ive become a halo nerd that sits at home and watches porn [Vice's Journal]

[Thundernuts]

you make beating off sound like some kind of sin you know that.

Look man, your sitting here talking about getting rich and all that but your upset because you can't get a girl. How the Hell are you gonna make it in a competitive market when you can't communicate with women.

Women are not the hardest thing to figure out because you don't have to figure them out. Ever heard the story of the genie on the beach?

Man is stuck on an island. He walks on the beach and finds a genie in a bottle. He rubs bottle three times and Genie comes out.

Genie- Greeting. I am here to grant your wish
Man- Isn't it supposed to be three wishes
Genie- Three wishes are too expensive. One wish.

Man sits there and thinks, then he gets it.

Man- I want a bridge built from this island all the way to the mainland.
Genie- Too expensive, remember i only am giving one wish because of the economy.

So the man sits and thinks.

Man- I wish to understand women, why they do what they do, what there are thinking.

The Genie sits and looks at him.
Genie- So lets get started on that bridge.

None of us are ever gonna fully understand women, and don't believe all that **** DeAngelo says, that guy is full of crap on how he learned what he knows.

 

[decadentdestruction]

good thread, I need to get on the ball with my life also . may I recommend heavy hitters magazine , try and pick one , the people on there inspire me everyday to be a better person , its pretty much rags to riches story's and they photograph their homes, and cars , and briefly write about how they achieved what they got .

 

[Vice]

you make beating off sound like some kind of sin you know that.

It utterly destroys my confidence, energy levels, and ambition. I do better without it. My struggle is with instant gratification and self control. My life would be TEN TIMES better when I get this area of my life under control.

good thread, I need to get on the ball with my life also . may I recommend heavy hitters magazine , try and pick one , the people on there inspire me everyday to be a better person , its pretty much rags to riches story's and they photograph their homes, and cars , and briefly write about how they achieved what they got .

Thanks for the tip dude. I can't view it because of the web protection I set up, but once I feel I can trust myself without it, I'll take a look. I found some cool stuff on YouTube from them. A little materialistic and flashy for my own taste, but everyone's entitled to do what they want with their money.

I'll probably sell these dudes their house/car, then buy it back when they run out of money from spending it foolishly, and then sell it to the next fool. Rinse & repeat.

Did about 500 pushups today before 12pm, looks like I won't have to spend more time at the gym .

 

[Thundernuts]

It sounds like your trying to pin your flaws on masturbation.

Your sitting here telling us your doing 500 pushups and everything but if your really doing this then you already have no problem with self control. The hardest part of it is resisting the temptation when its right in front of you.

Believe and you shall become, i mean i feel really weird trying to help a guy who is having trouble beating his meat, but you just got take what you learn and apply it to the real world. So what you jerk off, all guys do it and ALOT of guys have a problem doing it too much, it's only gonna hinder you as long as you let it.

 

[Vice]

It sounds like your trying to pin your flaws on masturbation.

Your sitting here telling us your doing 500 pushups and everything but if your really doing this then you already have no problem with self control. The hardest part of it is resisting the temptation when its right in front of you.

Believe and you shall become, i mean i feel really weird trying to help a guy who is having trouble beating his meat, but you just got take what you learn and apply it to the real world. So what you jerk off, all guys do it and ALOT of guys have a problem doing it too much, it's only gonna hinder you as long as you let it.

I am pinning my flaws on it.

The 500 pushups aren't something I did on my own free will, it was part of the personal training program I'm going through right now.

But hey man, I'm glad that you're taking the time to help me out here.

The trouble with masturbation, at least for me, is that it affects my body and brain chemistry in a negative way. It affects me so much that it's better if I just don't do it, and it's a habit that I'm having trouble breaking.

As for the video games, I've stopped playing them as frequently (the ones I do play aren't online, so I only spend about an hour or less playing).

I haven't had an energy drink or caffeine since I started this thread, and I've been eating healthier. Raw broccoli really amplifies my energy levels, even though I can barely stand eating the stuff. Something I'm going to force myself to do until it becomes a habit, and until I enjoy it. I'm still buying chips, but I'm going to replace them with peanuts. good for testosterone.

planning on going to some yoga tonight, and then sarging at another nearby college. time to start doing what I've found I do best: cold approaching

 

[Zarky]

None of us are ever gonna fully understand women

kind of a nonsensical statement in that all women aren't alike. There is not one all-encompassing female mind, there are 3.5 billion chicks in the world and each is slightly or largely different.

