Packers2010
Master Don Juan
I'm trying to stay positive, but in the house i am in now it's starting to become harder and harder.
yesterday, there was ants in the coffee pot and mouse poo on the grill ( i found out after i lit it and put my bread on it. and yes i did eat it i was hungry. it wasn't that bad it just smelt after it got hot.)
i just want to move out and i can't. i don't get much sleep cos i sleep on a coach, i don't have a car so i can't go out as often as i like and my mother and father are fighting all the time that there is ALWAYS tension in the air. since they are fighting, nothing gets done in the house. it always looks and feels like s****. I'm SICK of it. sick of all it! i get so worked up over it because sometimes i feel like I'm just cleaning up THEIR mess. I'm 23 now, i have my own mess to clean up! i need to be interdependent and I'm not! i feel like a looser sometimes because of this.
I'm not playing the victim card because I have a lot going for me. I am in school and i love it. I have progressed with my inner game and game in general. though I haven't had much success.
one of the other things i have noticed is i haven't had a good night out since i got that make out back in jan. for the first time in my life I felt " in state" and i think it scared me. i was so " on" i felt like i could do anything. my mind was so clear i didn't care about anything i just went for it.
i think i have a huge success barrier, becuse i haven't been able to get back into that state. i think it scares me what i am capable of. i mean. all my life i thought i was a P.O.S and now i can get a make out from a stranger in a club? i can really do that?
can you guys help me out on these issues.
yesterday, there was ants in the coffee pot and mouse poo on the grill ( i found out after i lit it and put my bread on it. and yes i did eat it i was hungry. it wasn't that bad it just smelt after it got hot.)
i just want to move out and i can't. i don't get much sleep cos i sleep on a coach, i don't have a car so i can't go out as often as i like and my mother and father are fighting all the time that there is ALWAYS tension in the air. since they are fighting, nothing gets done in the house. it always looks and feels like s****. I'm SICK of it. sick of all it! i get so worked up over it because sometimes i feel like I'm just cleaning up THEIR mess. I'm 23 now, i have my own mess to clean up! i need to be interdependent and I'm not! i feel like a looser sometimes because of this.
I'm not playing the victim card because I have a lot going for me. I am in school and i love it. I have progressed with my inner game and game in general. though I haven't had much success.
one of the other things i have noticed is i haven't had a good night out since i got that make out back in jan. for the first time in my life I felt " in state" and i think it scared me. i was so " on" i felt like i could do anything. my mind was so clear i didn't care about anything i just went for it.
i think i have a huge success barrier, becuse i haven't been able to get back into that state. i think it scares me what i am capable of. i mean. all my life i thought i was a P.O.S and now i can get a make out from a stranger in a club? i can really do that?
can you guys help me out on these issues.