ok, so this story gets more interesting in a ****ed up turn of events.
so, this girl had only been broken up with her boyfriend for like a month maybe..she broke up with him. she said he treated her badly and she was sick of it and knew even if she went back it would only be good for awhile, then things would go back to the way they were.
now usually you can tell when a girl genuinly misses her ex boyfriend but tries to act like she doesnt. she will talk about him a lot and diss him and just talk about what a piece of **** he was..but of course she really still wants him. well, that didnt seem like the case with this girl. she would say how weird it was that she didnt miss him at all and how good it felt to finally break up for good and be done with his ****.
so anyway, i left this tidbit out originally, but the night we ****ed her ex bf had called her like 10 times through out the night. she didnt answer bc i was busy screwing her brains out.
lol. she has a bunch of missed calls from him, one from his mom, and some from his bro. the bro says that her ex is freaking out and talking about killing himself and all kinds of crazy ****. but that morning around 7 he calls again and she finally answers. i can hear the conversation and he sounds really messed up. he was in tears and was probably under the influence of something. hes crying, telling her how much he misses and loves her, and how he made the biggest mistake of his life and hes so sorry and all of that. she talks to him for awhile but basically shoots down everything he says. he asks her to meet him and she says she cant. he says he will come get her and she tells him no. she says that he just needs to get his life straightened out and how he just needs to spend time with his family and friends because he is pushing them away and becoming a different person with drug use and just being an overall piece of **** to sum it up...but she did it all in a very very kind, caring way..never getting angry or yelling at him or anything.
so...they keep talking for awhile and he asks her where shes at. she tells him my house. he interrogates her further and ends up asking her if we had sex and she just straight up tells him that we did, with me laying there next to her. i dont say anything but im thinking the whole time ya know..why the **** is she telling him all this. i actually felt bad for the guy he sounded like he just wanted to ****ing die when he heard this. they talk for a good 15 minutes, him just pleading and begging her to see him and her keep denying him and telling him he needs to focus on his family and friends and how she cant be with him and shes sorry and that he just hurt her too many times and she has to go.
so they hang up and shes right back all over me..snuggling with me and kissing my cheeks and were kissing and all that. but not hardcore or anything its the early morning and im still half asleep.
so then this dudes mom calls and she talks to her for awhile. she tells his mom pretty much what she told him. the mom gives the whole encouraging speech about how he really is a good guy but she understands why she doesnt want to be with him anymore and that they will always love each other but it might be best just to move on. she tells his mom how the guy is just like his dad, and she has seen the mom be hurt and she doesnt want to be in that situation in the long run. she then brings me up and tells his mom how she really likes me and its not fair to get me involved.
ok so after this is over she doesnt seem at all distraught, and shes just as into me as ever. she hangs out at my place until about 1030 and is still kissin and huggin on me. i take her to pick up her friend(who just met me the night before but seems to really like me) and she tells her how many times we had sex and about the whole ex bf calling and how she told him that we had sex and how much he was freaking out and all and they seem to laugh about it. she kisses me goodbye and even after shes gone keeps flirting with me by texting me that her hair smells like me and all kinds of **** like that. she ask me to go to kansas city with her and her friend and tells me we have a place to stay together.(she was talking about this all last night, but i told her i didnt know if i could)
so i didnt talk to her the rest of the day then last night around 8...what do ya know. her relationship on facebook is back together with her ex. his status is'time to be the man she deserves'..
they say you always want what you cant have, and its definitely true because the second i saw that i about **** myself i was so mad. i did nothing but i thought about her all night and most of today and its driving me ****ing crazy. i went to a buddies, got stoned, worked out and did my best not to think of her.i want her so bad now, but i havent let that get the best of me. she text me today saying"we are friends right" but i didnt reply to her. we've had no contact.
what do i do? just forget about it and find some new girls? school starts back up monday so im thinking that should help keep me preoccupied. no matter how afc it sounds, this girl is truely different from anyone ive ever had a thing with. she genuinly sweet, the type you could bring home to your parents, but she is so damn sexy...everything about her. though i have kept these feelings to myself and put me on the pedestol, not her. she has so many interests with me..i feel as though im not going to find another girl like this...and please dont tell me i will..sometimes you just know things and this is one of those things i just know, and unless your in my situation and actually know this girl you cant tell me i will find another one like her. the question now is what to make of everything.. i just dont know.
any help would be appreciated..just forget about her? feel free to rip into me about being a chump i probably need it. ****.
