As always appreciate the advice. But not much I can do as far as meeting new women at this point, other than through friends. As you can guess most women I meet are through school. And what exactly would you consider a "real move"? Going in for a kiss close probably wouldn't do me much good right now, seeing as how these plates are still somewhat strangers to me. It might make up for lost time with Raquel seeing as how she's already interested, but that's about it.macallik said:
Eph The World: She's Next
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June 6, 2013
Last day of school but I'm taking summer school next week, so I'm not done just yet. Should be fun. Hopefully I'll get some time to practice my game. On a high note, for once I actually talked to Christy today. Ultimately didn't ask her out because I'll see her on Sunday when color guard goes to commencement and sends the seniors off into the real world (a place a part of me longs to be). Gotta stop assuming I'll get a second chance for things. If things go good in the first chance, i wouldn't need the second.
She had her laptop with her (and almost ran me over with it earlier), and was playing a presentation she had done for some people, and I heard music so I walked over. At first I thought it was a music video since I had heard the beat before and the voice sounded familiar but once I walked over, I realized it was her using an instrumental.
So we talked for a minute when I (incorrectly) guessed the instrumental. So at this point if i do see her on Sunday, I HAVE to try to make plans in person if for nothing more than her realizing i have no problems talking to her in person.
I also confirmed a "theory" i had about her: I can get a reaction out of her if I tease/neg her (too much obviously isn't good; haven't hit that point yet) or if I have a seriously conversation with her (I'll assume light jokes are also acceptable). Anything resembling flirting sends her into ASD mode.
The game plan now is to build enough comfort to effectively flirt and/or escalate physically. If i can get her out, for now I'll let my body language do most of the talking.
Last day of school but I'm taking summer school next week, so I'm not done just yet. Should be fun. Hopefully I'll get some time to practice my game. On a high note, for once I actually talked to Christy today. Ultimately didn't ask her out because I'll see her on Sunday when color guard goes to commencement and sends the seniors off into the real world (a place a part of me longs to be). Gotta stop assuming I'll get a second chance for things. If things go good in the first chance, i wouldn't need the second.
She had her laptop with her (and almost ran me over with it earlier), and was playing a presentation she had done for some people, and I heard music so I walked over. At first I thought it was a music video since I had heard the beat before and the voice sounded familiar but once I walked over, I realized it was her using an instrumental.
So we talked for a minute when I (incorrectly) guessed the instrumental. So at this point if i do see her on Sunday, I HAVE to try to make plans in person if for nothing more than her realizing i have no problems talking to her in person.
I also confirmed a "theory" i had about her: I can get a reaction out of her if I tease/neg her (too much obviously isn't good; haven't hit that point yet) or if I have a seriously conversation with her (I'll assume light jokes are also acceptable). Anything resembling flirting sends her into ASD mode.
The game plan now is to build enough comfort to effectively flirt and/or escalate physically. If i can get her out, for now I'll let my body language do most of the talking.
You should figure out how to transition from being a stranger to getting to know them better. Talk about the things that turn a stranger into a potential boyfriend.Eph said:
http://www.sosuave.net/forum/showthread.php?t=136879
I get the whole hitting them with pencils and making eye contact thing, but these things alone won't move the process along to the next level. You are essentially building attraction and hoping that they make the move or take things to the next level. You have built up in your head that these girls like you, but you aren't taking the steps to prove it because there is a chance you could be wrong. What is more, you are afraid of being wrong because you are only used to meeting women in class and have no idea when/how you will meet new women if these ones aren't interested
Thanks, I've read that article before but a good reminder nonetheless. My biggest problem is remaining calm when talking to women. I can fake it pretty easily, but I can't actually remain calm just yet. Its funny to think I "water the seeds" sometimes without even thinking about it.
Well guess we'll see if I'm on my A game with Christy Sunday. Come to think of it, she's a prime example of "people love to talk about themselves".
Well guess we'll see if I'm on my A game with Christy Sunday. Come to think of it, she's a prime example of "people love to talk about themselves".
July 12, 2013
Been a while since I last posted, so thought I'd do a little update on how I've been doing.
On the inner-game front, I think I'm actually improving. I've noticed I'm calmer, less nervous, and just generally better when speaking. I've sort of become the guy that Raquel is interested (or possibly attracted to) in. The same guy I was pretending to be - without trying to. A little refresher: when I met Raquel, I spoke quietly, looked calm, cool, and collected on the surface. In reality, I was so nervous I wasn't being my usual self.
That was last year in August. We didn't actually start talking until earlier this year. Just a few months, and I'm still me. Just a better me. I'm more at ease when talking to people, yet still quiet. I still speak quietly, but yet louder than before. It's amazing.
I don't know if its just because I've been fed up with women for the past few weeks, and finally got to the point where I won't accept or take their $hit. Or just because I've been focusing on myself A LOT more, and learned to accept that I'm more of an introvert and that's fine. Whatever it is, I like it.
Getting back to Raquel: I figured I'd ask her out sooner or later but I'm not sure where to take her. Being a computer geek, most of my days are spent inside on my computer developing a project I've been working on, if I'm not out playing basketball or hanging out with friends. I was thinking of taking her out to see a movie I want to see, but it just seems a little too cliche and boring. :/
The other problem is something of an inner-conflict with myself. I don't actually want a relationship with her. All I want is to get laid. :crackup:
She, on the other hand, would very much favor a relationship (kind of goes back to Nismo-4's "men hold the relationship card; women hold the sex card").
Is it worth it to lead her on just for sex, and maybe a bit of a value boost? I really don't want to have to deal with her telling everyone I'm an ass, or crying, or any other $hit. Guess I still haven't swallowed the red pill whole... :/
Been a while since I last posted, so thought I'd do a little update on how I've been doing.
On the inner-game front, I think I'm actually improving. I've noticed I'm calmer, less nervous, and just generally better when speaking. I've sort of become the guy that Raquel is interested (or possibly attracted to) in. The same guy I was pretending to be - without trying to. A little refresher: when I met Raquel, I spoke quietly, looked calm, cool, and collected on the surface. In reality, I was so nervous I wasn't being my usual self.
That was last year in August. We didn't actually start talking until earlier this year. Just a few months, and I'm still me. Just a better me. I'm more at ease when talking to people, yet still quiet. I still speak quietly, but yet louder than before. It's amazing.
I don't know if its just because I've been fed up with women for the past few weeks, and finally got to the point where I won't accept or take their $hit. Or just because I've been focusing on myself A LOT more, and learned to accept that I'm more of an introvert and that's fine. Whatever it is, I like it.
