Dead-end.

[squirrels]

My life has hit a dead-end, it seems.

I'm starting to lose hope for all the things I wanted out of life. I grew very quickly at first, but now everything's slowing down. I'm not learning and growing like I ought to be. I wanted to learn how to be a better man, but it's like my brain can't think the way REAL men think.

I feel like the last 4 years have been just me fooling myself into thinking I deserve to be with quality women. For a while I really felt like I might have something to offer them. I really don't. I can pretend...but I really have nothing to offer them. The games just feel hollow now, and I can't put up a decent face to try and seduce the ladies because I just don't have any faith in myself.

I wanted to take the next step in my professional life as well. I'd like to start my own business, make some contribution to society and make some money in return. But I'm drawing a blank...I really can't think of any good or service that I personally have to offer that society wants any part of. Which brings me to a stunning conclusion...I've reached a point of social worthlessness.

It used to be enough that I had a house, a decent job, a car, and enough money to hit the clubs on the weekends. Now everyone has that. I want more. I'm tired of hooking up with hot, confident women and having them leave me as soon as they realize that I'm just putting on a show...leave me for some other guy who DOES have the life I want, who DOES have something to offer.

The one thing that everyone who's worth a sh!t has is a vision. I have no vision, no imagination, no creativity, no passion. I'm intelligent, yes. Vastly intelligent. But intelligent people are just tools in the end...tools for those gifted with vision and passion...the things I for some reason don't have.

I dunno what went wrong...maybe when I was getting straight As and playing Nintendo 15 years ago, other people were out learning how life works. But I dunno if that's it. I feel like it's a mental handicap, like I "can't think that way" for some reason. Like an autistic person has trouble filtering stimuli, or an alzheimers patient has trouble remembering, I have trouble feeling passion, thinking creatively, being UNIQUE in any way.

There are a bunch of things i want out of life. But I can't see any way to get them. I'm looking out into the future at these things and hoping to be struck by inspiration, to take inspired action. But I don't get inspired...that's the faculty I seem to be missing.

Over the last several weeks, I've started considering whether I ought to resign myself to whatever mediocre outcome greets me...whether the things I want out of life are really in ANY way within my grasp, or I should just stop pipe-dreaming, stop wanting more, and settle for the bullsh!t life.

I just want to push everyone away, out of my life, and by the same token want to pull them back, to find some kind of sympathy. For someone to show me I'm wrong. I know, it's pathetic. But I feel broken. And I don't know what to do next. I feel alone...and worthless.

I'm tired of being a ****ing walk-on extra in the movie of my OWN life. I don't have any good stories. I don't have any depth. I'm tired of watching the other characters go on to be somebody and wondering, "why not me? What's wrong with me that I can't be someone too? Don't I deserve to be someone?"

 

[kratosnofear]

If you place all your self-worth into women then you'll always end up miserable. You should focus on having fun, making new friends, picking up new hobbies, and pushing yourself out of your comfort zone by trying new things. Women should be a by-product of all that instead of a main focus.

 

[joekerr31]

http://youtube.com/watch?v=ZqGa5AdPycE

personally i find alan watts to be very calming and reassuring when life gets stressful or depressing.

 

[Luthor Rex]

There are a lot of people out there right now who are bull****ting themselves about their lives and how important they are and how they are going to be "great." Let's be real: most people who think they are great are simply self-delusional. Even the President of the United States is just a cog in the machine of history.

Just because you realize how small you are in the universe doesn't mean you should be depressed: you should be happy that you can see the world clearly. How else can we have a vision of how things could be if we can't see how things are now?

Let me share at not-so-secret secret about myself: my one true passion is philosophy. Yes I realize how not-so-practical that is. There are very limited career choices with such a passion. I supposes I could be homeless and live in a tub in complete dedication to my passion.

My boss, the lucky man, LOVES the job he has. He LOVES this industry, and sometimes I wish my love could be something more 'practical', but it's not.

So I work, to make money, and to learn. I know a large gap in my personal education is how money works. I don't mean how savings accounts or checking or my credit card works. I mean how money really works in "the system". Learning this would just be one more step on the road to financial independance.

When that goal is acheived, then maybe I could have the time and resources to dedicate myself to my passion. But I know I need to put bread on the table first.

Maybe your passion is also something not-so-practical. If so then you need to admit to yourself what your love really is. Once you see the end you wish to acheive the road will appear before you. It maybe be a vague road. It may be difficult to see sometimes, but you can start filling in the blanks between where you are and where you wish to be.

