Behind this text, I see a smart man, a perfectly capable man that is being conformed and supressed by all the negative ideas and fascist collindrones of our times.
You need to do some things.
But before I list anything, there is one thing that must be realized and attained before you begin anything. You must stop thinking about getting so much "@ss".
First and foremost, you will stop throwing this advice back in to other people's faces. I dout that a certified psychologist could give you better adive than what has been given here.
Secondly, you will stop thinking of yourself in a negative way. It is a self-fulfilling prophecy and it is eating away at your soul. Your very essence is being consumed by itself.
Thirdly, you will work out a minimum of three times a week. This will increase your testosterone levels and make you feel better about yourself, as well as the obvious health benefits.
Fourthly, you will write down every single fault you have on a slip(hell, a binder) of paper. Every day, you will review these, add to them, and once you believe you've accumulated all your faults, you will go through and write down ways you can fix these. then you will post both here. the way that you go about fixing your problems will give us deep insight as to you as a whole, and I as well as others will be able to give much more customized and accurate advice.
Fifthly, you will take up no less than three hobbies. You will learn guitar, you will swim, you will join the football team, you will write poems. Whathaveyou. Every time, I mean EVERY TIME you start thinking negatively about yourself, you will go do one of these things.
Sixthly, you will become a regular here. You will read, read, read. you will read both bibles twice a week.
Seventhly, you will call ten random people in the phone book and pull a prank on each one of them. Now. Don't ask why, just do it.
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Now, for what you really need. Destructive criticism:
Your life sucks ****.
It does. You've admitted it. You sit at home day in and day out, your life is a morbid reincantation of filtered hate and refiltered infatuation with women that wouldn't fvck you if they were in a Middle-Eastern torture camp.
You will change this.
You must move. Move now. You must escape all restraints. Move ten thousand miles if need be, but you have to get away from those that bind you. you are not Liepar Destin(bound by fate), and you must get away from those that consider you to be a loser.
If you don't stop being so negative, and you won't unless you really want to change, then no change shall occur. You will rot. you will be a fourty year-old virgin who finds an equally pathetic woman who settles for you, marries you and cheats on you bi-weekly. You will hear her moans from the other room as she gets off on some other guy's d!ck because you're too much of a wuss to kick that guy out of your house, and her too for that matter.
You, and only you, can change. Humans have the most evolved ability to adapt of any animal on this wretched hellhole of a planet. you can adapt. You must evolve. you need women, you must reproduce, and therefore, must adapt to your surrondings.
The amount of information in this post is insurrmountable, and I hope I have just added a largely appreciated and valued piece to it.
Only you can change your life..only you.