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Jack Wealthy

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I bought the Hunger Games trilogy. Full on ignored this needy girl:
G:Don't reply to my message then :p
(No reply from me, day later)
Girl:I know you don't like me so its not even worth trying is it
Girl: I know you don't like me lol
(no reply from me, hour later)
G:No chance hahahahaha
G:Do yu like me?
G:hahahahaha do u like me?
G:yu like me
G:do yu even care about me at all
(no reply from me, two hours later)
G:you no yu love me
Oldest is bottom, the way the appear in my phone.

I'm reading 11/22/63 at the moment, very good book. I'm also 3 books in to the Robert Jordan "The Wheel of Time" saga.

Planning my afters, I'll get a date
 

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Oh right I talked to a girl. I forget sometimes...

Her name is Tahlie, I just made a ****tonne of lame jokes and made her laugh.

OH **** I WAS INVITED TO NEW YEARS STUFF in a different city though, so yeah.

I worked out today.
 

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New Yare!

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Soo not going to the new years stuff? Too bad...
It was one of my best friends, but his events have an unfortunate tendency to be lame for me. His g2gether was the one my ex crashed and I didn't hook up with my friends ex. Those two events are related now that I think of it, if it wasn't for my ex I probably would have lacked the empathy to not get some. Another one of his parties I ended up lying on a bed, alone, while the only girl there who was available and another guy hooked up. Because she was into me and I reaction sought. ****er.

...

2/1/2012

Finished reading 11.22.63. Ending was a bit lame.

Started reading "The Hunger Games" and it is amazing. I'm halfway through the first book, its a great premise and perfectly written.

I'm better in touch with my emotions at the moment as well. It makes socializing easier. It makes me sincere and gives me motivation.

Watched "Requiem For a Dream" and it is AMAZING. One of those few movies that actually has substance, I could really feel the characters. It all starts so perfect, like a dream, then... down.

Was going to workout but then I lifted my weights from my step-grandads house to mine and got too tired.

Funny story: At was at the home of this known pedo, chucking a piss. I was nervous so I took certain protective measures of my junk which were illogical. Especially when taken mid-stream. The result being I nearly pissed on the far wall.:rolleyes:

I can't say I'm improving if I'm not socializing. I'm working on overcoming fear by sitting in a dark room and trying to meditate. I wasn't even afraid of the dark, then I realized I have four mirrors in my room. After reading that story "You see your reflection in the mirror. It smiles." I get this hilarious feeling of dread when I'm alone in the dark. So I purposefully focus on the bad emotions until they become unbearable or go away. I just focus on feeling.

If you haven't seen Requiem for a Dream, watch it. Watch Animal Kingdom too, it's not as good or unique but for an Aussie film it's pretty great. Not like Australia. ****ing exploitative **** that is.
 

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Oh and I texted a bunch of girls. One was funny but I can't find it, so I'll paraphrase.
Her: (Merry Christmas group text)
Me: Hey, whos this?
H: (nyah nyah) Ho, this is Jaedon right?
M: Hahaha no, this is John Johnson.
H: WHAT? Ugh sorry, my friend Jaedon gave me this number and said it was his! Do you go to school?
M: Yes, Cambridgeton Academy (Made up haha)
H: Well I live in Australia!
M: Do you play sport?
H: (Lists sports), you?
M: Is chess a sport? Nah, just weights. Olympic style
H: Hahahaha, (something I ignored)
M: So what are you wearing?
H: Lol pajamas hahaha
M: Nice. Same, mine have spongebob
H: (Describes pajamas)
M: Mine are better.
H:Hahaha
M:(something she ignores.)
M:(Three days later, she posted on my wall straight away though) (I posted this on her wall) By the way, that is my number. John Johnson was a fake name.

Noice :D

Also 2nd day of no MB, aiming for 2 weeks. Coincidental.
 

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Jack Wealthy said:
Finished reading 11.22.63. Ending was a bit lame.

