Started From the Bottom
What's good gangsters? I guess it's been about a month and a half now. I'm going to share a good read with you guys and update a bit.
I've been enjoying classes at college. My English teacher really likes me and I'm going to take another class with him next semester. Getting good grades and all which is always nice. Thinking about Philosophy Majoring, English Minoring or vice versa in uni. Still no idea where I want to go out of community college.
Something I think Sosuave will like is this book I found while researching my final's paper. It's called "
How to Win Friends and Influence People" by Dale Carnegie. It's the book that Charles Manson used to gain control of his followers. The basic concept is be interested in people and appreciate what they do. I "tried" it out at work with a guy I spent an hour with doing copies for. I asked him about his building business and he told me all about where he builds, the ecological boundaries in his county, all kinds of stuff. It ended up being one of my better customer interactions just because I asked "So own a contracting company?". Take it how you will.
As for mentality: I got drug busted by my parents a few weeks ago. They found out that I've been smoking (still don't know how). I told them I'd quit and they haven't really punished me. I honestly did quit and now I'm feeling alright. I'm definitely more confident than I was a few months ago, but I'm not sure if that's due to me quitting drugs or just a change in mindset.
As for chicks: I went out with a girl from church (I've mentioned her on here before but I forget what I nicknamed her). We went to starbucks, visited her friend, walked around town and talked for a while. I straight up asked her if she expected me to make out with her at the end of the date and she was like "no. unless you want to" which I probably should have moved on but there was something in the way that she said it that turned me off. Last weekend I went shopping with Redhead. Got clothes and food and stuff. It was cool talking to her since we've been out of contact for a while. I also made plans with another girl from church but cancelled last minute.
I also got laid last week. Me and ex screwed in the passenger seat of my S10 for literally five minutes before my mom called and told me to come home. It was awkward due to our lack of experience and the fact that we were in a small Chevy. I feel different but not really. It's almost like it didn't count because of how quick it was. But on the other hand I can say that I got laid which is SUCH A BIG DEAL (not really).
Me and Ex got back together but I don't know how good of an idea it is. Whenever I see her now I have a voice in the back of my head telling me I can do better. Which I know I can. I like ex but I feel like I'm shooting downwards in a way. On the other hand I literally took her virginity last week and to break up with her already would be very fvcked up. She's down for pretty much whatever now but the problem is my parents know I used to smoke with her so they're strict about me seeing her.
I'm also planning to go on a tour of Europe when I turn 18. I'm going to buy a road bike and go from London to northern Italy via bike and train. I figured I'd need >5k dollars to pull it off. Trying to get a job at Kmart to make it possible. I'll probably buy a roadbike that costs around 1k soon so I can build my endurance enough that I can cover some distance in Europe. I'm also joining an actual gym tomorrow which will help.
I kind of feel like I should reschedule with church girl 2 or see if 1 wants to hang out again. Winter break starts in a week and a half so I'll have time to do whatever. I feel really bad about the situation with Ex, though. Not sure what I should do about it. I just want it to work out without any feelings being hurt.
ANYWAYS. I highly suggest you guys read the book I linked and stay based.