Getting back to Raquel: I figured I'd ask her out sooner or later but I'm not sure where to take her. Being a computer geek, most of my days are spent inside on my computer developing a project I've been working on, if I'm not out playing basketball or hanging out with friends. I was thinking of taking her out to see a movie I want to see, but it just seems a little too cliche and boring. :/
The other problem is something of an inner-conflict with myself. I don't actually want a relationship with her. All I want is to get laid. :crackup:
She, on the other hand, would very much favor a relationship (kind of goes back to Nismo-4's "men hold the relationship card; women hold the sex card").
Is it worth it to lead her on just for sex, and maybe a bit of a value boost? I really don't want to have to deal with her telling everyone I'm an ass, or crying, or any other $hit. Guess I still haven't swallowed the red pill whole... :/
August 6th, 2013
I'll start from a few weeks back seeing as how I haven't updated this in a while. So, I'm sitting in class one day getting notorious for finishing all my work in like 5 minutes, when this girl just starts talking to me out of the blue. One convo, nothing heavy.
Just her asking me if I knew someone who went to the school. Next day, she brings a friend in and tries to get her to say hi to me. The other girl wouldn't because "she's shy", so instead Ruby - first girl - gets me to. Lol okay whatever.
Next time the class gets into a discussion on music, so Ruby asks me what I listen to. We talk about it, turns out she's into Justin Bieber...
Didn't get her number, but maybe I'll look her up on Facebook. Not my type of girl really, but she had a decent pair. Seemed really into me too.
One regret: I didn't talk to the one girl in there that I actually wanted to. Oh well missed opportunity. I won't cry over spilled milk.
Getting to today. Was at the hardware store with an uncle looking for supplies to fix the leaking toilet at my house. While we were in the checkout line, I noticed I knew the cashier. I'll call her Allie.
Ally is a recently graduate from my school. Anyway, I'm not sure what it was but she looked great today. I didn't even mind her stupid double cheek piercings.
...didn't talk to her though. :/ oh well I thought. However, me and my uncle actually forgot a piece and had to go back. On the way there I thought to myself: "I've been given a second chance. I can't mess this up. I WILL say something to her this time."
When we got to her again, she put on a smile and said, "you're back". I was ready this time. Prior experience had my flirtatious thinking on automatic. I wish I could say she laughed, I got her number, and she's texting me right now.
Unfortunately, my uncle answered before I could get a word in. Another missed opportunity. Oh well I can't blame him for my failure. In hindsight, I should have flirted with her even if she didn't hear me.
Two chances and I still blow it. Oh well at least I can say I wasn't overwhelmed by her good looks and could actually think at all.
I'll start from a few weeks back seeing as how I haven't updated this in a while. So, I'm sitting in class one day getting notorious for finishing all my work in like 5 minutes, when this girl just starts talking to me out of the blue. One convo, nothing heavy.
Just her asking me if I knew someone who went to the school. Next day, she brings a friend in and tries to get her to say hi to me. The other girl wouldn't because "she's shy", so instead Ruby - first girl - gets me to. Lol okay whatever.
Next time the class gets into a discussion on music, so Ruby asks me what I listen to. We talk about it, turns out she's into Justin Bieber...
Didn't get her number, but maybe I'll look her up on Facebook. Not my type of girl really, but she had a decent pair. Seemed really into me too.
One regret: I didn't talk to the one girl in there that I actually wanted to. Oh well missed opportunity. I won't cry over spilled milk.
Getting to today. Was at the hardware store with an uncle looking for supplies to fix the leaking toilet at my house. While we were in the checkout line, I noticed I knew the cashier. I'll call her Allie.
Ally is a recently graduate from my school. Anyway, I'm not sure what it was but she looked great today. I didn't even mind her stupid double cheek piercings.
...didn't talk to her though. :/ oh well I thought. However, me and my uncle actually forgot a piece and had to go back. On the way there I thought to myself: "I've been given a second chance. I can't mess this up. I WILL say something to her this time."
When we got to her again, she put on a smile and said, "you're back". I was ready this time. Prior experience had my flirtatious thinking on automatic. I wish I could say she laughed, I got her number, and she's texting me right now.
Unfortunately, my uncle answered before I could get a word in. Another missed opportunity. Oh well I can't blame him for my failure. In hindsight, I should have flirted with her even if she didn't hear me.
Two chances and I still blow it. Oh well at least I can say I wasn't overwhelmed by her good looks and could actually think at all.
August 15, 2013
Had a physical today, and I gotta admit I thought it was going to be the same boring crap like usual. It started out that way, but quickly changed once my doctor came in. The first one had did regular, usual, check-up stuff. Checking my vision, hearing, etc. She looked mid-thirties or older. Kinda big, and nothing amazing to look at. That's what I expect when I go in for my annual check-up.
Today, however wasn't like that. I get a cute, really young-looking doctor that, to be honest, was pretty weird. And I mean that in a good-way. Weird in the sense of different. She wasn't super-formal, she was pretty casual. She was how people in my school act. Pretty big ass too.
Went through all the normal crap, and she tells me my shots are up to date so I don't need any shots today. I laugh a little and say, "well wouldn't be the worse thing if I did". Seemed to click with her since she continued sounding pretty enthusiastic, saying, "right? I tell people they need shots and these grown people are crying". Then came the scrotum check... 0.o
Attractive, older (but still young-looking), and good-weird; playful;joking;fun. If only I were 10 years older - and she wasn't my doctor - then maybe. Definitely, my type of woman.
Had a physical today, and I gotta admit I thought it was going to be the same boring crap like usual. It started out that way, but quickly changed once my doctor came in. The first one had did regular, usual, check-up stuff. Checking my vision, hearing, etc. She looked mid-thirties or older. Kinda big, and nothing amazing to look at. That's what I expect when I go in for my annual check-up.
Today, however wasn't like that. I get a cute, really young-looking doctor that, to be honest, was pretty weird. And I mean that in a good-way. Weird in the sense of different. She wasn't super-formal, she was pretty casual. She was how people in my school act. Pretty big ass too.
Went through all the normal crap, and she tells me my shots are up to date so I don't need any shots today. I laugh a little and say, "well wouldn't be the worse thing if I did". Seemed to click with her since she continued sounding pretty enthusiastic, saying, "right? I tell people they need shots and these grown people are crying". Then came the scrotum check... 0.o
Attractive, older (but still young-looking), and good-weird; playful;joking;fun. If only I were 10 years older - and she wasn't my doctor - then maybe. Definitely, my type of woman.