Started reading "The Hunger Games" and it is amazing. I'm halfway through the first book, its a great premise and perfectly written.
I read 11/22/63 overnight and couldn't put it down; it was brilliant. It was also the reason I'm sitting here without any homework done on the last day of break. :whistle:

The Hunger Games is also brilliant, it's right up there with Harry Potter as a classic, I think. You think the first book is good, wait till you read the other two. It just goes in ways you'd never expect.
 

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**** yeah, another family get together. Meant I couldn't work out again.

Dad bought me a USB and I got my watch fitted. Now I look pimp. The haircut helps, not looking like an oil factory. Unlucky though because tonight was cold and windy and I was outside.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hr1bTNFjec8 : Clap Your Hands - Sia (AUSTRALIA REPRESENT!)
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bSqx4nRexh4 : Hello- MArtin Solveig ft. Dragonette (Official Video Short Version)
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LCjQKW2iX3M : Same as above except the shorter version I have on my phone, I think it's a club mix.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5tW6WJddodI : Titanium - David Guetta but mainly SIA!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eWUC5Q0RCAA : Seek Bromance - Time Berg (aka Avicii)
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_ovd...ext=1&list=AVGxdCwVVULXdtS9510ihz9vndi8-tGVPf : Levels by above
 

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Still haven't tossed, I am quite the champion.

More facebook, late last night until about two. More Hunger Games, all day today. IT JUST KEEPS COMING! The facebook stuff is just personal talk, her background, mine. A couple of funny comments.

This guy on facebook posted a picture of a bottle of Passion pop, a pack of cigarettes, a box+sheet of pills and a baggie full of them. After some research and trepidation, because it was a massive ******* comment, I posted this: "You can't overdose on antidepressants." The next girl commented "Aren't they (meaning the baggie) antibiotics?" He the banned me from posting...

I made eye contact with this girl, eye ****ed her. She did a double take. The I saw her mum. I did one.

Talked to a cashier: Her: Hey, how are you?
M: Hey, good. How's work.
H: Oh, exciting. Nah it was boring but now it's busy so... (She talk with her hands a lot, which is cute:)
M: What are you doing after work? (Innocently)
H:... Uh.. Probably just sleeping.
M: Citin.
I'm eliminating my filter. A lot.

EDIT: Sitting in the dark actually helps this. Have no sight scares the **** out of me. Being blind is one of my biggest fears and always has been. Which is ironic because I have pretty bad vision... Anyway, it gets me used to fear. I recommend finding something that scares you and doing it to get used to those feelings and hormones. Especially if you can't get out as much as you'd like.

I lifted again, Jackass 3 and a Spongebob DVD. I also bought an external hard drive.

Best thing today: Good mood, good book.
 

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Soooooooooooo Hornyyyyyyyyyyyyy

Day 8.

Random convo I had like three days ago,

ME: (I'm pushing a trolley with my five year old cousin on it) Hey, like my girlfriend?
Girl I kinda know, who think I'm hilarious- I assume: Hahaha, yeah.
Me: Not really, she's my cousin. Whats wrong with you?
Her: WHAT? You said it.
Me: No, just no. You're sick...
Her: HAha.

Then I said hey yesterday, she said I was stalking her and I said "Nooooooo...." I'm bored with her. Must meet new girls.

Worked out today. Worked out my legs fr the first time in aaaaaaages; broke the dry spell with deads. Ahhhhh deadlifts....

Watched Spongebob yesterday. And Jackass 2.5. I laughed my balls off.

Later.
 

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Yes Oh My Gosh!!!

My phone couldn't post this, 12/01/12.

I HAS A QUESTION
I am going to message this Russian chick who is attractive over fb. Mega direct. My question, because I got the idea four hours ago and it has thusly morphed and been over though to the point where doubt exists is:
Is this a gooder a message: "Hey, nice name. Let's drink ( her name is Smirnoff) figure you could get me smashed."
OR is this better
"Hey, let's hang out."

