Iceberg: Agreed. OP needs to stop viewing things through such a simple, one-sided lense. 9-10, he's only seeing what he wants to see - based on what he convinced himself as fact - and making that his focus. Not sure why we do that sometimes. It quickly becomes your reality.
****, I used to believe there was good in everyone - and convinced myself they all were. Then, when that wasn't the case, and the same *******s I tried to see the good in (WTF?) turned out to be... *******s - I believed everyone was a selfish ******* with ulterior motives - only to focus and subconsciously seek them out, to make it my reality. Same with all girls being sluts and *****es - after seeking those types out in the first place - only to focus EVEN MORE on, and continually attract those types left and right (based on my negative views and issues, which those types flock to). From one extreme to the next... all created by myself.
Your thoughts shape your reality, so make sure it's open-minded, not extreme or one-sided, and not negative. Make sure you don't surround yourself with, or focus solely on a limited selection of people, either - or that will become your reality, as well (ie, brown guys and white girls). Whether you realize it or not, you also send strong vibes to others based on your thoughts - and they come off in your interactions with others, as well. Don't be angry, judgemental, obsessive, etc... you're only hurting yourself, and every interaction you have with others.
Even on here... everyone is calling you an IRT - because ALL you talk about (negatively, at that) is race, looks, failure, and how unfair it is. For years, even on other forums. Not healthy, and isn't going to attract anyone to you. A lot of times, we get people to hate us - by always being negative, complaining, having one-sided, judgemental views (which are far from reality... outside of ours), repeating the same mantras OVER AND OVER, etc.
So, yea... knock it off. And in real life, too... you obviously worry and obsess about it, and most likely sabotage through fear. Ze ol' self-fulfilling prophecy.
A lot of the damsels I tried rescuing were this way, too. They were SO convinced that all men were jerks and players - based on their own limited experience with, and selection in them - that the fear and bitterness consumed them - which also got dumped onto everyone else as baggage, and pissed everyone off in the process (while continually attracting negativity; jerks and players... d'oh).
This **** shows, and can even control you.