I am not worrying LOL i am past that part, i worried for 2 years, depressed, i really tough that i needed a women in my life to be happy, and now its been close to 6 weeks that i have waken up and its feels great.
I don't feel like looking its like i lost the passion to chase women, i rather use my time to do better things.
At some point in life you have been exposed too to much crap, its like life is trying to tell you something, for me i guess that its i am made to live alone, i am not made to be with someone full time.
My ex girlfriend she never loved me she told me after 9y when we broke up, she said i never really loved you (and all the signs where there, that bytch didn't give a fukk about me when i was sick with my back pain, she told me how are you gonna pay the bills, or i am not going to waste my life with an handicap like you, that bytches better have some karma coming her way.
I found my soul mate , so i am giving you 3 days to get out of the house i don't want to see you again....... that is what going out with women will bring you, they are all selfish bytches in for themselves and as soon as someone better comes along, even if they lost there house and everything they will leave you for them.......
Life is not fair for everyone, but i don't give a fukk because everything i got in life i worked for it hard, and i am proud of what i accomplished, and i did not need no bytch to get where i am at in life. Some retard hoes who does not like sex and always think about eating eating eating, always whining because i am not doing what she asks, and telling me you don't do the things i tell you to do......
So there you have it, i have a strong personality with women, i don't suck up to them, if i want to do something i do it, if i don't i don't i always had a strong character and never let any women order me around.
After selling my house a bough a small condo built a home gym, i can cook, i can clean, i can wash dishes, i can to my laundry, i can take care of my 3 cats.
And i can go out on my own. Where would a women fit in..... Last girl i had sex with was 27, after sex i wanted her to leave so bad she was so annoying with her damn life issues. Guess this is where i am at right now.