August 21, 2013: Back to Business
First day back to business. I don't know what it was, but I just felt generally good today. I was so much more relaxed than usually. I'm glad my CCC attitude has carried over from the Summer. I no longer have a problem talking. Still not much of a talker, but I think I talked more today than I did all last (school) year.
Out of the 5 classes I have - normally would be 7 but I have a 3-hour dual-credit computer tech class - I'm happy with 3, good at one (even though I don't like the class, but there's one class I just will not possibly be able to stand for the year. Computer tech is my first class and I'm a little hyper-active and slightly self-conscious.
So not too much talking in the 3 hours. I'll warm up. Algebra next. Good at it, but I don't care for it. So, its a good thing I know most of the people in the class, even if I hadn't talked to them before. What's more is Christy is in there, so another second chance.
Its funny really, I get a little jealous because her ex (?) is in the class too - not the "funny" part - but I just generally don't care for her as much as I did last year. I guess what I mean is I'm not as head over heels for her this year. Though I do still want her. So I guess now its time to show her a new side of me, and hope the interest (attraction?) hasn't worn off yet.
We get into groups of 3, and I'm busy talking to other busy while the two girls in my group do the work. When its time to say what we put down, they make me do it, so I play along and have fun with it. I probably would have just smiled a little last year. All the while, Christy's looking back at something. Really can't say if that something was me or not.
Anyway, next up is spanish...and the teacher isn't there. On the bright side Raquel is. Unfortunately, the sub in the class doesn't want anyone talking. So talking to her and joking about how she didn't sit near me was a no-go. Hate to say it, but looks like I'll have to try again tomorrow.
Can't say I've seen much more success with women, but I have seen plenty of self-improvement. What I've noticed most is how aggressive about it I've become.
First day back to business. I don't know what it was, but I just felt generally good today. I was so much more relaxed than usually. I'm glad my CCC attitude has carried over from the Summer. I no longer have a problem talking. Still not much of a talker, but I think I talked more today than I did all last (school) year.
Out of the 5 classes I have - normally would be 7 but I have a 3-hour dual-credit computer tech class - I'm happy with 3, good at one (even though I don't like the class, but there's one class I just will not possibly be able to stand for the year. Computer tech is my first class and I'm a little hyper-active and slightly self-conscious.
So not too much talking in the 3 hours. I'll warm up. Algebra next. Good at it, but I don't care for it. So, its a good thing I know most of the people in the class, even if I hadn't talked to them before. What's more is Christy is in there, so another second chance.
Its funny really, I get a little jealous because her ex (?) is in the class too - not the "funny" part - but I just generally don't care for her as much as I did last year. I guess what I mean is I'm not as head over heels for her this year. Though I do still want her. So I guess now its time to show her a new side of me, and hope the interest (attraction?) hasn't worn off yet.
We get into groups of 3, and I'm busy talking to other busy while the two girls in my group do the work. When its time to say what we put down, they make me do it, so I play along and have fun with it. I probably would have just smiled a little last year. All the while, Christy's looking back at something. Really can't say if that something was me or not.
Anyway, next up is spanish...and the teacher isn't there. On the bright side Raquel is. Unfortunately, the sub in the class doesn't want anyone talking. So talking to her and joking about how she didn't sit near me was a no-go. Hate to say it, but looks like I'll have to try again tomorrow.
Can't say I've seen much more success with women, but I have seen plenty of self-improvement. What I've noticed most is how aggressive about it I've become.
I don't know if its just my imagination and I'm over-thinking things, but it seems like Christy is always looking at me and trying to make eye contact. I do sit a seat over and behind her, and the clock is behind me, so maybe its just me. I'm not sure if its just me wanting to talk to her, but I get the feeling that whenever she looks back, she is expecting me to talk to her. I don't know, maybe its just me over-thinking something as simple as glancing by.
On a more positive note, its really getting easier to talk to people.
On a more positive note, its really getting easier to talk to people.
August 25, 2013
Not much happened today, so I'll make this short. I was on my way home after an hour and a half basketball practice session, and these two girls on a bike are riding past me trying to talk to me. I think nothing of it, and keep walking. I get a little clumsy and the ball hits my foot while I'm dribbling it. It rolls a little ahead so I have to go get it. Of course one of them has to say something about it. :/ Typical.
We all turn the same way, and of course there's more to it. "Hey, its a dog", one of them says to me. At first I didn't hear what she said, so I say "what?". She says "nevermind, its gone". That's when I realize what she had said. Maybe its just my pride, but there's no way in hell I would have showed them how nervous hearing that made me. I quickly realized all they really wanted was to see my reaction to hearing that.
Further on and closer to my house, the same one asks me where I'm going. I answer casually. So she makes fun of my answer. Great way to start a conversation. Then the other one tells her to (while laughing) leave me alone.
Funny, there's always the girl that start a conversation by making jokes at your expense, and then there's the girl who'll laugh at her jokes but tell her friend to stop. When did girls get so predictable? :yawn:
Not much happened today, so I'll make this short. I was on my way home after an hour and a half basketball practice session, and these two girls on a bike are riding past me trying to talk to me. I think nothing of it, and keep walking. I get a little clumsy and the ball hits my foot while I'm dribbling it. It rolls a little ahead so I have to go get it. Of course one of them has to say something about it. :/ Typical.
We all turn the same way, and of course there's more to it. "Hey, its a dog", one of them says to me. At first I didn't hear what she said, so I say "what?". She says "nevermind, its gone". That's when I realize what she had said. Maybe its just my pride, but there's no way in hell I would have showed them how nervous hearing that made me. I quickly realized all they really wanted was to see my reaction to hearing that.
Further on and closer to my house, the same one asks me where I'm going. I answer casually. So she makes fun of my answer. Great way to start a conversation.
Then the other one tells her to (while laughing) leave me alone. Funny, there's always the girl that start a conversation by making jokes at your expense, and then there's the girl who'll laugh at her jokes but tell her friend to stop. When did girls get so predictable? :yawn:
September 12, 2013
Never thought I'd get to the point where being called an a$$hole, jerk, or mean would stop bothering me. Well, it still bugs me a little. Anyway, was on escort/guide duty with a few other MCJROTC cadets so I thought I'd have a little fun with it. One of the twins that are first year students to the program (LE1s), was on door duty with me and another cadet at the beginning so I talked to her a bit. Nothing serious, not even sure if I'm into her (or her identical twin sister) yet so just casual conversations here and there.
Actually I don't even think I can call it conversations. It was more of her saying sh!t and me turning it around on her. Every time I do it, I get a smile, laughter, and a "you're so mean". Position of power (higher rank and seniority), older, funny, and I guess you could say charming. All made for a fun night, and total outcome independence.