Then you can unite dream and day.

(oh I so ripped off Pook on that last one) :yes:

 

[blueguy]

wow. wooow.

I've followed you a bit since the time I've been here. You really seem to go up and down quite a bit.

But I go over what you write here, and it's terribly depressing.

The main thing that really irks me is that you say you're not inspired by anything anymore.

HOW IN GOD'S NAME CAN THAT BE?

Now I'm trying to help you here.

When's the last time you heard a song that inspired you? I mean, really, really inspired you and got you doing some sort of crazy monkey dance or singing out load?

Okay, well let me tell you how I usually react to something like tha because maybe it can help you out.

It's not enough for me to hear the song. I want to make my own masterpiece that makes other people feel the same way.

And this is one thing I am working right now, composing a couple of songs on the guitar that compare in emotion to share with other people.

Now this is just one example.

There are five billion examples of things people out there are doing every single day that put the shock and awe on others' faces. And trust me, when you see others react, it is the best feeling in the world. Comedians will tell you that. Musicians will tell you that. Athletes will tell you that.

Now slap yourself in the face and ask yourself why you ever posted this nonsense. Get out there and be inspired. Get a bit jealous if you have to. And know that you can do it even better if you set your mind to it.

Ahh I can't believe it...

 

[grinder]

There is nothing wrong with letting yourself explore the dark path every now and again. Just pay attention and remember it because you’ll come out of it whether you want to or not. Don’t waste it, use it.

 

[Vulpine]

*hands squirrels a tampon*





Morpheus: "Quit trying to hit me and HIT ME!"



Man, fux "contributing to society". Contribute to yourself.

You are obviously still hung up in "external validation", as in, "you aren't measuring up". Sh!t like "everybody has that I want more", and contributing to society... you are using SOCIETY's measure against yourself.

Oops, I have to say that again because it was sneaky-sneaky...

you are using SOCIETY's measure against yourself.


:crackup:
You're whipping our own azz with the "yardstick of civilization".
:crackup:

I feel like it's a mental handicap, like I "can't think that way" for some reason.

A man, "real thoughts of a man", is and are pretty much narcissistic: "Me, what about me? How does this help/hurt me? How does she irritate/please me? Me, me, me. Me? What about me in the future? Will she be with ME in the future?" Don't be ashamed, don't feel guilty. I struggled at first to clear that hurdle, mainly due prior feminization (thanks divorced mom!) and straight-up woman mindsets. The truth of the matter was that mommy taught me to think of everyone else: the opinions of my peers mattered most. Well, as we know, this is "woman's logic". It turns out that I didn't consider with nearly enough weight that which I wanted: what pleases ME.

You don't have to be a teacher or a doctor IF YOU DON'T want to. You don't HAVE to do anything for, or contribute anything to, society. All you have to do is WHATEVER IT IS YOU WANT TO DO. For the most part, stop comparing yourself to the outside world: compare yourself to yourself. Better still, stop judging yourself altogether. ...whoa, huh?

Dude, look at Einstein. That dude's hair was always jacked! Do you think he gave a fux? Do you think he gave a fux if anyone else gave a fux? Do you think he was going rush out and get some mustache wax or pomade to tame his hair to please society?

Do you think that's "air" you're breathing?

World be damned - it's all about MEeee.

 

[squirrels]

I have no problem knowing what I want. The problem is that I can't get it. Or at least when I try to figure out HOW to get it, I draw a blank.

 

[CGE333]

You need to focus on yourself first. Material possessions and women come later. Most people that are super successful have a success mindset. If they lost everything they had today, in a short time they would be right back on top.

Focus on what you want out of life, professionally and personally and then go for it. Rememeber your life probably won't change over night. I suggest you sit down and figure out what you want to accomplish in the next 3-5 years (not worrrying about the how at this moment). Figure out what you want to accomplish and why- if you can't find enough reasons why-it is probably something you don't really want- it's more of a wish.

Brian Tracy has a concept called the 20 idea method- for every goal that you have- especially those that you have no idea how to accomplish, take some time and come up with 20 ideas that will set you down the path of accomplishing them. Keep at it and I'm sure after awhile the ideas you come up with will astonish you. If you do this, it may seem that you are just plodding along and not making much progress and then BAM, things will start to happen. There are many great books out there that can help you along this path.

One that I read and found good was:Change you life in 7 days by Paul Mckenna.