One problem is I don't drink, another is I can't take her too a house. For sex.

We have **** all in common besides the fact we're both hot. Different nationalities, senses of humor and values. But both hot.



Actual update:

Broke ye olde no wank on day 8. No excuse, just got really horny and watched some porn. Haven't restarted. Randomly came the other morning. Woke up, checked that my hands weren't on my **** and went back to fantasizing half-asleep about this awesome head. IT SEEMED REAL :D

Got a job at MICKY D'S so Ima beast that ****. I relax there and fit in.

Holy **** the moon is huge right now.

Anayway, this cool guy pointed out this hot chick for me and now Ima tap that. Flirting with a less hot chick because she's funny and I'm flirty. ***** splashed milk on me. In a good way.

I make $10.20 and hour. I work 20 odd hours a week. My main interaction with people right now. I'm getting warmer and more free flowing again. Last few days I've been telling fair inappropriate jokes to kill my fears; of offending or getting fired.

Reading Robert Jordan's Shadow Rising from The Wheel of Time series.\

Watching True Blood. Jason=Awesome. Watched St. Trinians as well, pretty funny.

I would appreciate advice with The Russian.

Oh, still not talking to my best friend since I fooled around with his gf on page one. **** I'm a **** friend.
 

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Would appreciate some Russian lessons....

Sexy Russian Advice guys?

Or not. I'll do it next time she's on. **** everyone, t'will be funny.

Had work this morning. Rocked up a bit late. I did online training, which meant I sat in the crew room for 3 hours. The first hour was great, we had this big group of 3-8 people in this tiny room and this one guy was pretty funny. I felt a bit threatened, but now I find it awesome. Me and this other guy were the only ones doing work so I had my focus split, it takes energy to maintain me... Also it was a sausage fest. One hot girl, rally pretty.

Then this other girl showed up while I was making burgers. We made intense eye contact multiple times then she walked up and said "Hey (reads name tag) Jaedon." I smiled and said "Hey (pause) Shannon." She was really exited'd with me there.

Complimented a girl on her hair. Walking down the street. Trying to state pump unconsciously, shoulda pursued anyways.

Went to Priceline (like a pharmacy except without prescriptions or OTC medications, just supplements, hair dyes, walking aids, sanitaries, soaps, etc.) and some old guy asked if they sold Chloroform. They all looked puzzled and said no, this hot chick came up, made hot eye contact with me then directed him around the store looking for it. I turned to the older lady serving us and said "He won't find it here." Her: "What is it?" Me: "A date-rape drug." Her:"HAHA He's a bit old for that don't you think?" Me: "Hope so. Maybe he just want's it as a sleeping aid." Then we discussed the illegality of it.

Then I went to Woolworths for milk for my workout soon. Some hot schoolgirl walked past with a friend, I walked the wrong way. Shoulda been all like "HEY! Come here, I'm Jaedon." Then I had a hot cashier and she asked what I did that day. I explained I had been working, as I was a lumberjack. With a straight face. She looked she was about to make a funny comment, but I stared into her soul (she had those clear blue eyes you know lead to their soul) with a straight face and she stopped short. She smiled. I said "So, where do you work?" She gave me an amused look and told me. I complimented her. She and said thanks.

Okay, work to do: Stop ****ing complimenting everyone, unless it's sincere. AKA spur of the moment. No more, wait, what can I compliment her on? Sure it works because I'm better looking than most girls but its trite.
Self amuse. ALL THE TIME. But not at others expense. Fun style, social.
Smile more. I look like a serial killer if I don't.
Be more of an as$hole, as in charming/sexy, not d!ckhead.


The compliments were to make me nicer, I've been an ******* and antisocial lately. Both in a bad way. I found teasing and compliments got me up to speed fair quick. Now I just want more experience and warmup.