You could just as easily argue that "none of us is ever gonna fully understand his fellow man." Every mind is different.

 

[decadentdestruction]

It utterly destroys my confidence, energy levels, and ambition. I do better without it. My struggle is with instant gratification and self control. My life would be TEN TIMES better when I get this area of my life under control.



Thanks for the tip dude. I can't view it because of the web protection I set up, but once I feel I can trust myself without it, I'll take a look. I found some cool stuff on YouTube from them. A little materialistic and flashy for my own taste, but everyone's entitled to do what they want with their money.

I'll probably sell these dudes their house/car, then buy it back when they run out of money from spending it foolishly, and then sell it to the next fool. Rinse & repeat.

Did about 500 pushups today before 12pm, looks like I won't have to spend more time at the gym .

yeah kinda flashy stuff , but hey its good to see more people on here post their goals, and what they want , you got a good self sacrifice going , I am slowly following , I cut my facebook usage , started to read the books I had put on hold , because I was going online or just sitting on my ass watching tv , I am going to buy a book by napoleon hill, good author . , never knew about him till I started reading his quotes ,
I know dudes that are on that call of duty **** , I know about the guys that spend like 2000 grand on their **** .

when they invite me over , its like a sausage party , bunch of dudes , ranting about who shot who, these are guys who use to have the best party's in town, girls everywhere , now gamer freaks, with no females over , I use go to their pads just to try and spit game, not I only go to sit on a couch . in fact I rarely go now , even if they throw a small get together , nobody shows up , I always ask for a head count and girl /guy ratio , and its always dudes , no chicks.

I got a bachelors degree , I don't brag about it , but since the job market is bad , I work at a photography store , so I am learning more about photography , we have classes every weekend so I am going to be the teachers backup teach , I get to learn professional photography for free , and I get paid . so I am looking forward to that , I am hoping I can turn it into a business later for myself, and teach people the art as well as shoot events , I own a decent SLr camera already but I need more lenses .

chase ya dreams man , I am doing it little bit at a time .

and of course , keep sarging , i haven't done it in a few months , I need to start again . best of luck to ya .

 

[Vice]

yeah kinda flashy stuff , but hey its good to see more people on here post their goals, and what they want , you got a good self sacrifice going , I am slowly following , I cut my facebook usage , started to read the books I had put on hold , because I was going online or just sitting on my ass watching tv , I am going to buy a book by napoleon hill, good author . , never knew about him till I started reading his quotes ,
I know dudes that are on that call of duty **** , I know about the guys that spend like 2000 grand on their **** .

when they invite me over , its like a sausage party , bunch of dudes , ranting about who shot who, these are guys who use to have the best party's in town, girls everywhere , now gamer freaks, with no females over , I use go to their pads just to try and spit game, not I only go to sit on a couch . in fact I rarely go now , even if they throw a small get together , nobody shows up , I always ask for a head count and girl /guy ratio , and its always dudes , no chicks.

I got a bachelors degree , I don't brag about it , but since the job market is bad , I work at a photography store , so I am learning more about photography , we have classes every weekend so I am going to be the teachers backup teach , I get to learn professional photography for free , and I get paid . so I am looking forward to that , I am hoping I can turn it into a business later for myself, and teach people the art as well as shoot events , I own a decent SLr camera already but I need more lenses .

chase ya dreams man , I am doing it little bit at a time .

and of course , keep sarging , i haven't done it in a few months , I need to start again . best of luck to ya .

Yeah man, here in school all I ever hear dudes talking about is call of duty this call of duty that. I'll ask dudes what they did that weekend and most if the time it's call of duty related, or staying at home related.

Photography is something I want to get into. Once I get my business running I'll be able to pursue that. I would love to photograph beautiful women and get paid for it. Hell, I could even meet a few girls and start up a few porn sites using the experience and knowledge I'll get from my first few ventures, as well as experience from cold approaches, etc.

Speaking of porn sites, I find if fascinating that some of the best ways to make money is to exploit the weakness of the common man. I would venture to guess that quite a few men that look at porn probably don't have the balls it takes to be successful with women, and go out and buy a fleshlight ($) and subscribe to a porn site ($) and have their fun. There's also penis enlargement, weight loss, baldness remedies, etc.

