I now consider myself asexual. I do not desire females as companions or sexual companions anymore. I'm never going to attract women and being gay is not an option, so I have made up my mind to not care about females any more. In fact, I'm going to avoid them at all costs. I will condition myself to not get aroused at the sight of a sexy woman and hopefully I can get to the point that even if Jessica Biel strolls naked into my room and sit on my lap, my d*ck will stay limp like a wet rag.
Why have I come to this conclusion? I'm tired of lying to myself saying that I appeal to women. I don't and I recognize that now. I don't care how much I "find myself" or what hobbies I get, I just don't appeal to women and a woman will never be interested in being with me. I accept that. I'll be 25 years old this year and never held hands with a chick outside of church as a young teen. The only sex I had was sex I paid for. I've worked at numerous jobs and never had a chick interested in me. I've been to numerous places and never noticed signs a chick wants me to talk to her. All this says my romantic life is hopeless and I should leave the women to guys that are naturals or able to improve themselves enough to attract females. It will never happen to me.
Why have I come to this conclusion? I'm tired of lying to myself saying that I appeal to women. I don't and I recognize that now. I don't care how much I "find myself" or what hobbies I get, I just don't appeal to women and a woman will never be interested in being with me. I accept that. I'll be 25 years old this year and never held hands with a chick outside of church as a young teen. The only sex I had was sex I paid for. I've worked at numerous jobs and never had a chick interested in me. I've been to numerous places and never noticed signs a chick wants me to talk to her. All this says my romantic life is hopeless and I should leave the women to guys that are naturals or able to improve themselves enough to attract females. It will never happen to me.