Weird, I lost state as I was writing this. I write better and more consistently from a negative state, I'll post some of that stuff one day. The only good thing I've ever written from positive state would be that story I post a while ago, the troll one.
 

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Okay.... 39 days off drugs today. My chemicals are good, confidence is easy. So long as I socialize just a bit, everything goes smooth. Basically I'm just going to keep approaching and keep talking to people until I go back to the city, keep that general level of social skill.

Realised every single skill in this type of thing can be replaced by assume. As in; create rapport/assume rapport, create a sexual vibe/assume a sexual vibe and display value/assume value. Pretty stoked.

Started writing down my older adventures in no particular order here: http://www.teen-game.com/Community/viewtopic.php?f=22&t=1192&sid=d0a7db1eb801af907821b5ceb52816c0
Wish I hadn't of named it that. I can't remember all that many details so some of the stories are dry. I make up for it by titling them funnily.

Moved onto the next Robert Jordan book.

Started talking to a girl at work. She's 15 and her boyfriend is 21. It took ages to talk to her, but as soon as I realized being awesome is just assuming your awesome I started making awesome comments from an awesome place and now we talk.

Approached a cute girl at Woolworths. Crashed and burnt.

I feel like I'm just getting back into the flow, you know? Doing the hard yards so it becomes easy and graceful, the way it should be. So right now I have to deal with awkwardness and fear, but they're already dissipating. Besides, I know both of them are just perception. I know for a fact I make things awkward at the best of times. It's a sign of sexual tension and hilarity.
 

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Oh right, Sup.

Watched the first five Saw movies. 4 was so convoluted I had to search wikipedia for the plot-line. Also started watching Breaking Bad again, up to season two.

I played some Oblivion for the first time in forever.

I decided not to take drugs until the 2/2/2012, aka 50 days. I feel way better without them in the long run, even if they make me feel like lalalalala in the short run.

Better ****.

I was out working outside when some 12 year old started trying to stare me down for a fight. I was already in a bad mood because I'd ripped the **** out of my hands digging up metres of grass to the point where I couldn't workout again for five days, so I angry stared him to he rode off.

Then I was called into work and made the horrible mistake of putting anti-microbial wash on the blister. I nearly screamed it came on that quick, it wass fine for a second so I was like "This is ok." Then like a kick in the nuts, it flared up after a second delay. It was animal. Like that scene with the lye in Fight Club.

So then I went and worked a bunch, making money for living on my own. I have like 300$ of surplus drugs I may as well get rid of as well. I have about $600 saved so far.

This chick was getting needy so I dumped her. I've been needy before so I knew it would be better for her to be the one to start nc, but she just wouldn't. She sent me this:
"Suck my **** i heaerd what you told taye"
Followed by
"She told me you said you left me cause I didn't put out that night"
I said no such thing. I told her as much.
"Yeah ns I don't give a **** you can say whatever you want you don't mean **** to me"
So I decided at that stage to get angry and piss her off, so she would walk way. After like six texts:
"Don't need this **** bye"
I'm cool. I go on facebook and ****.
Then she started up again. I decided to drag my feelings into it (ones I didn't really have) and just stop texting her. She's sent me three texts since I said I'll text her when I want. I said "I want time to sort out my feelings. I'll text you when I do. Thank you x" I have no idea what I was thinking, reflecting on me from the past is hilarious because I don't understand the logic in my though processes. No point in dragging it back out to mention I liked her as a friend anyway, I'm just leaving. She's too much drama.

So, then I worked out yesterday. Talked to my dad because he was high, kept saying I had to go and he'd say bring something else up.

Cut my chest.

"So, I found out I was allergic to latex. Yeah, my penis just started swelling and I got dizzy."
 

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Hahah, good journal bro. You're funny as hell.

Read the hunger games man! They were addicting as hell bro! Couldn't put them down.
Really diggin your assuming. Think and you shall become as pook said.

I gotta work on that. Just be what I want to project. Be what I want to BE.