Later on I saw an old flame, so I talked to her as she walked by. Continuously throughout the night I saw her, so I kept messing with her. Funny enough, a few times she tells her mom, who was with her, that I was being mean. I guess that's because for the first time, I got her to quit calling me a stupid nickname she (and her sister) gave me a year or two back, without really doing anything.
Right before I left I talked with her, patted her on the head a few times, and made more jokes at her expense. At one time I was actually interested in her, but today total outcome independent.
All I was focused on today was seeing how the night played out and having fun with it.
Never thought I'd get to the point where being called an a$$hole, jerk, or mean would stop bothering me. Well, it still bugs me a little. Anyway, was on escort/guide duty with a few other MCJROTC cadets so I thought I'd have a little fun with it. One of the twins that are first year students to the program (LE1s), was on door duty with me and another cadet at the beginning so I talked to her a bit. Nothing serious, not even sure if I'm into her (or her identical twin sister) yet so just casual conversations here and there.
Actually I don't even think I can call it conversations. It was more of her saying sh!t and me turning it around on her. Every time I do it, I get a smile, laughter, and a "you're so mean". Position of power (higher rank and seniority), older, funny, and I guess you could say charming. All made for a fun night, and total outcome independence.
Later on I saw an old flame, so I talked to her as she walked by. Continuously throughout the night I saw her, so I kept messing with her. Funny enough, a few times she tells her mom, who was with her, that I was being mean. I guess that's because for the first time, I got her to quit calling me a stupid nickname she (and her sister) gave me a year or two back, without really doing anything.
Right before I left I talked with her, patted her on the head a few times, and made more jokes at her expense. At one time I was actually interested in her, but today total outcome independent.
All I was focused on today was seeing how the night played out and having fun with it.
September 20, 2013
Saw an old plate at a home-field football game today. Should of went in for the number, but I didn't see her at all after the first time. There was one highlight of the day though: when a close friend told me someone asked him who the girl next to me (my sister) was on my profile picture on Facebook. I just uploaded that picture a week or two ago, not only because I thought it was a good picture of me, but also to test the social proof thing. Really surprising it works even with family.
Saw an old plate at a home-field football game today. Should of went in for the number, but I didn't see her at all after the first time. There was one highlight of the day though: when a close friend told me someone asked him who the girl next to me (my sister) was on my profile picture on Facebook. I just uploaded that picture a week or two ago, not only because I thought it was a good picture of me, but also to test the social proof thing. Really surprising it works even with family.
September 27, 2013
Today was one of those unique days that stand out. That one girl that followed to school some time last year tried talking to me again...still thinks my name is Carl too. :crackup: She does not take no for an answer. Its weird being on the side that does the rejecting. Anyway, she was with another friend when we talked. When she finally left, she told her friend I was her "baby". The friend just looked at me and smiled a little, then was off with her friend.
Debating whether or not to keep her on the sidelines since it seems she's trying to be a wingman for me, and on top of that she's friends with one girl I've seen around that has an amazing a$$ and decent face.
Then, a couple friends were asking me why I wasn't trying to talk to Raquel. Funny thing is one of them was asking me why I don't text her everyday. Nice to have friends I can talk to about girls and game. Thing is I have been trying to talk to her, but the main thing is it seems like I never have time too. We only have that one class together, and on top of that I find myself wondering if she's still interested like she was last year. Guess there's only one way to find out...
Today was one of those unique days that stand out. That one girl that followed to school some time last year tried talking to me again...still thinks my name is Carl too. :crackup: She does not take no for an answer. Its weird being on the side that does the rejecting. Anyway, she was with another friend when we talked. When she finally left, she told her friend I was her "baby". The friend just looked at me and smiled a little, then was off with her friend.
Debating whether or not to keep her on the sidelines since it seems she's trying to be a wingman for me, and on top of that she's friends with one girl I've seen around that has an amazing a$$ and decent face.
Then, a couple friends were asking me why I wasn't trying to talk to Raquel. Funny thing is one of them was asking me why I don't text her everyday. Nice to have friends I can talk to about girls and game. Thing is I have been trying to talk to her, but the main thing is it seems like I never have time too. We only have that one class together, and on top of that I find myself wondering if she's still interested like she was last year. Guess there's only one way to find out...
October 1, 2013
Since I'm up, thought I'd evaluate where I am compared to a year ago, and what I've learned in that short amount of time.
I am:
-In a calm state nearly all the time
-Able to speak my mind easier
-Less worried about how other perceive me
-Dressing better
-Prioritized
-Not cooped up in my head nearly as much;going with the flow
What I learned:
-If she's really interested, she'll overlook flaws, bad times, etc
-Rapport and comfort can only be built in person
-Bad texting does more harm than good
Just things off the top of my head. Doesn't seem like much going through the list, but I was never that bad to begin with.
Since I'm up, thought I'd evaluate where I am compared to a year ago, and what I've learned in that short amount of time.
I am:
-In a calm state nearly all the time
-Able to speak my mind easier
-Less worried about how other perceive me
-Dressing better
-Prioritized
-Not cooped up in my head nearly as much;going with the flow
What I learned:
-If she's really interested, she'll overlook flaws, bad times, etc
-Rapport and comfort can only be built in person
-Bad texting does more harm than good
Just things off the top of my head. Doesn't seem like much going through the list, but I was never that bad to begin with.
October 19, 2013
Looking back there was one thread that was truer than I had realized when I read it. The premise of that thread was that they always come back in the end. The past few weeks I've had old plates, female friends, and interested girls try to come back to me. I made the mistake of accepting one back, and had it backfire on me. Only good thing that came from it was how it cemented the "you only get one shot" mindset into me.
At first I thought this mindset was pretty unfair. To a small extent I still do believe this, but I can see why its necessary. I simply don't have time for other people's crap, and no way in Hell have to stand by and let someone else disrespect me. This mindset has caused so many girls to call me an a$$hole, jerk, or mean, but two things haven't changed. 1) The same girls calling me these names stick around. And 2) I really don't care as much as I used to.
Another thing I've realized is just how similar the girls that approach me are to myself. All of them (with a possible exception of one or two) are quiet introverts like myself. They're at their best (most comfortable) with small groups or one on one, just as I am. I've also noticed how these girls - and no doubt other girls - like to be lead.
Its truly amazing how much of the things I've read on game and women are true.
Looking back there was one thread that was truer than I had realized when I read it. The premise of that thread was that they always come back in the end. The past few weeks I've had old plates, female friends, and interested girls try to come back to me. I made the mistake of accepting one back, and had it backfire on me. Only good thing that came from it was how it cemented the "you only get one shot" mindset into me.