 

[penkitten]

sometimes we go thru a phase where we think our lives are less meaningful than what they are. we think our stories are nothing. we think we have no substance.

usually during this time, we mope around alot. then we find a few new things that we like, and we put a new skip to our step, and we try a few new things and spice up our lives.
change can be great and is sometimes what we need.

then we end up telling a few more funny stories and settle back into our routines again.

if you can find something satisfying to do, then go do it and enjoy it. sooner or later, just about everything gets a little stale and a new change will come.

 

[S.S.N. 318]

I feel like leaving Monroe,Louisiana 4 good and never return or better get out of the U.S. and stay in the Islandz 4 good....

 

[Mr.Positive]

Having a passion that's yours, just for you, is important. Something that the external world, is just that external, when you are doing it.

I'll share mine...sailing. I love the motion of the boat under sail, using nature to move me on my course...the rhythm, only hearing the movement of the boat through the water, the flapping of the sails. All other cares and stresses of life melt away when I'm sailing. In fact, I'm fixing up an old boat to sail around the world someday.

 

[joekerr31]

go watch gladiator.

we are but ashes and dust.

albert camus once said the only question of any significance in philosophy is whether life is worth living (if no, then suicide was a valid action).

the hardest realization for a man to come to is that ultimately, in the worlds eyes, he is worth nothing. moreover, even the best among us are often treated to cruel fates. mendella spent years in jail. gandhi was assassinated. and on int goes.

embrace virtue not to get ahead, but to live properly and happily. i can tell you that i'm at a stage of life where my self value does not change based on circumstances. if i lose my job, if i lose a woman, if i get a promotion, if i get a woman, etc. - my sense of self value remains constant.

what this post needs is victory unlimited, he always writes great motivational insights to these kinds of issues.

i'd write more but i think the video post i included towards the top of this tread has some great insights. plus im in the middle of a work out so i gotta be quick in this post

 

[joekerr31]

hahaha.

there are GOOD movies out there that have something to say and that change your perspective on life.

tell your gf not to p*ss in your cereal anymore.

 

[Mr.Positive]

the hardest realization for a man to come to is that ultimately, in the worlds eyes, he is worth nothing. moreover, even the best among us are often treated to cruel fates. mendella spent years in jail. gandhi was assassinated. and on int goes.

To come to this conclusion, means basing selfworth upon validation from the world around us. It's saying it's only what we see that matters. Thus, we never really have meaning to our lives and we are only ashes and dust. A daily 8-5 routine in some meaningless corporate office slaving away until we can afford our next suv, or home. "How is this life living?" we say..

Our value is intrinsic, within our selves. It's how we live our day to day life that matters. My grandfather was in the navy during wwII. He was pulled off of his ship minutes before leaving for battle all because he new how to type. His ship sank and almost everyone aboard died. If it was not for him, I would not exist, hEll most of my family would not exist. All because he knew how to type.

There is an action-reaction that happens daily to us, that we do not see, that places value upon ourselves. Our lives do matter, but it is not apparent. Maybe you bought a lottery ticket today that was a loser. However, the guy that bought the next lottery ticket was unemployed and had 3 starving kids, yet he wins. He takes care of his family, but you do not see this, nor does he. Maybe you stop at a red light and some drunk driver goes blasting through the intersection. Maybe behind you was a little old lady who may not have seen the red light. Had you not have been there to stop, maybe she would have been hit by the drunk driver..and the list goes on.

It's all about living the best life that you can. Having internal value and knowing that you do make a difference...even if you don't see it. It's the little day to day decisions that make the difference. How you treat others and the world around you, reflects on who you are as a person.

 

[blueguy]

we are but ashes and dust.

albert camus once said the only question of any significance in philosophy is whether life is worth living (if no, then suicide was a valid action).

the hardest realization for a man to come to is that ultimately, in the worlds eyes, he is worth nothing. moreover, even the best among us are often treated to cruel fates. mendella spent years in jail. gandhi was assassinated. and on int goes.

Yes, I think we've ALL come to this conclusion MANY times in our lives. I'm sure EVERYBODY even outside of sosuave has asked themselves these questions. But does it matter? HELL NO!... And it's NOT what squirrels or ANY depressed person needs to dwell on.

It doesn't change the feeling I get when I watch the sun set. Or hold a girl in my arms. Or hear a nice song.