Good job man. Your inner game is growin.

But about that last girl. If you don't give a **** about it or getting back with her, there's no problem. However, be aware of your emotions and how you respond when you're faced with them. I'm with you though, looking back and laughing at yourself is freaking hilarious and it's healthy bro! If you can't laugh at yourself, you can't be a man!


Cheers.
 

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Jack Wealthy said:
This chick was getting needy so I dumped her. I've been needy before so I knew it would be better for her to be the one to start nc, but she just wouldn't. She sent me this:
"Suck my **** i heaerd what you told taye"
Followed by
"She told me you said you left me cause I didn't put out that night"
I said no such thing. I told her as much.
"Yeah ns I don't give a **** you can say whatever you want you don't mean **** to me"
So I decided at that stage to get angry and piss her off, so she would walk way. After like six texts:
"Don't need this **** bye"
I'm cool. I go on facebook and ****.
Then she started up again. I decided to drag my feelings into it (ones I didn't really have) and just stop texting her. She's sent me three texts since I said I'll text her when I want. I said "I want time to sort out my feelings. I'll text you when I do. Thank you x" I have no idea what I was thinking, reflecting on me from the past is hilarious because I don't understand the logic in my though processes. No point in dragging it back out to mention I liked her as a friend anyway, I'm just leaving. She's too much drama.
LOL shoulda pulled out the "sort out your feelings" text way earlier. Yeah just don't hit her up for a long time. Then one day when you're feeling down, fvck and chuck!

I have a related story, happened within the confines of my journal but I never wrote about it cause this girl is UGLY.

She lives like 3 houses down from me, but I had never really talked to her in my life. She chatted me on facebook, I chatted back, gave her my number. At first she waited a day to text me. I was like "Cool, she understands basic boundaries, this could be a fun, flirty interaction."

She started texting me EVERY DAY. Repeatedly, if I wouldn't respond. So I called her annoying, told her I had options and didn't need her, and that I didn't want to talk to her anymore. She made the fight incredibly dramatic.

Well, she hit me up several times to try to figure out what I meant. I told her that I was improving myself socially, and I could explain to her basically what she would need to do to get a decent guy.

She uses that to try to make me listen to her problems, obviously, so I tell her to shut the fvck up and learn. Obviously she couldn't handle rough treatment for very long so she made it dramatic. So that's when I told her I would only wanna be FWB anyway. I said I wouldn't fight without seeing her in person cause texts don't mean sh!t.

Then one day I was outside playing basketball and saw her walking home from school, so I waved. She just looked at me. I go back inside, and get a call from her, and she's like "So I guess you don't want to talk then?"

We ended up standing in the street talking, I laugh and joke and she tries to explain why she hates me. Kino'd, hugged and jokingly slapped her cause she wouldn't slap me. She stressed that she "wasn't the type of girl" that would have a hook-up-only relationship. Sooo I stopped talking to her :)

Saw her for the first time again yesterday, walking home from school. She waved, I didn't wave back.

It's like a fun experiment to see if I can be such a **** that eventually her self-esteem breaks and I get a free fvck.

Sounds much more evil now that I say it.
 

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@ Learning: Yeah, that is the except same scenario.

She tried again. I cbf so I've ignored her since the 24th. It's the 26th today, AKA AUSTRALIA DAY

So yeah. No parties in this little town. I haven't had much chance to do the approaches. I have work all weekend. Yay me. I'll try for beach on monday and blitz the show.

I've done one. It was a cute cashier so I already knew her name, but it was our first convo so I started off with that and played it off as a joke. Actually fairly funny interaction. I say "I'm well into apples." She's like "Thats good. An apple a day keeps the doctor away." I reply "No, that's something else. Yeah, it's carrots. Definitely carrots."

Ever wonder what my life is like?
Here you go:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qORYO0atB6g
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AWGqoCNbsvM&ob=av2e

There's always something else.
 
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