Dead Eyes
Radharc said:
Can´t help but wonder if they also have BPD women in muslim countries... or if isn´t this something they do because they know society lets them get away with it?
They most definitely
do have BPD women in Muslim countries. I just escaped out of a 5 year, long-distance relationship with a black hole that sucked almost everything out of me until I managed to extract at the last second. She was a virgin and had always said that she was keeping that for marriage, which I respected. The sex was mindblowing but, erm, "backdoor" because of the virginity issue. By my count she went out with about 17 guys in the five years, but *only just* managed to convince me they were only friends (emotional tampons as someone else here puts it). She said they were "rubbish". I knew at some stage that would change.
A while back she casually informed me she had kissed a guy and gone a bit further than that. Blamed me for not being around when she was vulnerable, so it was my fault. Said she was easy prey "and still is". Recently she tells me she has decided
not in fact to keep her virginity for marriage after all, but rather to go and f*ck some random stranger in a bar "to get it over with". My obvious response was to ask why not me, but this came as a shocking suggestion to her. Apparently, she said, we make each other unhappy, so there was no way I was going to get selected for defloration duty. Also, when I mentioned the five years I had been emotionally attached to her, she dismissed it saying "it was nowhere near five years." (It was actually, and I know this because in the mirroring beginning she used to get quite heated if one forgot the exact date on which we met.)
Still, she said, she wants to remain friends with me (since I obviously fulfil some supply of inventory that she needs). However, our friendship must be on her terms. In other words, I can't ask about her dates, relationships, virginity, sex life or anything else because this is personal and none of my business.
I even suspect she may have lost her virginity before anyway, because when I said I would probably feel less concerned by it when she eventually gave me the information that it was gone, she said "well in that case I give it to, I have lost it." But then of course she backtracked to saying she still had it. But I saw a tell.
With all of this information put before me in the space of a few days, I naturally asked a few questions by text. These were ignored by means of the usual silent treatment and she said I was harassing her.
Incidentally, her timing was spot on (for her) because she happened to have a visit lined up within the next few days to the same guy she had found earlier in the year - my replacement for emotional leeching. Obviously, having engineered a catastrophic break-up with me she would now feel quite within her rights to f*ck this guy and presumably many others into the history books. It struck me as somewhat odd though, that the poor f*cker targeted by her for the next round of misery is, like me, also a foreigner and not muslim, so her excuses about doing this because of the body clock ticking or needing to get married is just bullsh*t. But of course, she told me she "needs this."
All of the above is in the context of our having spent the previous five years talking about love, marriage, babies and conversion to Islam on my part, which obviously I resisted.
Dead eyes.