And sports. There's nothing wrong with sports, but I had this idea a few months ago that surfaced from the depths of my unconscious mind that sports distract the population from seeing what is going on in society. Ever watch Gladiator? How the new emperor set up sporting events that cost the empire great amounts of resources, and put the veil over the public's eyes? Ever see Alexander, where a philosopher tells young Alexander that "such stories are for the common people"?

And what about people's shortening attention spans? Clips on ESPN are getting shorter and shorter, and there's some kind of robot sh*t in between every clip (like the inside of some kind of reactor or something). I feel like I had ADD from literally just 5 minutes of watching that.

I haven't sarged YET. I've had at least three opportunities come up for me in the past week. It's too bad I didn't capitalize on them, but the next one won't be so lucky. I'll be ready. And hopefully I'll get out of my shell and get into "beast mode" after just one cold approach, like I usually do.

Still haven't sold my Xbox 360. It's sitting in the car, waiting to be transferred to some poor unfortunate soul, like some kind of virus.

 

[J. Darko]

I'm following this. I'm quitting the addicting life wasters as well.

 

[Vice]

Day 3 no MB... I've spent the last three days sleeping as much as I could. Now I alternate between being tired and being energetic.

Haven't had ANY soda or energy drinks still (since the 10th!). It's saved me money! I still buy hot chocolate or whatever at Starbucks, but I believe that's much better than soda/energy drinks. Plus being at a cafe naturally sets me up with opportunities to meet girls.

I've been finding chinks in the armor of my web protection, I've been looking at porn, but I've had the self-control to not ejaculate. I've been patching these sites as I find them.

I've started going to yoga, it's really helping me with my concentration , motivation, and keeping a general sense of calm. What do you know; it's also a great way to meet girls!

I've been getting traces and twinges of "god mode", where I am just in control of reality and myself.

Today after I took a nap, the strangest thing happened to me. I stepped outside to get some food, and as I was walking down the sidewalk, I looked up a a tree that was going through its fall colors. The sunlight filled every leaf with intense light, and the leaves were a bright, full yellow. I saw the sky through the tree, and the sky was a radiant neon purple color contrasted by the bright yellow leaves, and I was momentarily awestruck by this sudden burst of color.

I've been going through David DeAngelo's Man Transformation program, which is a MASSIVE video set, and it's AWESOME.

I STILL need to get a calling service set up to handle my advertising for my business, as well as advertisements set up. But I can't set up the advertisements without the phone number... As they say, you can only see the next one or two steps up in the staircase of life.

I'm not really big on Halloween, I'm 20, and there's not that many places I can go anyway. I'd rather stay at home this weekend and work on myself and my business, than deal with Halloween this year. Next year I'll be 21, and I'll be Lt. Dangle from Reno 911. With the patches and gun and handcuffs and everything.

Still playing Halo 1. I've been engrossed with the game, it's so deep. But I'm not spending as much time with it as I did with Halo: Reach because I don't play online. I usually play one level and move on to something else. I'm glad that I never got into Call of Duty, that seems to be a HUGE addiction for other guys. Still haven't sold my Xbox 360, I dropped the price and I still haven't got any calls.

 

[decadentdestruction]

my lil update vice .

been busy with work , lately , kinda happy I am going to be moving to a new house in a new city , its going to be a lil longer drive for work , but I don't care . I am seeing more of my friends getting into Relationships,it kinda bums me out because I am stuck petty much by myself, but I don't care , these guys were all my supposed wing men and they sucked honestly , so I am glad they got chicks, their gf's are under my radar, while I am out there trying to get 8, 9, 10, and beyond their stuck with 12345's , and they hate on me for having friendly conversations with their gf's , I have a job, I have an education , I have a car , and I do interesting stuff, I have hobby's .

all they do is nag , complain life sucks , and pass that on their gf's , so I have became a bit of a dr. phil to their gf's . they try to make passes at me but I refuse . cuz their my friends .


I have been wanting to practice yoga for a while, for stress relief, but with work I never have time, is it really as relaxing as they say it is ?

btw, have you ever read napoleon hill, ?

I picked up his book think and grow rich , just got done with chapter 1 .

I strongly recommend it .

 

[Thundernuts]

vice,

Look man, you are doing great since the first time i posted on here, meeting girls (usually) doesn't require a complete 180 from where your life was before. Keep up the yoga, do whatever you want in your spare time.

Seriously, don't be afraid to just hello to a female or two, don't get into long convos with them but it never hurts to just drop a few words.