At first I thought this mindset was pretty unfair. To a small extent I still do believe this, but I can see why its necessary. I simply don't have time for other people's crap, and no way in Hell have to stand by and let someone else disrespect me. This mindset has caused so many girls to call me an a$$hole, jerk, or mean, but two things haven't changed. 1) The same girls calling me these names stick around. And 2) I really don't care as much as I used to.
Another thing I've realized is just how similar the girls that approach me are to myself. All of them (with a possible exception of one or two) are quiet introverts like myself. They're at their best (most comfortable) with small groups or one on one, just as I am. I've also noticed how these girls - and no doubt other girls - like to be lead.
Its truly amazing how much of the things I've read on game and women are true.
5 March 2014
Haven't posted in a while, but I need an outlet today. Its been a mixed feeling kind of day. Not a bad day, but a couple irritating moments.
To start my day off, I had a Red Bull. Unlike most people, caffeine and taurine (energy drink equivalent of caffeine) don't really affect me too much. So, I was a little more social today than usual, without having any of the negative after-effects. Probably was all in my head, but whatever, I'll take it. This nice little effect came in handy in my Computer Tech class. We're working on building computers, kind of to put together everything we've learned up to now into use, and the girl next to me was just having a sh!tty day so far.
Easily one of the smartest people in the class - next to me of course - and every time we had to install something into the computer, she would have problems. A screw wouldn't go in, or a power supply wouldn't fit. It was always something all day. Every time something went wrong, she'd look over at me or ask me a question about it. I guess she was hoping she was just doing something wrong, and it wasn't actually the parts just being weird.
I don't know why, but I thought it was kind of cute (kill me for using that word; I hate that word). It made me think, "are all girls this helpless?" Usually I'm the one having weird issues with that kind of thing, and I get p!ssed when it happens. Maybe, it was just funny to see for myself how I probably act when I'm frustrated.
In my MCJROTC class, I'm now the official class commander (leadership position), so I had to lead PT (workout) today. No big deal, I've done it before.
One of the girls in the class - who technically should be class commander because she is the same rank as me, but also holds seniority over me - commented on my physique today, which was pretty interesting. I've never been called "muscular" before, so hearing it from her was interesting. Although, to be exact she said, "Eph, your so skinny and muscular. Its creepy."
Lol, alright I'll take the semi-compliment. With that we got on with the exercises. Easy enough. My next class was were I got annoyed though. I went up to talk to the teacher, and one of the freshmen girls [in the class] puts her hand on top of mine.
I don't know about you, but I'm not exactly ecstatic when strangers touch me. Doing so to get my attention is fine, but that made me lose my temper. I moved my hand from under her's and told her to stop. Then, more to myself than to anyone, said, "This is why I don't like Sophomores. [They're annoying.]"
When I went back to my seat, I overheard her and her friends saying things like, "I know he knows I'm a freshmen." and "I take offense to that." Then she thought it best to come over to me and tell me that she's a freshmen. My back was turned to her when she said it, so I just didn't say anything back.
This wasn't the first time she's tried fvcking with me either, which is why I was so annoyed in the first place.
Haven't posted in a while, but I need an outlet today. Its been a mixed feeling kind of day. Not a bad day, but a couple irritating moments.
To start my day off, I had a Red Bull. Unlike most people, caffeine and taurine (energy drink equivalent of caffeine) don't really affect me too much. So, I was a little more social today than usual, without having any of the negative after-effects. Probably was all in my head, but whatever, I'll take it. This nice little effect came in handy in my Computer Tech class. We're working on building computers, kind of to put together everything we've learned up to now into use, and the girl next to me was just having a sh!tty day so far.
Easily one of the smartest people in the class - next to me of course - and every time we had to install something into the computer, she would have problems. A screw wouldn't go in, or a power supply wouldn't fit. It was always something all day. Every time something went wrong, she'd look over at me or ask me a question about it. I guess she was hoping she was just doing something wrong, and it wasn't actually the parts just being weird.
I don't know why, but I thought it was kind of cute (kill me for using that word; I hate that word). It made me think, "are all girls this helpless?" Usually I'm the one having weird issues with that kind of thing, and I get p!ssed when it happens. Maybe, it was just funny to see for myself how I probably act when I'm frustrated.
In my MCJROTC class, I'm now the official class commander (leadership position), so I had to lead PT (workout) today. No big deal, I've done it before.
One of the girls in the class - who technically should be class commander because she is the same rank as me, but also holds seniority over me - commented on my physique today, which was pretty interesting. I've never been called "muscular" before, so hearing it from her was interesting. Although, to be exact she said, "Eph, your so skinny and muscular. Its creepy."
Lol, alright I'll take the semi-compliment. With that we got on with the exercises. Easy enough. My next class was were I got annoyed though. I went up to talk to the teacher, and one of the freshmen girls [in the class] puts her hand on top of mine.
I don't know about you, but I'm not exactly ecstatic when strangers touch me. Doing so to get my attention is fine, but that made me lose my temper. I moved my hand from under her's and told her to stop. Then, more to myself than to anyone, said, "This is why I don't like Sophomores. [They're annoying.]"
When I went back to my seat, I overheard her and her friends saying things like, "I know he knows I'm a freshmen." and "I take offense to that." Then she thought it best to come over to me and tell me that she's a freshmen. My back was turned to her when she said it, so I just didn't say anything back.
This wasn't the first time she's tried fvcking with me either, which is why I was so annoyed in the first place.
30 March 2014
Just got done reading a few posts in NorwegianDJ's journal, and got interested in doing a new post for my own journal. The last few weeks since my last post have been interesting. Me and a few other people in my MCJROTC class are being promoted to officers soon. I'm assuming we'll be 2nd Lieutenants, since he didn't specifically say what rank. Thing is, we're trying to change the entire program at the school for the better, so those that will be officers soon (other than the figure head "in charge of everything"; assuming we'll even have one) have specific jobs to do.
I'm in charge of handling all the technology. Website development, making sure all the programs work, etc. Basically a Systems Administrator (S-6). In the mean time, I'm still in charge of my class for the rest of the year. Should be interesting.
One thing I've noticed the past few weeks is whenever we have presentations in any of my classes, I'm not nervous about going up in front of people anymore. I just go up and do my thing. Even making a mistake doesn't faze me anymore. Its gotta be because of MCJROTC. Its only been a year, and I'm already a different person than I was last year. I'm so much closer to being the man I want to be.
