Wake Up Man!!
Dasani,
Manipulation is a byatch isn't it!! While you have heavy, invested feelings in this scumb of a girl, she has little, if any attachment towards you. In otherwords your on verge of getting kicked to the curb and you seem to inherently realize this at some level beneath the surface, however every time you talk to your gf she seems to give you a false sense of hope with her hollow promises.
NEVER BELIEVE WHAT A GIRL SAYS, INSTEAD WATCH WHAT SHE DOES!!
As many others have said, your getting played like a fool right now! When you get angry and frustrated she acts a little nicer(lets you play with her boobs), JUST ENOUGH TO KEEP YOU HOOKED. Once your put back into your place, she's right back to being the manipulative little ***** that she truely is. That is exactly why you keep on flip-flopping between breaking up with her and then second guessing yourself. She's got you tangled in her web of deceit. This girl has issues man, deep issues! Issues that you didn't create and you could neve fix. The longer you stay with her and her twisted reality, the longer you get suxed in to her black hole and damage your own happiness.
Think back for a moment and aside from the honeymoon period of your relationship, I want you to think about the last time you were happy with this girl.....cuz it sure seems like its been a few months of fun, followed by many more months of misery.
I also want you to sit and think about why your so scared to break-up with her. Because whether you know it or not, that's the reason you won't break up with her, your SCARED to be alone, your scared to be single and you feel like no one can make you happy like she can. But that's the whole fallacy in this relationship!! She DOESN'T make you happy she makes you sad, angry, frustrated and most of all she makes you less of a man!! Make a stand for yourself and leave this controlling, no-sex for you wrecking crew of a girl!! If you finally do break-up with her she will call non-stop and beg for you to take her back and that's where you earn your man-hood by blocking her calls and deleting every form of contact you have with her.
PS: She's definitely cheating on you, whether you want to admit it, realize it or find out, she's suxing someone else's junk and you NEED to find your dignity and self-respect and walk away from this slvt.
PIMP