It's obvious a man shouldn't base his self-worth on his accomplishments. What he SHOULD base his self-worth on is how well he can control his attitude and himself. That way as Amante said, the GOAL doesn't matter, but rather the fact that you KEEP MOVING FORWARD and EXPERIENCING LIFE.

 

[blueguy]

***

The most beautiful thing we can experience is the mysterious. It is the source of all true art and all science. He to whom this emotion is a stranger, who can no longer pause to wonder and stand rapt in awe, is as good as dead: his eyes are closed.

 

[Victory Unlimited]

Yo Sargeant Squirrels,


We've been here BEFORE, haven't we, soldier? At least twice...

Your difficulty seems to stem from a lack of proper focus. We have ALL been there. And some of us will be going back AGAIN, I'm sure (unfortunately).

I would encourage you to go back and read what the men here have already said to you on both THIS thread, and on some of the other threads you've started whenever you've felt that LIFE was "getting the best of you".

Yes, go back and mine the wisdom that has already been dispensed to you like the GOLD that it is. Facts change, but the truth doesn't change. Good advice THEN is most assuredly good advice to you NOW.

Why? Because the questions you've been asking have not really changed. Life is a race, and we will ALL get to the finish line. But the race we run is NOT a sprint----it is a MARATHON. There is a quote that says that "The Devil is in the details."

And this can mean MANY things, but for our purposes, we will take it as meaning that "There is a certain amount of evil, headache, and despair present when we fall into the trap of worrying about the "process" rather than just continuing to PROCEED."

You are "just" in your twenties, dude. Plenty of men here probably envy you your youth---because you are experiencing the amount of societal and SPIRITUAL revelations that you ARE.

Forget what you heard, man is NOT really a being of solitude----times of silence and contemplation are only meant to be experience for a limited amount of time. THEN you must rise up and go BOLDLY back into the fray of LIFE. You see, self-analysis and self-reflection taken to the Nth degree eventually start activating the law of diminishing returns.

Excessive navel-picking, leads to depression. And depression is ANGER turned inwards. And WHY is depression anger turned inwards? Because somewhere deep within our spiritual hearts we KNOW that choosing to focus within "ONLY" eventually tends to becomes a SELFISH act.

We know internally that we are MEANT not to be simply takers FROM life, but contributers TO it. THAT is where much of the anger comes from----except only those who embrace spiritual things can usually see it. We were not created to hide ourselves away alone somewhere, because there is too MUCH work to be done.

To look at yourself ALL THE TIME can resemble looking into the abyss. We look within ourselves and we see our OBVIOUS limits, but when we look OUT into the world, we see possibilities, and then those LIMITS vanish. You see, sometimes going INSIDE is confinement, and going OUTSIDE can be FREEDOM.

For those who believe...mankind was created TO PRODUCE. And as such, we have the seeds for the creation of many powerful things within us. And these "seeds" are not just of a physical nature, but they also take the forms of ideas, inventions, revelational thought, kind acts, positive influences, etc.

And our mission down here is to take those seeds and SOW them-----by whatever means that we perceive as appropriate at any given time. We are ALL soldiers here, son. And we're on a mission. Ours is NOT to know ALL of the ins and outs of the details of the mission BEFOREHAND-----but our task is to simply use the gifts and the tools we have to not just live our lives, but to LIVE OUT our lives.

Yes, we are all soldiers down here. And we are stationed where we are for a reason. As we fight these battles to acheive self-realization and to find meaning in our lives-----think of it as a test that you are taking. Sometimes we don't know the score until each particular battle in the war is over.

Squirrels, take solace in the fact that we can only do as well in our lives based on our PRESENT level of awareness in each particular area. The shyt we go through, the more we grow. And the more we grow, the more we KNOW.

This is why things seem "clearer" to us in HINDSIGHT. Too much foresight, I suppose, could be a form of cheating...(?). And as we advance our mission by taking steps of faith, we can only be held responsible for sowing the seeds we've been given (knowing and doing what we KNOW)-------by investing in our own lives, the lives of others, and the parts of the world we CAN influence.

And if we do that successfully enough, the impact of our lives will be felt by an ever-widening circle of people. But many times we get so caught up in WHAT we're doing here that we lose sight entirely of WHY we are doing whatever it is we choose to do.

We can only grow where we're planted. So don't think you have to manifest your own destiny in one fell swoop. Life is a process. Finding your way is a process. To expect for it to happen in any other way is not NATURAL.

And bettering our lives, contributing to the lives of others, and impacting the world is actually NOT as important to our inner well-being as searching for, finding, and EMBRACING our motivations for doing it in the first place.