And that itself has had me thinking about about the future. My future. I've got one more year of high school, and then I'm on my own. Its weird, but I kinda want to stay, if for nothing more than MCJROTC. But oh well, nothing I can do, except enjoy the time I have left. Thing is, I've been thinking about a lot of programming projects I want to do.
In the long run, they all tie-in to wanting to start my own business. Not just starting them, but (whether through selling them, or making it on my own) making more money than I'll ever need. The more I think about it, the more I realize I will never be satisfied when it comes to money. A million is not enough.
At the same time, sometimes I feel like its all too much for me. I just feel like saying, "fvck it, I'm enlisting". But when it comes to that, I don't just want to enlist, I want to be a part of the special operations forces - specifically MARSOC, and maybe eventually, Delta Force.
Other than military or starting a software development business, I don't know what I want to do with my life. Really, I'd just like to make enough to retire early, and enjoy my hobbies. But there isn't a lot I'm truly interested in. I like skateboarding, parkour, basketball, and football. I'd like to say I like learning, but the only things I like (besides sports, and technology) are Spanish and Japanese. There's only so much time, you know?
I guess I'm a bit more afraid of accomplishing my goals, and finding no joy. Wondering, "what's next". Which, if I felt I had nothing more to do after succeeding in business, I'd go after the other goal: military -> special operations.
But then what? What happens if I accomplish everything I want in life? What do I do when my life becomes perfect? As we all know, perfect is boring.
Well, I guess that's it for this journal entry. Wrote a bit more than I usually do.
Just got done reading a few posts in NorwegianDJ's journal, and got interested in doing a new post for my own journal. The last few weeks since my last post have been interesting. Me and a few other people in my MCJROTC class are being promoted to officers soon. I'm assuming we'll be 2nd Lieutenants, since he didn't specifically say what rank. Thing is, we're trying to change the entire program at the school for the better, so those that will be officers soon (other than the figure head "in charge of everything"; assuming we'll even have one) have specific jobs to do.
I'm in charge of handling all the technology. Website development, making sure all the programs work, etc. Basically a Systems Administrator (S-6). In the mean time, I'm still in charge of my class for the rest of the year. Should be interesting.
One thing I've noticed the past few weeks is whenever we have presentations in any of my classes, I'm not nervous about going up in front of people anymore. I just go up and do my thing. Even making a mistake doesn't faze me anymore. Its gotta be because of MCJROTC. Its only been a year, and I'm already a different person than I was last year. I'm so much closer to being the man I want to be.
And that itself has had me thinking about about the future. My future. I've got one more year of high school, and then I'm on my own. Its weird, but I kinda want to stay, if for nothing more than MCJROTC. But oh well, nothing I can do, except enjoy the time I have left. Thing is, I've been thinking about a lot of programming projects I want to do.
In the long run, they all tie-in to wanting to start my own business. Not just starting them, but (whether through selling them, or making it on my own) making more money than I'll ever need. The more I think about it, the more I realize I will never be satisfied when it comes to money. A million is not enough.
At the same time, sometimes I feel like its all too much for me. I just feel like saying, "fvck it, I'm enlisting". But when it comes to that, I don't just want to enlist, I want to be a part of the special operations forces - specifically MARSOC, and maybe eventually, Delta Force.
Other than military or starting a software development business, I don't know what I want to do with my life. Really, I'd just like to make enough to retire early, and enjoy my hobbies. But there isn't a lot I'm truly interested in. I like skateboarding, parkour, basketball, and football. I'd like to say I like learning, but the only things I like (besides sports, and technology) are Spanish and Japanese. There's only so much time, you know?
I guess I'm a bit more afraid of accomplishing my goals, and finding no joy. Wondering, "what's next". Which, if I felt I had nothing more to do after succeeding in business, I'd go after the other goal: military -> special operations.
But then what? What happens if I accomplish everything I want in life? What do I do when my life becomes perfect? As we all know, perfect is boring.
Well, I guess that's it for this journal entry. Wrote a bit more than I usually do.
8 April 2014: What do they think of me?
Don't really talk about my "work" much, but lately I've been working on updating an old project. Its been ready for release for a couple of months now, but I just haven't released it. I've never really felt like it was as good as it could be. I've been working on it for the past year and nearly a half, and too many times now I've just gotten bored of it to the point where I'd half-a$$ things. But, hopefully by the end of the week, I'll have everything up to my standards. For whatever reason, I really just want to stay up all night and finish it. Just get it all out of the way.
Now, let's get to something that's been bugging me. It all started last Saturday. I got up, and I was thinking about going out to play some basketball, like I usually do. At some point during the day, a friend texted me to tell me that he was told that I was invited to go to another friend's party that same day. At the same place I go to play basketball. Weird coincidence, but I figured I go get something to eat at McDonald's before I went. So, I did.
Once I got to the party, it was really just a lot of talking and a bit of soccer, since the guy the party was being thrown for wasn't there yet. So, I left to get my basketball and came back. The "trouble" really started once the party really got started.
During the party, all we really did was play basketball. I noticed some of my friends (call them plates if you wish) have horrible shooting form (they're both into soccer, and rarely play basketball), so naturally I got a bit of kino in, and tried teaching them how to shoot "correctly".
Since Saturday, I've realized I have a tendency to hug them from behind as tight as I can to move them around. I also realized, I did it a lot Saturday. They never seem to mind, but I wonder if I do it too much. I guess I shouldn't worry about it too much. Couple their (childlike) personalities with their short stature, and its difficult not to be "Alpha" around them.
Still, it makes me wonder what they think of me. If they think (or think they know) I like them. Just curious as to what goes through their minds when I do things like this. At least one of them seems to like me. Or I've just gotten it in my head that she does.
On the bright side, my form and consequently accuracy, have improved since Saturday.
Don't really talk about my "work" much, but lately I've been working on updating an old project. Its been ready for release for a couple of months now, but I just haven't released it. I've never really felt like it was as good as it could be. I've been working on it for the past year and nearly a half, and too many times now I've just gotten bored of it to the point where I'd half-a$$ things. But, hopefully by the end of the week, I'll have everything up to my standards. For whatever reason, I really just want to stay up all night and finish it. Just get it all out of the way.
Now, let's get to something that's been bugging me. It all started last Saturday. I got up, and I was thinking about going out to play some basketball, like I usually do. At some point during the day, a friend texted me to tell me that he was told that I was invited to go to another friend's party that same day. At the same place I go to play basketball. Weird coincidence, but I figured I go get something to eat at McDonald's before I went. So, I did.
