The Damned
Don Juan
Hi Guys,
When I was 16 I was full of confidence, but over 8 years of hell has put me right down to the bottom of the gutter.
Since June 1999 I have witnessed various family deaths(some timely due to old age, some more untimely and premature), almost seen my mum die(luckily she survived), seen my dogs fall ill(one is probably going to pass away soon), been stabbed in the back by so called friends and even by family, had rumours about my sexuality spread and treated like im a idiot by the majority of people who find my life a joke.
The Only Bonus is its made me more of a man and given me courage and bravery beyond belief but a life filled with sadness and regret that can never be put right at the same time.
Over the last few weeks Ive honestly been asking myself is it really worth living this life? Do I want to continue living in a world where I am always getting **** on?
Until things start going right I will probably never be able to change my mentality as I dont know of a life thats meant to be ordinary and happy.
Any advice or personal experiences has anyone else lived a life as tragic as mine and managed to turn it around? If so how did you manage it and what thinking did you use behind it?
When I was 16 I was full of confidence, but over 8 years of hell has put me right down to the bottom of the gutter.
Since June 1999 I have witnessed various family deaths(some timely due to old age, some more untimely and premature), almost seen my mum die(luckily she survived), seen my dogs fall ill(one is probably going to pass away soon), been stabbed in the back by so called friends and even by family, had rumours about my sexuality spread and treated like im a idiot by the majority of people who find my life a joke.
The Only Bonus is its made me more of a man and given me courage and bravery beyond belief but a life filled with sadness and regret that can never be put right at the same time.
Over the last few weeks Ive honestly been asking myself is it really worth living this life? Do I want to continue living in a world where I am always getting **** on?
Until things start going right I will probably never be able to change my mentality as I dont know of a life thats meant to be ordinary and happy.
Any advice or personal experiences has anyone else lived a life as tragic as mine and managed to turn it around? If so how did you manage it and what thinking did you use behind it?