Who cares what makes you wierd.
Issue is... your wierd.
I'll break it down for you nonetheless...
You revealed, that without it you "won't have anything left"
That right there tells me... its your shield (the ego).
Your personality is your shield in relating w. the world.
You have a shield that people percieve as an uncomftorable reaction.
Thus they title you/it, "wierd."
The main point here is... Your probably not comftorable with yourself.
Well... join the club.
One guy expresses that non-comfort as shyness, another like yourself, expresses that as "very silly foolish annoying wierd." Either way... your not living up to your true potential. This display of wierdness is just your manic energy bubbling off. This same energy is going to become your power, your strength, your light that attracts the babes. You simply just have to accept and integrate it. Become comftorable with uncomftorable feelings. No need to jump into a booger-eating entertainment session. Just process the feelings Ace.
You'll soon realize through doing this, that not only do you have SOMETHING left... you'll have EVERYTHING left. Your range will no longer be limited to the forced sharades you have to put on, due to being uncomftorable. All the energy you assume from integrating the feelings of uncomfort, will continously go towards revealing greater depth of character, power, comfort, command. This naturally will start creating the exact opposite reaction your currently creating. Like moths to a flame... you will begin to attract.
Such is the rewards of the path of the DJ.
I suggest you check out my other thread in the TIPS section.
[thread=113815]Comftorable Feeling Sexy!?[/thread]
It breaks down the exact process of inner-alchemy your looking for.
Peace'