i don't know i just can't seem to cope with my loneliness these days. it can't be possible that a man has to deal with having no sex for 4 years. this **** makes my desperation at an all new high. every girl I meet I just can't be satisfied, or I hold it off until I'm not busy. i think I can control every aspect of it. is it really that hard to get a little love? the biggest slut who seems so innocent in nature can create so much of a pain in me and the most beautiful women seem like i have to wait for a miracle to happen. religion tells me that my dreams will come true, friends encourage me to improve my physical strength, and family is a distant know-it-all. i know some people have it worse but my efforts don't yield to too many results. i'm dabbling in the lake of self-pity, i know, but it's really not too bad. i'm sure some of you can feel the same way at times. people like me surely want to see a change.