Die Hard
Master Don Juan
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I just need to vent, guys.
It's a shame, it's all such a shame... When you can't get what you want, when you're so far removed from things that you can only dream about them, it's all so special. Then, once you've put the effort in and finally are able to acquire those things, it's not that special at all!
Blegh! Women are boring... Sex is just the same as jerking off... And sharing a mutual feeling of acceptance, intimacy and affection is not all that special either...
Just spent two days with a girl I've been seeing for a while. It was nice, we can be ourselves with each other, no games... Spending two days with someone and doing everything together is obviously too much for me: walking around the city, doing groceries, cooking dinner together, spending all night talking and drinking, going to bed, fvcking, cuddling, waking up together, taking a shower together, dressing up together, then doing groceries again and fixing some sh!t in her house. Just like we're a "couple" (yegh!) And a part of me likes it a lot, I like the intimacy, the sharing... But at the same time, it makes me sick to my stomach! I dunno... At one point, I was just observing her silently, while she was walking around the house naked, doing all kinds of stuff. I was there, but at the same time, I wasn't... She would say or ask something to me while she was walking around and I'd answer her so she wouldn't notice anything about me. But inside, I was constantly thinking to myself: "What the fvck am I doing here?" Later on, she asked me if I wanted to stay the coming night as well... Hell no! I made up an excuse and she was obviously disappointed but she didn't wanna show it. Then I felt sorry for her...she's a good girl, she treats me better than any girl ever has, you know?
Then once I got home, I felt sorry for myself, coz I suddenly felt kinda.................alone
I just don't know WHAT I want anymore! Once I got home from her place, I slept and went to a latin party, drinking & dancing all night long. Got attention from girls but I just couldn't care, some of them wanted to dance extremely close and passionate, rubbing themselves against me. Who gives a fvck? I feel empty inside...
ROFL, I'm sort of "doing a Squirrels" here!
Something else... I somehow got the idea to watch all three of the old Star Wars movies last week, I hadn't seen those in ten years. I remember how that stuff was special to me when I was young, but...it didn't do anything for me now. Growing up is nice, you become stronger and more capable and sh!t, but everything becomes so mundane, you know? Women, I've been terrible all my life with women. Over the last six months however, everything is finally coming together. But now that I'm having success, it just seems kinda boring to me. "Oh, here's this chick, rubbing herself against me and kissing me in my neck. SO WHAT?!"
/end rant. Thanks for reading.
It's a shame, it's all such a shame... When you can't get what you want, when you're so far removed from things that you can only dream about them, it's all so special. Then, once you've put the effort in and finally are able to acquire those things, it's not that special at all!
Blegh! Women are boring... Sex is just the same as jerking off... And sharing a mutual feeling of acceptance, intimacy and affection is not all that special either...
Just spent two days with a girl I've been seeing for a while. It was nice, we can be ourselves with each other, no games... Spending two days with someone and doing everything together is obviously too much for me: walking around the city, doing groceries, cooking dinner together, spending all night talking and drinking, going to bed, fvcking, cuddling, waking up together, taking a shower together, dressing up together, then doing groceries again and fixing some sh!t in her house. Just like we're a "couple" (yegh!) And a part of me likes it a lot, I like the intimacy, the sharing... But at the same time, it makes me sick to my stomach! I dunno... At one point, I was just observing her silently, while she was walking around the house naked, doing all kinds of stuff. I was there, but at the same time, I wasn't... She would say or ask something to me while she was walking around and I'd answer her so she wouldn't notice anything about me. But inside, I was constantly thinking to myself: "What the fvck am I doing here?" Later on, she asked me if I wanted to stay the coming night as well... Hell no! I made up an excuse and she was obviously disappointed but she didn't wanna show it. Then I felt sorry for her...she's a good girl, she treats me better than any girl ever has, you know?
Then once I got home, I felt sorry for myself, coz I suddenly felt kinda.................alone
I just don't know WHAT I want anymore! Once I got home from her place, I slept and went to a latin party, drinking & dancing all night long. Got attention from girls but I just couldn't care, some of them wanted to dance extremely close and passionate, rubbing themselves against me. Who gives a fvck? I feel empty inside...
ROFL, I'm sort of "doing a Squirrels" here!
Something else... I somehow got the idea to watch all three of the old Star Wars movies last week, I hadn't seen those in ten years. I remember how that stuff was special to me when I was young, but...it didn't do anything for me now. Growing up is nice, you become stronger and more capable and sh!t, but everything becomes so mundane, you know? Women, I've been terrible all my life with women. Over the last six months however, everything is finally coming together. But now that I'm having success, it just seems kinda boring to me. "Oh, here's this chick, rubbing herself against me and kissing me in my neck. SO WHAT?!"
/end rant. Thanks for reading.