Good luck man,

 

[Vice]

I have been wanting to practice yoga for a while, for stress relief, but with work I never have time, is it really as relaxing as they say it is ?

Yeah dude, it really is. Go to Google maps and search for a yoga place near a university or high end business area. It's only $10 and they usually give you a week free after that $10. It's a good workout, too. And the girls are beautiful and open YOU.

I've met only one girl so far at yoga, just a quick chat, but she opened me, and this was on my VERY FIRST DAY.

vice,

Look man, you are doing great since the first time i posted on here, meeting girls (usually) doesn't require a complete 180 from where your life was before. Keep up the yoga, do whatever you want in your spare time.

Seriously, don't be afraid to just hello to a female or two, don't get into long convos with them but it never hurts to just drop a few words.

Good luck man,

Yeah, I'm still having trouble meeting girls. David DeAngelo says that it's the most intense part of dealing with women. And it is. And I've been focusing the most on totally cold approaches, which are supposedly the hardest. All it takes is one or two for me to get the ball rolling, but I have a really hard time pushing myself past that groove. I can casually strike up a conversation with girls without much of a problem, but it's difficult to get into situations where I can consistently do that.

I just need to go out there and start DOING it, damn it.

About one fifth of the way through Man Transformation. I've been learning to allow my emotions to go through me instead of repressing them, as well as how to relate to women better. Along with the yoga, it's really helped me calm down and stop being selectively racist (whenever it's convenient) and just a "hater" in general. I've chilled out a bit.

I've realize how important it is to have a good social network and connections. And how good it feels. No more being "Mr. Mysterious Untouchable Elitist Guy".

Day 0 no MB. Went 4 days without it, finally caved in. I made it through a weekend though, that hasn't happened in a while. Still cruising the internet for girly pictures, but it's happening much less frequently.

I need to get more friends. More unconditional friends. Or at least acquaintances, and become friends with people that I can learn from, i.e. the real estate investors that I meet with twice a month.

I had a Sierra Mist today, and two cheeseburgers and fries. It's the last day of the month, I figure it's okay to eat like sh*t at least once a month. I didn't really enjoy it that much though. Same with the jerking off, and the same with looking at girly pictures. It felt more like a habit.

Had my first honor guard detail last friday. I wasn't too nervous because it was a simple ceremony. My movements were too quick at first, but I slowed down and everything else went fine. My heart started to thump hard when I was in front of everyone, it felt like it was going to leap out of my throat. It was pretty cool walking around the officer's club with a rifle, some people gave me freaked out looks until they realize what I was.

 

[Tesl]

I am pinning my flaws on it.

I don't think you should, its a pretty natural thing. The only change I've made is being sure not to right before going out, as obviously that kills any immediate drive to meet new girls (which I'd regret later).

 

[decadentdestruction]

Yeah dude, it really is. Go to Google maps and search for a yoga place near a university or high end business area. It's only $10 and they usually give you a week free after that $10. It's a good workout, too. And the girls are beautiful and open YOU.

I've met only one girl so far at yoga, just a quick chat, but she opened me, and this was on my VERY FIRST DAY.



Yeah, I'm still having trouble meeting girls. David DeAngelo says that it's the most intense part of dealing with women. And it is. And I've been focusing the most on totally cold approaches, which are supposedly the hardest. All it takes is one or two for me to get the ball rolling, but I have a really hard time pushing myself past that groove. I can casually strike up a conversation with girls without much of a problem, but it's difficult to get into situations where I can consistently do that.

I just need to go out there and start DOING it, damn it.

About one fifth of the way through Man Transformation. I've been learning to allow my emotions to go through me instead of repressing them, as well as how to relate to women better. Along with the yoga, it's really helped me calm down and stop being selectively racist (whenever it's convenient) and just a "hater" in general. I've chilled out a bit.

I've realize how important it is to have a good social network and connections. And how good it feels. No more being "Mr. Mysterious Untouchable Elitist Guy".

Day 0 no MB. Went 4 days without it, finally caved in. I made it through a weekend though, that hasn't happened in a while. Still cruising the internet for girly pictures, but it's happening much less frequently.

I need to get more friends. More unconditional friends. Or at least acquaintances, and become friends with people that I can learn from, i.e. the real estate investors that I meet with twice a month.

I had a Sierra Mist today, and two cheeseburgers and fries. It's the last day of the month, I figure it's okay to eat like sh*t at least once a month. I didn't really enjoy it that much though. Same with the jerking off, and the same with looking at girly pictures. It felt more like a habit.

