Week 19 day 1: Today I decided to take a day off and also because commuting downtown is expensive, however I knew I had to just get out of the house even for a little bit so I walked to the bank. I didn't really have any intention of striking up a conversation with anyone but rather just needed to deposit some money. Anyways I ended up chatting up a blonde HB 6.5 bank teller employee who helped me( face wise she was probably a 7.5 but body wise was probably a 5.5). I should have wrote down our conversation as soon as I got home but now I forgot most of it. She looked like she was somewhere between her early to mid 30's. She had a nice attractive face but she had some excess fat on her hips and ass. She mentioned that she used to be 300 lbs like 8-9 years ago lol. Not really my type in terms of age bracket but I would have definitely ****ed her still. I'll try to write out what I remember.
her: hi, how are you?
me: hi, I'm good, how are you?
her: I'm good
me: I want to make a deposit to my bank account
her: ok, how much
me: hmm....let me see, I want to deposit XXXX
her: ok,
her: is your name pronouced thunder_God
me: it's thunder_god
her: oh sorry
me: it's ok, no one gets it right the first time
her: if I got it right you owe me something
me: hahaha... like.. ( I wasn't quick on my feet and meant to say like a coffee or something, but she replied before the words got out of my mouth)
her: you have to give me $50 bux
me: haha...
me: I like that necklace you have, it looks like its from egypt or something
her: oh thank you, no guy notices it and they just say it looks nice
her: I got it from j crew
her: so did you fill out an applicaton for a direct deposit for government checks?
me: sorry?
her: direct deposit for government checks
me: no
her: ok, in 2015, there's going to be a 6-8 mth waiting period
me: 6-8 months waiting period? what, I want my money now lol
her: ya its because of the backlog of checks
me: ok sign me up
her: I see that you lived on xxxxx
me: yes
her: omg I used to live there too on 21 xxxxx
her: it's a small world
me: ya, did you live beside that corner house
her: no, like 4-5 houses down beside that lady called xxxxx
me: I don't know her
me: maybe I saw you around before
her: you might, but I was like 300lbs before
me: really, well you look amazing now
her: ahh... thanks
me: you got to tell me your secret
her: diet and exercise
her: so how long have you been living there
me: like 8-9 yrs
her: would you like to add overdraft protection, its only an extra $5 if you use it otherwise its free
me: so what's the interest like?
her: same as a credit card
me: so what's the difference between this and a credit card
her: blah blah blah
me: oh sorry, I didn't catch your name
her: it's melissa
me: nice to meet you melissa
her: this overdraft will really help with increasing your credit rating so you can get more money
me: oh great, so I borrow more stuff and get into more debt then
her: hahaha....
We said a few random **** and then we said goodbye. My conversational skills still need major work, as there was 1-2 pauses during the conversation like when I talked to her about her necklace. The conversation wasn't necessarily forced like when I do cold approaches but there is still room for improvement. In my mind I was debating on whether or not to ask her out since her coworker was right beside her and could hear our conversation but I suppose I should have since I would have ****ed her. From now on if the girl is ****able by my standards then I should go for it, but if she isn't then I won't bother asking. I really need to also learn to quickly make a decision instead of thinking about it too much such as asking her out to coffee when she said if she got my name right I would owe her something. I hesitated too long and ended up losing the opportunity. I forgot to look for a ring on her finger too. This is something I need to start paying attention too. I suppose I could have still asked her out when my transaction ended such as saying "you seem like a cool and interesting person, lets hang out sometime, how do I get a hold of you?". I hate it when I **** up opportunities like this since she was definitely sending me IOI's. She did laugh a few times during our conversation but I forgot at which point. Well too late now unless I see her again but most likely won't because I'm moving downtown soon. I need to learn to recognize and seize these opportunities because I have ****ed up numerous times not being able to recognize them as opportunities. I also shouldn't have given a rats a$$ that her coworker was there. Not like I'm going to get in trouble for asking her out.
Anyways tomorrow I'm finally going to see a psychiatrist. It's been months since I last saw one and them referring me somewhere else really ****ed up my treatment plan. I plan on going to watch a movie right after and then going sarging and then doing a drop in improv comedy class.
I also need to make it a habit of working out early in the day when I get up otherwise I won't have the chance because I come home really late at night like at 12-1am.