sparky0000 said:
code3r gets it. so obvious.
don't worry, i am sure little kids will find you to be da bomb! :rock:
It's arrogance to think thats "so obvious". You and Code3R would have to know me and know me a long time to know thats "so obvious", because to me it takes arrogance to make such an assesment on someone's "insecurity" based on a couple of posts. Do i think i'm reaching my potential doin this job? Not at all and I know that. Do I have other things I'd rather do. Sort of. Are they great passions? no. I choose not to do them because of a decision I've made over a course of 3 yrs in which i actually did go back to school for something (and quit cuz i changed my mind), and I also applied and look into other schools for 3 different things. i thought my a$$ off about my career believe me. Ive though everything that Mr. Code3R said. Ive thought to myself about my level of education, intelligence, etc. and whether im chickening out or "settling".
And it's made me think and worry alot as it has for several of my friends who are in the same boat right now. And i made a decision which I weighed against other decisions very heavily. I didnt just lazily stumble on this and settle. The only profession I could see myself enjoying is being a college professor in the sciences like possibly earth science cuz im interested in that stuff.
But i carefully weighed the sacrifices id make for that against the conductor job. And it is what i think is best for me at this pt of my life. Im 25 and I live at home with my mom in a small apt. I researched alot and visited schools and talked to deans. I have a degree in computer science and very few of my credits would transer towards a a masters in science. They all told me id have to get a whole new bachelors first, then a masters, then a doctorate to teach at the college level. It would take about 6 yrs. Id have to work full time or at least a lot of part time hrs to be able to survive, and I would have no social life until im 31. I would not be able to move out till im in my early 30's. The money i have in the bank that could go towards a down pamyment on property would all go towards loans.
I chose my major when i was 18 and didnt know who i was. i ended up hating it. If i could start all over i would have went into earth science to be a college prof. But at this pt in my life, i weigh the sacrifices against the benefits. And its not enuff of a dying passion for me to sacrifice my 20's. I am a late bloomer socially, and ive only started to date girls in my early 20's. I was very shy and missed out on alot of fun in high school and early yrs of college. I have money in the bank right now and plan on putting a down payment on property very soon. I want to go out and enjoy time with friends, and meet girls. I would not be able to see the world or do anything i want until my early 30's if i wnet the route of becoming a college professor.
This is a decision i feel makes me happy, and is damm good financially.
That is why i see Coder3's response as arrogant. it's textbook psychological bs, used to describe someone he never met. the word insecure gets thrown around way to easily. You have to people to say such a thing.
I need to experience the world while im young. if i spend the next 6 yrs in school i feel ill have so many regrets in life. Ill be 35 with a wife and annoying kids and feel like i never lived and had fun. For what? so i can say oh look at me im white collar, i have such a respectable surburbanite job? who cares. I actually think trains r fun who give a rats a$$. I never said i was a train groupey but i think ill enjoy it while earning a great salary.
I have weighed it and i know its the right choice for me. it maybe wouldnt be the right choice for everyone but for me it is. The whole pt of my original post is being missed anyway. i was just simply asking if shes worth my time or not? As in, should i put up with it cuz i like her or should i have morepride than that. Thats all!
