how i do i control myself from hurting her?

[Mahmudul Hasan]

whenever we have arguments, I become too toxic and start saying things without even thinking. For example yesterday we had an argument and I became angry so I said " You don't even know who your real father is so how can you know my love?". She doesn't have much memory of her biological father so she became depressed when I said that. This is not even the first time I said some personal stuffs to hurt her. Yesterday she did not eat the whole day and she cried like a little kid, water was coming out of her nose when she was crying. I feel like I am too toxic and she deserves better but at the same time we can't live without each other.

 

[BackInTheGame78]

You can act like an adult and choose to grow up.

 

[Mahmudul Hasan]

You can act like an adult and choose to grow up.

when I am angry or sad, My mouth literally has no limit and I say anything that comes to my mind without thinking

 

[Ricky]

we all mistakes, but just remember with women, you can say the wrong thing to them and they will never forgive you for it. They always remember. I think it'd be a curse to live that way, but its the way women are wired.

 

[The Duke]

Please get pretty professional counseling.

 

[BackInTheGame78]

when I am angry or sad, My mouth literally has no limit and I say anything that comes to my mind without thinking

You have to grow up sometime.

 

[AmsterdamAssassin]

when I am angry or sad, My mouth literally has no limit and I say anything that comes to my mind without thinking

That's one of the differences between mature and immature. The mature man thinks about the consequences of what he might say, especially in an emotional state.

This is why I advise students to study the martial art principle of Fudōshin, the state of imperturbability or equanimity.

 

[Sega Genesis]

Just my very unprofessional opinion but it sounds like you're carrying around a lot of hurt, pain and FEAR and when you argue, you somehow feel threatened so you lash out in hurtful ways.

Have you ever heard of the "fight or flight" response when confronted with danger or perceived danger?

In your case, emotional danger specifically when you argue?

In romantic relationships, some people choose "flight" (leave the situation, end the relationship or simply distance themselves). Others like you choose "fight" (lash out in extremely hurtful ways).

Some choose a little of both.

In any event if you want this toxic pattern to end then you need to explore where this internal pain and fear stem from either on your own by reading relevant books etc or with the help of a qualified therapist.

It can be a long tough road navigating this *, good luck.

 

[Westminster]

whenever we have arguments, I become too toxic and start saying things without even thinking. For example yesterday we had an argument and I became angry so I said " You don't even know who your real father is so how can you know my love?". She doesn't have much memory of her biological father so she became depressed when I said that. This is not even the first time I said some personal stuffs to hurt her. Yesterday she did not eat the whole day and she cried like a little kid, water was coming out of her nose when she was crying. I feel like I am too toxic and she deserves better but at the same time we can't live without each other.

You're being a bully, just snap out of it. You're a man, you should be above this sort of behaviour.

 

[Divorced w 3]

whenever we have arguments, I become too toxic and start saying things without even thinking. For example yesterday we had an argument and I became angry so I said " You don't even know who your real father is so how can you know my love?". She doesn't have much memory of her biological father so she became depressed when I said that. This is not even the first time I said some personal stuffs to hurt her. Yesterday she did not eat the whole day and she cried like a little kid, water was coming out of her nose when she was crying. I feel like I am too toxic and she deserves better but at the same time we can't live without each other.

Have you been screened for a mental illness, like bipolar? I mean this sincerely. You may not have the ability right now to throttle it back. That doesn’t excuse you from trying to figure the problem out. Be careful who and where you seek advice on this - some of these people on here are legitimately helping you, some of them are on their third, fourth iteration of their personas here, I would be super cautious- anyone telling you to get therapy is good - anyone trying to explain and give unprofessional advice, ask them to post their mental health credentials

 

[BPH]

whenever we have arguments, I become too toxic and start saying things without even thinking. For example yesterday we had an argument and I became angry so I said " You don't even know who your real father is so how can you know my love?". She doesn't have much memory of her biological father so she became depressed when I said that. This is not even the first time I said some personal stuffs to hurt her. Yesterday she did not eat the whole day and she cried like a little kid, water was coming out of her nose when she was crying. I feel like I am too toxic and she deserves better but at the same time we can't live without each other.

Well this aged like fine wine: https://www.sosuave.net/forum/threa...-just-got-a-perfect-girl.283073/#post-3135615

 

[SpartanWarrior77]

whenever we have arguments, I become too toxic and start saying things without even thinking. For example yesterday we had an argument and I became angry so I said " You don't even know who your real father is so how can you know my love?". She doesn't have much memory of her biological father so she became depressed when I said that. This is not even the first time I said some personal stuffs to hurt her. Yesterday she did not eat the whole day and she cried like a little kid, water was coming out of her nose when she was crying. I feel like I am too toxic and she deserves better but at the same time we can't live without each other.

How old are you OP? Maybe just youthful drama?

 

[BillyPilgrim]

You can act like an adult and choose to grow up.

OP is 20, as it says.

This may be relevant:

https://www.reddit.com/r/selfimprovement/comments/148ri7x

Top comment:

"Common slippery slope of self improvement is thinking you are better than everyone else and trying to tell everyonr what to do and why their way of life is wrong."