UNORGANIZED RANT TIME FOR KK
this is one of the best threads i've read on this board, so many awesome ideas, especially from q-unit, javier, pimpday1, also kk himself.
but wow... this has really changed me. This guy (kk) has explained everything I hate about my group, my area, etc. The only difference between his dilema and mine is I have hatred where he has anxiety... but, the problem still remains.
My area is so much worse than his, so much worse than what is on tv with bullshyt shows like laguna beach and the OC. 10 times more fake, and 10 times harder to succeed in popularity wise. I say F*CK YOU to every single person who is involved with this fake bullshyt. You can see it with my expression, my attitude, basically the "i'm better than you, tell me different, dare you" attitude I show to all of these people. I have an ebay business, I am getting into club promoting, I sell all kinds of products (LEGAL!! I hate drug dealers, they should be shot), I know hard hitters from New York, I have friends that are cops, one friend who just got back from Iraq killing hadjis, I am also helping organize a gigantic trance event that is going to be at Fedex field or ravens stadium. Basically, I am trying to prove myself saying I can succeed and at the same time say F*CK YOU to the world and this group I hate so much. I drive a jaguar, I know a lot of people that share my same hatred, share my same idea, my same dream, my same goal. All want to be powerful and squash the fake competition. It will happen, we will win, so KK, do not be anxious about these f*cks, they are garbage, and will be get theirs. (I live in montgomery county maryland, which is surrounded by the most horribly fake cities in the delmarva area: georgetown, bethesda, potomac, falls church, etc.) You want to know about fake people all grouping together in a clusterf*ck of bad-mouthing, one-uping, and "trumping"? Go to these places, open your eyes, and marvel at what we have become. Don't get me wrong, i'm not trying to say i'm not full of garbage also, because I am to some extent, but not as bad as these people.
I don't know if I want to say I hate people now, or if I want to laugh at stupidity in our species. I feel like we've slipped as a group, like we are not as good as the people before us in time. I hate this generation, I hate my generation. At least i'm not the only one that sees this, that gives me some comfort.
KK, try taking this from a different angle. There is a possibility that your anxiety is misplaced. Maybe it is not that you are down by the fact that lesser males are getting all the girls, driving the fast cars, blasting music, cut like arnold, gelled hair and striped shirts (Guidos)... but maybe you're down on how stupid our species has gotten. Maybe your anxiety is not about your ability to compete with retards, but about how low people have gotten.
Am I the only one who feels like a lacrosse player playing table tennis? I think kk does to a certain extent. We are so much better than these people and trying to play their games is not in us because we are not them. We can play with it and try and be like them, but its not legit, its not real. It starts out fine, then gets bad when they realize you're not really like them, you're not fake. Hopefully at this point you haven't lost your power with them, because it will go downhill. It is like these people (the ones who are living the "fast life") don't get how life works, what life is about, and just f*ck their life away (literally) and put stuff up their nose to compensate. Sorry to rant on, but this has seriously hit a note in me. I fu*king hate people. It is like I enjoy the company of the 20% of the 20% of people that most would concider good. I am bitter, and determined and succeeding. Good? maybe. "shut up already mike!" possibly good advice, but I will go on with my rant.
I am sick of people putting others down out of envy. I am sick of back-stabbers. I am sick of two-faced liars. I am sick of drug dealers. I am sick of "thugs." I'll show thugs some real killers. Russian mafia, italian mafia, special forces retired killers who miss the action... uh yeah, thats the scary stuff, they had to do what they did to survive, not these "thugs" who live off of mommy and daddy and think they're hard because they're out of exchange with their parents and are beaten down by themselves ethically/morally into violence. I am sick of scared people who are malicious. I am sick of competing with losers thinking their way is the best. I am sick of feminism. I am sick of people ignoring the real truth out of sympathy for weaklings. I am sick of confrontational liberals. I am sick of people not being courteous. I am sick of men not showing respect. I am sick of woman not giving gratitude to men who show respect. I am sick of people badmouthing old people. I am sick of people not being spiritual. I am sick of a lot, and could go on for hours. Finally, i'm sick of bottling up my anger and only releasing it in the form of antagonism. I battle to not let myself drop to boredom and antagonism when confronted with the bullsh*t that is humans. I seriously hate people, but this thread has shown me one thing, some people care. Thank you everyone for trying to help this fellow dj, and thanks for reading my unorganized rant on my anger with society.
I know, I know, life is for happiness, accomplishment, and pleasure. Hopefully my mindstate will get back into cheerful mike, but its been a hard few weeks. Anyway kk, KEEP YOUR HEAD HIGH, AND F*CK THE COMPETITION. Endure man, good luck with your shrink, lol.
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