Once I got to the party, it was really just a lot of talking and a bit of soccer, since the guy the party was being thrown for wasn't there yet. So, I left to get my basketball and came back. The "trouble" really started once the party really got started.
During the party, all we really did was play basketball. I noticed some of my friends (call them plates if you wish) have horrible shooting form (they're both into soccer, and rarely play basketball), so naturally I got a bit of kino in, and tried teaching them how to shoot "correctly".
Since Saturday, I've realized I have a tendency to hug them from behind as tight as I can to move them around. I also realized, I did it a lot Saturday. They never seem to mind, but I wonder if I do it too much. I guess I shouldn't worry about it too much. Couple their (childlike) personalities with their short stature, and its difficult not to be "Alpha" around them.
Still, it makes me wonder what they think of me. If they think (or think they know) I like them. Just curious as to what goes through their minds when I do things like this. At least one of them seems to like me. Or I've just gotten it in my head that she does.
On the bright side, my form and consequently accuracy, have improved since Saturday.
19 May 2014
Well, the past few weeks I've been researching nootropics - smart drugs. Magic pills (or powder) that can do a variety of things like increase blood flow (and in turn oxygen) to the brain to enhance cognition, improve memory, act as an anti-depressant, etc. About a week ago, I decided to give it a try. I found a good deal on noopept - one of the best nootropics, and I started today. So, over the next few weeks as the effects start to kick in, I'll document if it has any noticeable effect on me. I already have a photographic memory, am a pretty happy person, and I learn things at a decent rate. I'm not expecting much, but it'll be interesting.
Anyway, since my school has an altered schedule for the remainder of the week and Tuesday of next week (no school Monday), all of my classes I have are a bit longer than usual. I don't know if I mentioned it before, but a girl I met over the past Summer transferred to my school a while ago.
I, honestly, wasn't expecting to see her again, since we had went to different schools but I kinda walked to class with her once a few weeks ago. We don't have the same class, but since I'm so far ahead in my classes, I usually go to JROTC several times a day - when we do PT. Ever since then, whenever she sees me, she has something to say. Anytime she sees me, she will speak to me.
A week or two ago, she had her friend compare us in our camouflage JROTC uniforms. She asked her, "who looks better in this uniform?". When her friend pointed to me without saying anything, she said her friend was just being nice to me. Okay. Weird.
I pretended not to see her this morning when I went to the cafeteria to grab some (second) breakfast, and as I passed her, she hits me on...(well, I don't remember where, but its irrelevant) and says, "you can't say hi". I ignored that, and half-jokingly and half-smiling said, "don't hit me". I think I'm becoming a natural when it comes to ignoring things I don't want to answer. Or, responding with something witty. Or just responding at all.
Yeah, for better or worse, I've gotten better at not being so cooped up in my own head, and just saying whatever's on my mind at the time. Anyway, my day went on normally. Until, I suddenly, saw her behind me in my JROTC class. When I got home, I started getting into my head again, but shook it off as a mere coincidence. I mean, there's no way she could possibly know when I had the class. I might have mentioned it to her before, but considering the majority of everyone's memory is usually crap, I seriously doubt she'd remember.
Well, I've known she has liked me since the Summer. Nothing new, but it is pretty interesting to experience, "if she's interested in you, she'll make an effort to see you", for myself first-hand. Not my type, but I think she'll make a pretty good friend, and there's always the chance she has attractive friends. Wonder how long it'll be until her attraction for me expires.
Well, the past few weeks I've been researching nootropics - smart drugs. Magic pills (or powder) that can do a variety of things like increase blood flow (and in turn oxygen) to the brain to enhance cognition, improve memory, act as an anti-depressant, etc. About a week ago, I decided to give it a try. I found a good deal on noopept - one of the best nootropics, and I started today. So, over the next few weeks as the effects start to kick in, I'll document if it has any noticeable effect on me. I already have a photographic memory, am a pretty happy person, and I learn things at a decent rate. I'm not expecting much, but it'll be interesting.
Anyway, since my school has an altered schedule for the remainder of the week and Tuesday of next week (no school Monday), all of my classes I have are a bit longer than usual. I don't know if I mentioned it before, but a girl I met over the past Summer transferred to my school a while ago.
I, honestly, wasn't expecting to see her again, since we had went to different schools but I kinda walked to class with her once a few weeks ago. We don't have the same class, but since I'm so far ahead in my classes, I usually go to JROTC several times a day - when we do PT. Ever since then, whenever she sees me, she has something to say. Anytime she sees me, she will speak to me.
A week or two ago, she had her friend compare us in our camouflage JROTC uniforms. She asked her, "who looks better in this uniform?". When her friend pointed to me without saying anything, she said her friend was just being nice to me. Okay. Weird.
I pretended not to see her this morning when I went to the cafeteria to grab some (second) breakfast, and as I passed her, she hits me on...(well, I don't remember where, but its irrelevant) and says, "you can't say hi". I ignored that, and half-jokingly and half-smiling said, "don't hit me". I think I'm becoming a natural when it comes to ignoring things I don't want to answer. Or, responding with something witty. Or just responding at all.
Yeah, for better or worse, I've gotten better at not being so cooped up in my own head, and just saying whatever's on my mind at the time. Anyway, my day went on normally. Until, I suddenly, saw her behind me in my JROTC class. When I got home, I started getting into my head again, but shook it off as a mere coincidence. I mean, there's no way she could possibly know when I had the class. I might have mentioned it to her before, but considering the majority of everyone's memory is usually crap, I seriously doubt she'd remember.
Well, I've known she has liked me since the Summer. Nothing new, but it is pretty interesting to experience, "if she's interested in you, she'll make an effort to see you", for myself first-hand. Not my type, but I think she'll make a pretty good friend, and there's always the chance she has attractive friends. Wonder how long it'll be until her attraction for me expires.
4 June 2014 - Certification #2
Hey guys, this week has just been excellent. I've been taking Noopept (see previous post for details) for 2 or 3 weeks now (ironically, I can't remember precisely), and in the last week or so, I've noticed I can figure out solutions and answers to problems quicker. I'd say its had a decent effect on my already-incredible memory, and cognition, too.
Just today, I passed the second exam (220-802) I needed to get my A+ Certification. So, now I'm officially certified. I took the first exam two days ago, on Monday. Honestly, during the exams, it felt like I did worse than I actually did. However, I scored higher than the highest score (in the class) on the first exam. I didn't look at where I placed for the second exam.
