Been there.First order of business,figure that **** out,because you can’t date with it. You might get into relationships,but they will neither last nor be rewarding,and then you’ll be left with regrets,which in turn will further fuel the ****ty feeling you have about yourself,and the cycle just repeats itself,perpetuating your problem.Your profile says you’re 23.If that’s true,then you have time.More than you realize.But you are at a make or break stage where you cannot afford to waste anymore of it.If you want answers,find a purpose,dedicate yourself entirely to that purpose,it will become your true north, and everything will sort itself out.Everything else goes on the back burner for now, and that includes dating.You’re in no shape for it anyway.