservative ("healthy") food rather than having fun on weekends.

I had my moments of feeling like a victim but for now I have come to an acceptance that whatever happens, I will have to accept it and live with it. If I do get news that they think I have Cancer and it is advanced, I am going to cross off some bucket list items before they put me on chemo because I know how much that can screw with someone's life and just degrade them outright.

Never in my life have I faced the chances of death like this, I just haven't. I have not come to a point in my life before where the likelihood of me passing away was as high as it is right now. I don't know what comes of this week and the next but I know I have to remain strong and make the most of it. Maybe facing down the barrel of death makes one bolder and take risks that they often wouldn't. We will see.

Uncertainty, not knowing, and waiting.....sometimes that is the worst news.

If nothing else, staring down death can help with game.

Go see a naturopath if you can Jesse.

 

[Jesse Pinkman]

If nothing else, staring down death can help with game.

Go see a naturopath if you can Jesse.

Perhaps, nothing to lose. Naturopath might be worth it but tbh, if it comes to the bad news at the end of this week that I have advanced Cancer, I'd almost not want to go through with chemo based on the stories I have heard and how much it ruins you.

To think though man, just a couple of months ago I was living life and on the up and up and now, it can all end like that....

 

[SW15]

To think though man, just a couple of months ago I was living life and on the up and up and now, it can all end like that....

Let's see what happens. I hope that this is a fixable issue.

 

[Jake_Gyllenhaal69]

Did you take the vax and every dose?