In today's world, loyalty is as rare as painite. Trust only yourself.It is good to see that your tone has changed since you first wrote your post. Your thinking has matured as has your manner of communication. It is also good that you are finding/expecting/manifesting success. Many do not understand that success begins within. If you understand that now as a young man you are well ahead of the curve although many will still misunderstand you. So what. Being supremely confident is a great place to be. It gives one the freedom to speak directly without concern over the consequences. It also can cause a blindness to some things in life. Some gain wisdom faster than others - gaining wisdom is important. I agree that being person of charm and strategy is advantageous in life. Seek quality always in all things and concern yourself with quality pursuits and quality people. I am well versed in both 'The Prince' and 'The Art of War'. Strategy fascinates me. Ever the lawyer's daughter. As a beautiful woman I am often underestimated in business and occasionally in life which typically works to my great advantage - and frankly it is great fun.
I've never felt understood by anyone. My mother is the closest thing to the one entity i could point to, who valiantly tries to understand some aspects of my structure.
However, i have never let this become a hindrance. On the contrary, i think of myself as a higher individual. I do think i have a purpose to fulfill with the world, where not everyone is as well enlightened as i am. I do not reject altruism, but i only help in my way. I think the world is full of ordinance, full of trivialities and submerged under a pile of detritus.
Think of it this way. I feel i have too much advantage and the game becomes too easy and boring for me. The challenge is gone, at least for now. Once i climb into the higher spheres of the society of knowledge, perhaps, i may become enthused with playing again. I only have one vice in this world. Reading has become my hypnotizing drug. I feel like i am in my own version of Inception, while slowly watching how i foreshadow everything to come.
The Prince & The Art of War are enthralling concepts which conform to my train of thought. I hope my recent immersion in Russian literature might provide me with a different scope to understand the world. How could Tolstoy come from the highest spheres of Russian nobility and want to live like a peasant? Gogol's perspective of the reality and the world around it?
Perhaps my nihilistic view of the world stems from everything i was given. Sometimes i wish women would reject me so i could have a reason to ground myself, to question myself and to rethink. Even when it happens, it's a lot like throwing rocks to the sky. They never reach it and ultimately fall back down. Sometimes i wish i wasn't so smart, but can't back away from the temptation of absorbing more knowledge.
There is an old maxim that surely you know. Cliché but true: To whom much is given, much is expected.
My existential delirium. Even when i give my best, i still think it wasn't enough. My own expectations are only surmounted by my god-given talents.
Continue to grow as a man and develop. Over time you may find a few souls who are loyal to you for the long term. Value these people for they are treasure. Time is far more precious than money for one can always create more money but one can never create more time once it is gone. Financial wealth is obtainable to be sure. Power is obtainable to be sure. You already understand that the more money and power one has the more careful one must be about people close in your inner circle. It has been that way throughout history. So seek wisdom, choose people close to you wisely and may your life have happiness and abundance. Cheers!
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