This behavior reflect your side of seeking for approval on whatever you do..
Other example For instance instead of the sex just to watch her satisfied boosting your ego:
you're so hungrily seeks approval, you will happily work longer hours, take on extra tasks that aren't part of your job description, never take vacations, never ask for a raise in salary, etc. And You secretly wants your contributions to be noticed and rewarded--but fear keeps you from asking for any compensation!
When we've grown up making ourselves wrong for having any needs (one of the core tenets of codependency), it's easy to feel like it's our fault, when we feel bad in a relationship because we're not getting our needs responded to. As adults, our reflex to bury personal needs and make allowances and excuses for others, is automatic. It motivates us to keep striving in the face of any/all obstacles and odds, no matter what the cost to our own comfort, peace or well-being.
This impulse stems from archaic sensations of shame which are codified by a parent's distorted confirmation that we're defective or unlovable. Our subconscious mind presumes during childhood that if we were truly lovable, we would get far more affection and attention, and feel happy and content: It never takes into account another's inability to love yourself, or anyone else!
Lurking beneath the surface of every Caregiver's attachments is often the question; "when's it gonna be my turn?" They erroneously presume that the more they give, the more they'll eventually/some day get back--but that cannot happen, due to the type of person they've chosen to love. This issue is never resolved, because reciprocal relationships actually make him/her feel uneasy, and are summarily avoided.
That's why you keep finding someone who recreates all those sensation for your to feel needed by spending hours of giving advised to her. ask yourself what will you do if that person truly follow your suits, you will be feel empty and seeks for another person to fix . its a never ending cycle and that what brings you the this forum!
Water seeks its own level. our emotional level determines our next romantic endeavor. you have to really understand the core trauma that made the person you are now. fix ém and your next romantic partner will be a much better selections.