Maybe it was the Noopept, but I was extremely calm, and outcome independent, while I was taking both exams. I'm a natural test-taker, but I'm usually pretty nervous when doing exams, and these exams were supposed to be "butt-kickers". Apparently, they've been making the 220-802 (the second exam) harder over the years, but neither exam really felt hard to me. I kinda laughed at the questions I didn't know. It was interesting how calm I was. Maybe, it was just the fact that I had been reviewing and testing for a while, and really didn't want to do another test.
This is just the beginning though, I'm going to tackle several more certifications next school year, so I've got a lot to do over the Summer. Oh well, it's all a part of the master plan.
In addition to passing my certification exams, and adding another certification to the one I already have (IC3), I "finished" the project I've been working on for the past year and a half it's finally ready for launch. I've mentioned this project in several other threads, so it feels great to finally have it up to, or at least close to, my standards.
For better, or worse, I already know where I'm going to take it. I know what I'm going to add to it. I'll post a link to it later this week when I launch it, although, it's not the type of thing a lot of you guys would use.
While this week has been great, and is going great, last Friday (I think it was Friday) the girl I met over the Summer did something I found extremely idiotic - childish, really. I got done with whatever it was that we were doing in Spanish, so I left and went to JROTC. This was the third time I went that day, since every class was playing a sport. I didn't get to play since I came late, which sucked since it was basketball. I really wanted to play, since I (playing) basketball, and my math teacher was playing. She comes to that class (the last class of the day), and PTs with them a lot of the time.
So, it would have been interesting playing against a teacher. Anyway, since I couldn't play, I stood behind one of the hoops and watched the game. The girl I met over the Summer sees me as I'm walking over, and goes, "No! Get out of here. I don't want you in here.". Or some sh!t like that. She had been coming to my class the previous week, and I'd play around with her, saying something similar whenever she came. So, I guess she was returning the favor.
Okay, whatever, I was fine with that. Hell, I'm fine when she decides to hit me on the arm. What I'm not fine with, is when you pull on my lanyard and break it. I would have been a little less sh!tty about it, if she at least apologized for it, since I know she didn't try to break it on purpose, but nope. Nothing. This all happened while I was talking to someone, and since my flash drive fell off when she broke my lanyard, he picked it up and handed to me.
As I picked up my ID off the floor - she couldn't even pick up my ID?! - she just stood there. Silent, and watching. I didn't realize it then, but I've been thinking it was probably a sh!t test to see how I'd react. Something told me to just keep quiet and ignore her for a while, but I couldn't do that. I put my ID and flash drive in my pocket, and as I walked by her, I told her not to touch my sh!t. Still no response.
Sometime later, I noticed her looking at me as she walked by. This was during the same day, same time-frame. Probably 10 minutes or so after the incident. I haven't talked to her since, but that's more because I haven't gone to that class since (I don't go to that hour often), and she hasn't come to my class since. I'm not sure how I feel about it now. I still think she shouldn't have pulled on my lanyard, and should have apologized and/or picked up my stuff after. But, I'm not sure if when I see her again, I'll talk to her. I'm not really angry about it still.
Hey guys, this week has just been excellent. I've been taking Noopept (see previous post for details) for 2 or 3 weeks now (ironically, I can't remember precisely), and in the last week or so, I've noticed I can figure out solutions and answers to problems quicker. I'd say its had a decent effect on my already-incredible memory, and cognition, too.
Just today, I passed the second exam (220-802) I needed to get my A+ Certification. So, now I'm officially certified. I took the first exam two days ago, on Monday. Honestly, during the exams, it felt like I did worse than I actually did. However, I scored higher than the highest score (in the class) on the first exam. I didn't look at where I placed for the second exam.
Maybe it was the Noopept, but I was extremely calm, and outcome independent, while I was taking both exams. I'm a natural test-taker, but I'm usually pretty nervous when doing exams, and these exams were supposed to be "butt-kickers". Apparently, they've been making the 220-802 (the second exam) harder over the years, but neither exam really felt hard to me. I kinda laughed at the questions I didn't know. It was interesting how calm I was. Maybe, it was just the fact that I had been reviewing and testing for a while, and really didn't want to do another test.
This is just the beginning though, I'm going to tackle several more certifications next school year, so I've got a lot to do over the Summer. Oh well, it's all a part of the master plan.
In addition to passing my certification exams, and adding another certification to the one I already have (IC3), I "finished" the project I've been working on for the past year and a half it's finally ready for launch. I've mentioned this project in several other threads, so it feels great to finally have it up to, or at least close to, my standards.
For better, or worse, I already know where I'm going to take it. I know what I'm going to add to it. I'll post a link to it later this week when I launch it, although, it's not the type of thing a lot of you guys would use.
While this week has been great, and is going great, last Friday (I think it was Friday) the girl I met over the Summer did something I found extremely idiotic - childish, really. I got done with whatever it was that we were doing in Spanish, so I left and went to JROTC. This was the third time I went that day, since every class was playing a sport. I didn't get to play since I came late, which sucked since it was basketball. I really wanted to play, since I (playing) basketball, and my math teacher was playing. She comes to that class (the last class of the day), and PTs with them a lot of the time.
So, it would have been interesting playing against a teacher. Anyway, since I couldn't play, I stood behind one of the hoops and watched the game. The girl I met over the Summer sees me as I'm walking over, and goes, "No! Get out of here. I don't want you in here.". Or some sh!t like that. She had been coming to my class the previous week, and I'd play around with her, saying something similar whenever she came. So, I guess she was returning the favor.
Okay, whatever, I was fine with that. Hell, I'm fine when she decides to hit me on the arm. What I'm not fine with, is when you pull on my lanyard and break it. I would have been a little less sh!tty about it, if she at least apologized for it, since I know she didn't try to break it on purpose, but nope. Nothing. This all happened while I was talking to someone, and since my flash drive fell off when she broke my lanyard, he picked it up and handed to me.
As I picked up my ID off the floor - she couldn't even pick up my ID?! - she just stood there. Silent, and watching. I didn't realize it then, but I've been thinking it was probably a sh!t test to see how I'd react. Something told me to just keep quiet and ignore her for a while, but I couldn't do that. I put my ID and flash drive in my pocket, and as I walked by her, I told her not to touch my sh!t. Still no response.
Sometime later, I noticed her looking at me as she walked by. This was during the same day, same time-frame. Probably 10 minutes or so after the incident. I haven't talked to her since, but that's more because I haven't gone to that class since (I don't go to that hour often), and she hasn't come to my class since. I'm not sure how I feel about it now. I still think she shouldn't have pulled on my lanyard, and should have apologized and/or picked up my stuff after. But, I'm not sure if when I see her again, I'll talk to her. I'm not really angry about it still.
