Thank you for all the ones who really tried to help me...
To clarify a few things...
I don't know if I am actually going to rape somebody, but I Wasn't making any jokes about it. I know how ugly rape is, but I will be honest, at times, when I see some girls, the thought and the scenarios do play in my mind.
I have been considering seeing a psychologist, but I wonder if my condition is clinical?
Yes, I have read the DJB, trust me, I have read it over and over. At this point, I don't think my problem is knowing the stuff, it is applying it. No matter how long it has been, I jsut can't get myself to do anything and I am just so sick and tired of this behavior. Not only that, my body is going insane. Is it normal to get turned on my beer commercials? Or get horny by watching
Anjelina Jolie in Mr and Ms Smith???
REgarding the bootcamp, I have tried it several time, but never actually got over the 2nd week.
Is it actually possible to be beyong help?
Before I try the DJBC again, I think I need to stablelize my state of mind first. I will try to be serious about my work out again, to more physical activities and develop better sleeping habits.
I Truly think I am disgusting and I hate that feeling.
Vagina
PS: Is there ANYTHING else I can do? This is getting out of hand.