So, consider yourself FORTUNATE, Squirrels. Because the ironic thing about life that MANY people never get is that it is entirely possible to better yourself, help others, and impact the world and STILL be selfish as hell.

An important milestone in growing as a man is the willingness to recognize and evaluate your inner motivations.

Life CAN be overwhelming if you try to take it all in all at once. But if you take it ONE step at a time, it appears to be more do-able. There is an old biblical statement that says that God is a "lamp unto my feet and a light onto my path."

Now whether you believe in God, fate, destiny, logic, or what have you----this statement still merits thought. Historically, it is said that men who lived back during this time, IF they had to travel anywhere during the night, they would carry a lamp----because there WERE no street lights of course.lol

So, as the man went out into the darkness, the only light he had was the light he carried WITH him. And if he would NOT make a move for fear of NOT reaching his destination, or for fear that even TRYING to reach his destination was suddenly NOT worth the effort------the light that he carried would be virtually of NO use to him.

You see, a "path" is road you walk upon. And it has USUALLY been traveled BEFORE----which is why they call it "a path" in the first place. But we will NEVER even see the path if we give up and never take "the steps" forward.

So what is the lesson? The lesson is to use "the light" you have to make the steps you can. And as you take steps towards the things that give your life meaning, "the path" will become clearer and clearer the further along you go.

Life is fluid. It is like money in the sense that it has an intrinsic value. And like money, must be spent. It cannot be horded, or stored up selfishly in self-pity.

No, life, like money is fluid----and it must FLOW. That is why it (money) is called CURRENCY. It is meant to flow. So likewise, if you CHOOSE to live in the NOW-----in the "current" so to speak, you will find that it is IMPOSSIBLE to worry about the future, or be disappointed by the past.

Realize that as long as your heart is beating, the clock is STILL ticking. You are still in the game. And time to discover yourself, your mission, YOUR TRUE CALLING will always be on your side as long as you remember to live in...

...the "NOW".


Peace...TODAY.

 

[Last Man Standing]

Victory Unlimited, well stated!! As usual, your response was more than what was asked of you!!

Squirrels, what is your measuring stick? By what standard are you beholden to that brings about your perceived shortcomings??

Quit measuring yourself to others or the standard as defined by those who control the images and standards of our society!! These "standards" are corrupt!!

Fulfill and maximize your talents as given to you at the birth of your creation!! Only you know what these talents are!!!

 

[A-Unit]

Re:

The Matrix is a system, Neo. That system is our enemy. But when you're inside, you look around, what do you see? Businessmen, teachers, lawyers, carpenters. The very minds of the people we are trying to save. But until we do, these people are still a part of that system and that makes them our enemy. You have to understand, most of these people are not ready to be unplugged. And many of them are so inured, so hopelessly dependent on the system, that they will fight to protect it.

No matter what people say a SYSTEM, MANY of them, exist. Even now, people will tell you what life is. How can people who have not died yet, tell you how to live? How can people tell you how to live when they are not living? And how can someone tell you how to "live" when LIVING is a unique, inheritant, and totally independent thing?

The answer is: they can't.

And one aspect of your OP is that you're measuring to what is outside against what is inside, and you're warring with yourself. The self you must journey through life with. Would you aim to piss off the captain of ship or airline at any point during your voyage??

No. Then be more kind to yourself. That self critical and analytical person is the only with you.

No one here can GIVE you the steps or philosophies to exist and live fully. And living fully isn't a THING, or ROLE in this madness called life.

In my opinion, it's a way of thinking and feeling IN THE PRESENT MOMENT.

Guys who have things can lose those things. And guys with nothing, can be given anything. Having things isn't dependent on character, its dependent on wallet and funds. DOING things is reliant upon you. But then again, if you're not doing what you want to do, then WTF are you doing with life???

Interestingly enough, I've walked how people can take their LOVE and make it their HATE. How the love sports becomes the complete disdain of the sport because what made them love it, is lost. Yes, being the best rocks, but you cross a line at someone point that detracts from it. For instance, both my cousin and I are natural golfers. Natural swings. He's half my age, and nearly scoring as well as. People say I could have gone FAR with my ability, but because I didn't go to a warmer climate, I lost the edge I may have had. Who knows. Of all golfers only 150+ REALLY make it. Not that I shouldn't go, but I found that when I pushed so hard past it, I began hating what I loved, which made it even harder to deal with, b/c if I was running a bad streak, then I'd push harder to fix it, which only made it worse.

