I waited
I waited for my boyfriend, the one who hurt me, he took my virginity. As you know I derailed after him and had an affair with my friends boyfriend and even accepted money for sex once, which made me like a prostitute.
I am taking a long break from men but there are a lot of girls like me. Sometimes we really need to feel desired and if we are young and stupid we make the worst decisions.
When I am back on track I will not make a guy wait just because I can, I will wait until I feel he is someone who won't hurt me. I also think I will need to come clean about my past mistakes and hope he can handle them.
I really do enjoy sex but only when I care for them man, the other is a bit hollow and cheap. I still wouldn't make a top guy wait however because I think that we could just connect. I am a lot older now and was abused in my last LTR, so I am scared of being hurt again. Once I have found myself I will give myself to a man again and should get it right this time.
I have no idea what you guys look like but a lot of you sound so good, even the tougher ones. A little secret, we come off all strong and as if we have power, but we feel powerless. We know that we need a man more than a man needs us. We need your protection, your strength and your logical brains. I have read women saying that men don't hold the power, I disagree, I think we play games because we know that you guys hae all the power. Once we truly commit to you, you get the upper hand because we invest so much emotion into you.
I would rather be a man, as long as I was tall. The only shorter man I dated beat me up, so maybe it is just a hang up of mine.
You have all the power. No biological clock, you get better with age and you can control your emotion. How can a good Catholic girl from a strict family, who only wanted one man end up selling herself? Men would neer feel the need for that type of validation. You are stronger and higher up the tree than we are. That is why we play these games, we are just so scared of being hurt yet again.
I think that if she really connects with you, she will be willing to have sex with you and experiment with you because she wants and needs to try and keep you.l