Had my first honor guard detail last friday. I wasn't too nervous because it was a simple ceremony. My movements were too quick at first, but I slowed down and everything else went fine. My heart started to thump hard when I was in front of everyone, it felt like it was going to leap out of my throat. It was pretty cool walking around the officer's club with a rifle, some people gave me freaked out looks until they realize what I was.

If any girl that knows me and is reading this, well, you've got the dirt on me. But you would have NEVER met me had I not gone through all of this, and that would be a terrible thing, for both of us. And tell me what you think about all this too, don't hide it from me, it's an opportunity for both of us to grow.

I thought it was more than that , I was expecting yoga to be like karate lessons , and you had to do a monthly deposit with a high amount .
but I wlll look up a center. thanks for the 411

 

[Vice]

I can confidently say that I don't have much interest in carbonated drinks anymore. The last one I had was a Sierra Mist this last Sunday, and I didn't enjoy it that much anyway.

For dinner I've replaced sweets with fruit. I've noticed an increased sensitivity to processed sugar, it's too sweet for me now. I've also noticed that I eat less meat and more vegetables on most days. But that's only because I have a selection at the cafeteria, and I can make that decision out of three or four main options. When I get my own place and therefore have to cook for myself, I'll be eating the same thing every day. Which will probably be chicken breast with steamed/boiled broccli and buckwheat. Healthy and bland, it'll make me appreciate going out to eat.

I'm still struggling with MB. I got to day 4 before caving in, but the binge afterwards was much milder than before. I've noticed that the day after I do it, I have to sleep ALL DAY to recoup, effectively wasting my time and killing opportunities.

And after a few days of not MBing, sometimes I have trouble falling asleep, and I get withdrawal symptoms. But it's getting easier and easier to go for longer periods of time without doing it. I just need to learn to manage my sexual drive when it gets revved up from anything as simple as seeing a girl with no bra on, or the hourglass shape of a pretty girl.

Video games don't interest me that much anymore either, I feel like I'm wasting time when I play them. I still haven't sold that damn xbox!

Cleaned up my room a little bit, added some vanilla wall air fresheners, my room now smells good.

I opened an account with Scottrade to invest in silver, instead of keeping it in the bank and letting them loan my money out at 10% while only giving me minimal interest.

Tomorrow I have class, so I'll try to approach a girl or two that I find attractive.

I've decided to not put up any kind of persona or anything, and just be myself, whoever that is.

On DVD 8 out of 20 in Man Transformation, the stuff is blowing my mind and changing my behavior.

My life has definitely taken a turn for the better, and I'm very happy that it has. All I need to do is make a few tweaks here and there, and it'll just take off on its own.

I need to focus better though, sometimes I have a hard time concentrating at work. Same with school.

 

[Vice]

UPDATE

Got a girlfriend on Thanksgiving. Great stuff. Finished Man Transformation a few days ago, now on DVD 2 of Become Mr. Right. Great stuff, I've applied alot of stuff from Man Transformation and I'm GETTING RESULTS.

Started to perfect my morning routine, waking up at 0500 instead of 0620 and rushing to get ready for work.

Got to a point where I was no longer interested in porn very briefly thanks to the girlfriend, but slipped and binged for a few days. Getting better though.

Still drinking energy drinks, but less often now. Going cold turkey as of today (they're not worth drinking both financially and for my health).

Planning on taking surfing and flying lessons over the summer. I'll be learning real estate wholesaling until summer starts, I'm starting a part-time business BEFORE summer starts. Planning on buying either a duplex or multiplex with no down payment, and renting the other units out. It's like getting a raise!

 

[JustLurk]

It was definitely nice to relax with a video game after school or work, but these days it's cooler to relax with my guitar and a nice beer. Plus, think of how cool it'll be teaching your friends or your future kids how to play songs. 30 years from now, no one will care about your Halo skills, but developing a hobby and a passion will be something people talk about long after you're dead.

+1 Great advice.

 

[lightofhatred]

why not do both? keep your Xbox man; you'll regret selling it man.

I was all "I NEED A LIFE BYE XBOX" and now after getting a good social life I went in and got another Xbox "/
I still have a decent life but we all need a few games on Halo here and there. No point giving up what you love doing.

 

[Pierce]

How much are you selling the Xbox and what kind. I'm interested.