Tyler Durden: You have to know the answer to this question! If you died right now, how would you feel about your life?
Narrator: I don't know, I wouldn't feel anything good about my life, is that what you want to hear me say? Fine. Come on!

Tyler Durden: It's only after we've lost everything that we're free to do anything.

Go ahead, mock 2 movies that integrate ALOT of philosophy and do so eloquently. Art often portrays the plight of current reality. Moving on...

Get extreme.
You think feeling like this is "bad???"

NO MAN, it's great! You know what's worse than Hate? Boredom. That or apathy. The complete lack of feeling. It isn't hate by a spouse or SO, it's their complete lack of feeling and/or disregard of you. At least with hate, you're felt. And with boredom...well find what excites you and LIVE to be EXCITED.

It's funny, NLP focuses on the questions we ask ourselves. Well, they find that in sales, super deep questions can really JAM up a persons brain, grinding it to a halt. That's what happens when you're asked to Find a Passion, as if you can SEE that far out. Life is FOREVER changing. How can someone make a PERMANENT promise in an unreal, and everchanging world? (that's probably 1 reason relationship dwindle, and marriage as it commonly exists, won't work; the 2 people need philosophy courses). No...FIND WHAT Excites you. Is it a sport? Is it art? Is it creation, invention, management, or leadership? Is it a business or performing art? You know what you do that EXCITES you, and you know what you would LIKE to do that would probably excite you, too.

Get INTO yourself. Stop wasting time here trying to find girls, and begin investing it in FINDING YOURSELF. THEN, the women will come. All this energy, and a huge percent of our 24hour days is invested to get more of what naturally comes. It's like trying to improve on a natural, chemical reaction. You can't make apples better. You can make them bigger. But what comes from a tree is it. Sure, humans can intervene and make them bigger, but now they are unnatural and probably toxic. Women come. They WANT the d!ck, and the motivation isn't to be BETTER, because better presupposes there is some WORST, or a measuring stick by which you can be judged. Who has this scale? I want to see it!!!

We think too much. And a site like this causes that. In terms of society and media, it plays off the image and idea that you need to BE this, or ACT like this. You know...I truely hate the image of the new metro "man" *(er woman). I can barely shop for clothes. They're all mad tight, queer colors, or super thin. That isn't me, although alot of shops would have you believe that. Also, you should be waxing your eyebrows. Or shaving. WTF? No offense, but the hottest smell a girl has is her own smell. Her pheromones, her sweat, her kiss, and her pvssy juice. IT IS NOT BRITNEY SPEARS or PARIS HILTON perfume, or any other junky scent. That isn't "them", or her. It's the commercial enterprise all over her. My point is people are alot of things, but they are NOT themselves. They are becoming brands they wear, jobs they do, beliefs they have, political thoughts, their wallet sizes. And ya know? 6 feet under, no one gives a shyt. On a desserted island, or a world without the infrastructure of society, its the BLUE COLLAR WORKERS who reign supreme (although Ayn Rand's protagonists don't fit the mold for today's rich capitalists, her protags were very HANDS ON and demonstrated apptitude and passion).

Ya know, everyone of us has felt a piece of what you feel squirrels. And most guys will pass through that part you're in. It's a rite of passage.

Go out. DO the opposite of what you're doing. Stop thinking and analyzing for perfection. Life is FLOW. A moment that is considered perfect is only known AFTER the fact. It's like being on a rollercoaster, you generally can't stop the coaster on the part you enjoy, and you wouldn't enjoy the part IF you stopped it at that spot anyways. Part of what makes the ride enjoyable is the fact it is short lived so you appreciate it as you pass through.

Alot of self help takes AWAY from the bliss of life, that's just living and doing. Even here, the BEST encounters with women were inexplicable, unplanned, totally unprepared. The worst were scripted, b/c I felt I had to keep playing on script. The best encounters were totally me. The worst, just some series of thoughts aimed to get a result. But isn't the result just MAXIMIZING now? Maybe not always, but a good portion of the time?

I would pull some of the energy you're chucking out into the universe, for women, for posting here, to read, reflect, learn you, learn your thoughts, but don't struggle or push. Try new things, totally opposite of you. Or of what you know. Happiness is never current reality, its all in your thinking. Our struggle is trying to control life, which is like sand flowing downhill. You can't stop it, get a grip on it, or slow it down. It'll go, with or without you.


A-Unit