Stop bumping your own threats with double posts like that, it's annoying and it makes you look desperate (though you already kinda did look desperate to me to be perfectly honest).
To answer your question:
Stop being a child and take charge of your own life. Do what YOU want and what feels good to YOU. Find a chick who can accept you for who you are. If she can't, ditch her and find a new one.
That is not to say that you shouldn't use game and just sit on your arse waiting for the perfect princess to show up. That ain't gonna happen. You need to improve yourself and improve your game. But what I'm saying is, never do stuff against your will just to please a chick, no chick is worth that.
PS: And for the love of god learn to use punctuation. I really can't understand half of the stuff you're tying because it's just endless rambling without punctuation. Sorry to sound harsh, but it had to be said.